Thanks Claire. It's just really frustrating and I am fed up of being messed around by the bank, SAAS, and apparently uni too. It feels like everything is conspiring against me!
Also. In the library yet again. Completely exhausted but still have 3 summaries to write and discussion questions to come up with - which I can't do at the best of times! Sorry to whine at you all, it's just been one of those days. Again!
Hope you're all doing okay? Lots of love xx
"I know you're sad, so I won't tell you to have a good day. Instead, I advise you to simply have a day.
Stay alive, feed yourself well, wear comfortable clothes, and don't give up on yourself just yet.
It'll get better. Until then, have a day."
*squishes for everyone* I'm tired and my head's not working, but I wanted to let you all know that I might be mostly lurking at the moment, but I do read and I do care and you all know where I am if there's anything I can do. Also, thank you for the support earlier xxx
"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel. Make us all feel wonderful. We'll never forget."
Claire, I'm sorry to hear about the job but Claire is right, it could be that the other candidate had more experience. You did do really well to get the interview and the advice back sounds positive.
Keep at it hun. I know it's hard and deflating when you get a knock back but it will happen.
Sorry to hear your going to struggle to make a schedule, maybe just try and schedule 10mins a day of me time, like I don't know, 10minutes before you go to bed..just to help you stay somewhat balanced.
Star, banks suck, keep hassiling the uni, SAAS and the bank. The more hassle you give them the quicker you'll get a result.
Now, onto more revision for me.
Life can be beautiful if you let it.
Step back, breathe and take it in
"I know you're sad, so I won't tell you to have a good day. Instead, I advise you to simply have a day.
Stay alive, feed yourself well, wear comfortable clothes, and don't give up on yourself just yet.
It'll get better. Until then, have a day."
Oh and, Claire, *cuddles* Lurking is fine - but remember we're here for you, anytime. Thinking of you and hoping you feel better soon x
"I know you're sad, so I won't tell you to have a good day. Instead, I advise you to simply have a day.
Stay alive, feed yourself well, wear comfortable clothes, and don't give up on yourself just yet.
It'll get better. Until then, have a day."
You'll probably remember more than you think you do - bed soon is a good idea, falling asleep in exams isn't good!
Apart from annoyed at banks etc, I'm good thanks. :)
"I know you're sad, so I won't tell you to have a good day. Instead, I advise you to simply have a day.
Stay alive, feed yourself well, wear comfortable clothes, and don't give up on yourself just yet.
It'll get better. Until then, have a day."
****ing phone. Summary of my post because I'm tired.
Claire, you did not fail and it was not due to any flaw in you. I'm sorry you didn't get the job, unfortunately experience plays a big part in these things. Try not to beat yourself up about it. You'll get there in time and you'll move on to bigger and better things. I know it's hard but try to keep your chin up and remain positive. You ARE capable forthese things, it's just about chancing on the right job.
Leigh, how did the revision/exam go? How are you?
Ringer, how are you today? What hassle are you having with the bank?
I got to spend another 10hrs in A&E last night. Got back to the ward at 3am. All because people are just blowing things way out of proportion. I have a really high pulse atm but my bloods, ecg and chest x-ray came back fine, both times. (I was there last Wed too). The medical doctor thinks it's related to exertion, which it's not, I just didn't get a chance to explain it properly which is very frustrating. I have to go back in the next couple of weeks for a treadmill test. Fun. Anyway, that's my boring life for now. Ish.
Awww Amy, sorry about that. Sounds miserable. It's good to get things investigated properly though.
I found something out today which made me really happy. I had to 'enrol' for our really stupid online job application system which involves a form you get scored for. One of the things you get points for is which quartile of your medical school you rank in (stupid because you don't get to put down which med school you went to). You get 40 points for the top quartile, then 38, 36, 34. I expected to be in the bottom quartile (because of a re-sit in my first year when my Grandma died) but was hoping to maybe get up to the 3rd quartile and I did :) I know it's only 2 more points and loads of people would be upset at being in the 3rd quartile but I'm really happy about it.
Always seem to get things just that little bit wrong.
"don't wish, don't start, wishing only wounds the heart"
That's brilliant Claire, well done! :) I'm all happy for you.
Amyyy *Squishes* That sounds horrible. I hope everything is alright and your health gets back to normal soon and such. How're you doing, otherwise?
Oh, and your names make me smile! I'm good thankyou, I've had a rather lovely day :)
"I know you're sad, so I won't tell you to have a good day. Instead, I advise you to simply have a day.
Stay alive, feed yourself well, wear comfortable clothes, and don't give up on yourself just yet.
It'll get better. Until then, have a day."
It was hellish. I didn't want to get it checked in the first place. It was a whole lot of fuss for nothing. My health is actually alright. I'm still plodding along. Had nice lectures from the nurses about 'starving' myself today. Like it's a new thing for me to do. =/. I dunno. I'm hoping to get home on leave this weekend so we shall see. I've lost a fair bit of weight in here so people are like argh. Except one nurse who was like 'do you want to lose weight?' 'Yes' 'Oh that's ok. Good!' I do wonder sometimes.
*hugs amyness super tight*
hmm... careful with the weight loss, spec if due to starving <3
“The good things don’t always soften the bad, but vice-versa, the bad things don’t necessarily spoil the good things and make them unimportant.”
“Nobody important? Blimey, that’s amazing. Do you know, in nine hundred years of time and space I’ve never met anyone who wasn’t important before.”
“If it’s time to go, remember what you’re leaving. Remember the best. My friends have always been the best of me.”
*hugs Claire* I feel your pain because I have lots to do as well, well maybe not as much as you but I know how stressful it can get when you have loads on. I agree with Star a list might help. Try to make sure you have some you time and try not to stress too much, you can do this. Also well done for getting that score
*Cuddles Claire* You did well to get through the interview but I know it must be hard. Don't give up, keep trying you will get there
*Cuddles Star* I hope you get the money issues sorted
Leigh good luck for the exam
Amy that sounds like a pain but it's better to get checked though. Hope your doing okay otherwise?
*Jumps on Heather* How are you?
*Waves to Jess* How are you?
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"Recovery is something that you have to work
on every single day and it's
something that doesn't
get a day off."
Kat, how's the work going, are you getting anywhere? How are you?
I'm okish at the moment. I'm really focusing on food and blocking out everything else. Psychology is getting hard and I feel kind of detached from the world so focusing on losing weight is keeping me grounded. I know it's not great but I honestly wouldn't be able to cope without it right now. Out of the pan and into the fire I guess. It does mean my urges have lessened slightly, which again is bitter sweet.
I had my presentation which was awful. Now just got to a get a start on the next essay but I need to pick a topic. But in good news I actually found out my other essay is due a week later than I first thought. I am okay. Amy please be careful not to replace one form of harm with another. Trying to lose weight is okay but only if it is done the right way.
"Recovery is something that you have to work
on every single day and it's
something that doesn't
get a day off."
Amy please be careful. I don't want to lecture you, just concerned :/ *squishes*
Kat, sorry your presentation didn't go well, but you may have done better than you think! Good luck with your essays, and that's good that one of them is due later than you thought - I like it when that happens!
I'm going to my first zumba class todayyy. :D
"I know you're sad, so I won't tell you to have a good day. Instead, I advise you to simply have a day.
Stay alive, feed yourself well, wear comfortable clothes, and don't give up on yourself just yet.
It'll get better. Until then, have a day."
*Squishes Kat* Sorry your presentation didn't go as planned, but as the bird lady said, sometimes they go better than we think. Have you got a topic for your essay yet? I always hated having to come up with my own essay titles, it's damn annoying! I'm glad you've got a later due in date, hopefully that's taken the pressure off a bit.
Birdy! What is zumba?? And how are you other than excited?
I know it's not healthy and all that, but it's been something that I've struggled with for years and at the moment it's control I guess. I hate thinking that I have problems with food but I think this is the lesser of two evils right now. I guess I haven't improved too much. :/ I might get home for the weekend though which will be nice.
Kat, I'm sure you did better than you think. Sounds like you're actually more on top of things than you thought.
Amy, I know it's just echoing everyone else but please be careful. I hope you get your weekend leave.
I'm stressing a bit over this stupid audit thing which I really don't know how to deal with and my psych appt tomorrow. My mum is coming and I don't really know what's going to happen. Last time I saw him I was really low and he was concerned about my 'fitness to work'. I don't know if he's going to be talking about that kind of thing tomorrow. He's previously said something which makes me concerned that he thinks me not going on my elective might be a necessity for concentrating on therapy and in my mind that's just not an option. I know I'm probably getting worked up over nothing but I hate not knowing what's going to happen.
Always seem to get things just that little bit wrong.
"don't wish, don't start, wishing only wounds the heart"
