I just want to tell you...
I'm on meds. I'm seeing a psych.
I'm getting help.
Because, whether you want to see it or not.
I'm falling apart and I can't keep myself safe anymore.
I just...I wish you understood.
oh it does make me laugh, that it was MY fault that everything turnt to shit yet when i had the guts to say no and walk away and MOVE on with my life and finally be happy, you regret it all.
YOU left me remember? so 4 months down the line you should of moved on and havent? get over your self you stupid little prick!
I'm very quickly losing my respect for you, Dad.
I thought you were a better person than this.
I thought you were someone I could depend on.
Someone who didn't let me down.
But no.
I thought wrong, didn't I?
I'll never stop loving you, but right now, I despise who you're turning into.
You're breaking your mother's heart, and I'll never forgive you for that.
She's been through too sodding much already.
Now I'll play your ghost as my ace, whenever I'm led astray.
But I am actually good, can't help it if we're tilted.
I'm in my right place, don't be a downer.
i pretend to not
i go to work and keep my mind busy busy
but when i get a moment to myself i think
and i know
i still ache for you
and would give anything for it to be the way it used to be
when i could email or text you whenever and you'd say beautiful things
and id feel safe
i know im better without that type of friendship
and im getting better right now
but thinking of you makes me hurt and its been a year now
i know i will never find someone like you again
i still havent let go of what we were what happened and what we are now
The greatest degree of inner tranquility comes from the development of love and compassion. The more we care for the happiness of others, the greater is our own sense of well-being
There are remarkable things all the time, right in front of us,
but our eyes have like the clouds over the sun
and our lives are paler and poorer if we do not
see them for what they are. If nobody speaks of
remarkable things, how can they be called remarkable?"
here is what you don't know...i feel like cutting after a month of being free. i just want to hurt myself. i came so close to jumping off the flat today. i'm sorry. i thought i recovered. i need to talk to someone but there's noone to talk to.
I wish he could see how much he has and is hurting me.
I love you and you know it, you just don't understand how much it hurts to love you when you don't have any feeling for me, you wouldn't care if i was gone tomorrow, that hurts. i hurt. i wish you'd see
♪The miles are getting longer it seems, the closer i get to you ♪
For now you will pay the price for your betrayal!
You look upon on me like I was something off of your shoe
But it is me who is looking up and smiling
Soon your just desserts will arrive
And they will taste as sour as the person you have become
Watch it all crash and burn
As I watch and laugh as it drags you asunder! :D
Realization that I'm never going to have that again kinda really sucks. Realization that you will have that again most definitely sucks. But hey at let I got what I wanted even for just a moment of time.
thank you, you made me beleave in the human race again, so please please don't let me down
"The body faught to survive, it evacuated toxins in any way it knew how. It made clots to stop the bleeding.Bones would find the quickest ways to heal themselves. It made scar tissue. In the face of violence towards it, it would become violent. It was amazing, yet excruciating. "
