i wish i wasnt an only child.
i wish one day i would be good enough for myself.
i wish i wasnt so envious of others.
i wish i wasnt such a failure
i wish i wasnt so scared...or so worried about the future.
i wish my best was a little tiny bit closer to being somewhere near good enough.
how can you understand if you can't see my pain?...... To wear it on my wrists shows what words cannot explain.
My little sister, the one person in this world who loves me unconditionally, I have to hate because she wants to be just like me and she dosn't know the half of it. I love you Hannah.....
I wish I wasn't alive to see this birthday. I want to tear myself apart.
Wake me up before I change again
Remind me the story that I won't get insane
Tell me why it's always the same
Explain me the reason why I'm so much in pain.
There is absolutely no reason for me to feel the way I do and do the things I do other than I am completely pathetic. I make up lies for everyone because I feel like I need to justify why. Sometimes I wish I really did have a reason.
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I don't care about my body at all.
I keep it in this good condition to spare the worries of others.
Really, I don't care how many cuts or bruises I have, how bad they are, or where they are.
I don't care if I'm terribly sleep deprived to the point where caffiene pills are keeping me going.
I don't care if I don't eat for a couple days.
And I don't care if I get sick with the flu or something.
sure I don't like it.
But I'm not willing enough to put up much of a fight against it.
My health is on the bottom of my priority list.
Giving up doesn't always mean you're weak.
Sometimes it just means you're strong enough to let go.
The only reason I am not scarred from top to toe is my family.
I honestly wish I didn't care about them.
Simply because it would make self destruction so much easier.
