thank you for putting up with me. thank you for always being there for me - even when you weren't my boyfriend. thank you for leaving me messages every morning letting me know you're there. you mean a lot to me, and no i'm not totally over him for sure - but that doesn't make me care about you any less. i wish i could give you everything i had already given away to him. i wish i could give you everything you deserve. i love you. thank you for sticking with me. i hope this works out.
I'm sorry, but I don't know how to support you... :/
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I wish you could see me now. I would laugh, so hard. You thought I'd never get any better, but look at me now. Out of hosp, not cutting, and not delusional.
But you'll never see me again. And I miss you. Even though I went through so much because of you, and it's now better without you. Yes, I miss you.
If the bombs go off, the sun will still be shining, 'Cause I've heard it said that every mushroom cloud has a silver lining.
I can't believe you would say that to me! Do you know how many times i've broke down and cried whilst trying to support you?! The one time i don't reply very quick and i'm "leaving you". I try so hard to protect you from the mess that is my head and not to burden you. I've been there for you for over a year dealing with this with you and it kills me. It brings back so much. I can honestly say i have never felt so low, and you still say that to me?!
"A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell 'em for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'"
I regret leaving, but i don't regret leaving you. I wish I could be back there, you're my mother and i should love you, I wish i could forgive you, wish those things never happened, but i just can't. I miss how things used to be, I miss how you used to be, and right now, it's driving me insane. I don't know how much longer i can cope.
I don't want to be here anymore. It's time to run.
M.A.E 12/06/1994 - 29/07/2011
I miss you more than anything else in this world. </3
I'm losing my mind.I can't stop eating.I ate all the food in the house and my parents are low on cash.Still,I asked my mom to give me money to buy food.Fuck,I feel so damn guilty and I fucking hate these disorders.
You can buy me with a coffee,I'm so cheap. Got bitten fingernails&a head full of past;Got a broken heart&your name on my cast.
&&I wanted her to tell me that she will never wake me.