I've never really done well when it comes to replying to support threads since my words get all jumbly, but I always tried. Now, I'm taking more time to focus on myself and it makes me feel rather selfish sometimes. =(
I hate myself for being this fat. No matter what I do, I keep getting bigger. I can't look at myself without wanting to cry, and it hurts even more knowing that I can't stop it.....I just wish I could make myself smaller.....
I made a complete tit out of myself tonight...
Included in the dilemma was a completely random straightgirl crush... though to be fair, she is possibly the gayest looking straight girl you could ever see in your life, EVERYONE in the room thought she was gay...
And I've jus' sent the girl I'd do anything for an email which basically told her I love her more than she'll ever know.
I'm not expecting a positive reply, I wouldn't give me one.
I feel like absolute shit now, and I've been sitting here for a good couple of hours now, and the only thing I want to do is cut. Cut for her, so she knows how much those words hurt to write. Every single letter just hurt to type, I-L-O-V-E-Y-O-U.
Which madcase would love a twat like me?
yeah, you're right, noone.
Now I'll play your ghost as my ace, whenever I'm led astray.
But I am actually good, can't help it if we're tilted.
I'm in my right place, don't be a downer.
I want to bleed to death.
I'm not about to call someone or IM someone or talk to someone about it.
And no one is gonna help me.
And my roommate is going partying tonight
So I'm gonna be alone.
God needs to send someone to be my rescue right now.
I cant believe i did a deep one, even though ive been fighting all week not too. Arrggh!!!
I'm not going to eat or sleep until i pass out...
Im such a fkin twit!!
x.
'The Hardest thing to do in this world is to live in it'
They'll never see,
I'll never be,
I struggle on and on to feed this hunger,
Burning deep inside of me.