I know this is destroying me and my moods are everywhere. But i can't stop myself anymore. I'm so out of control :) Love ya Violet. The voice in my head is amazing!
Another day - Another play - Mold the clay
Straighten it out -Make it lay - Breathe upon the living creature Lungs burn - Heart pumps - Fingers twitch - Becomes alive -
If only you didn't have her,
I could tell you that I'm in love with you,
But when I saw that you had a chance,
At happiness with her,
I had to stand aside.
I love you so much,
It hurts me inside and out,
You're only a mile away,
But it feels like half-way around the world,
I don't know how much longer,
I can keep this silence,
I know it isn't love you feel towards her,
I know it isn't just a friendship that we have,
I wish you knew that too.....
~ I'll Paint You A Picture, I'll Paint It With A Twist, I'll Paint It In Red, With The Canvas On My Wrist.~
If I tell you how I feel, I could lose you forever. But if I lose you, without confessing my love, I'll be lost forever. If you knew how I felt, she could get hurt, if I don't tell you, I'll die inside. I can't sleep, I lie awake, thinking of everything that could happen, hoping that I'll have the strength, to tell you the truth. I was lost before you, and now, I'm scared of everything.
~ I'll Paint You A Picture, I'll Paint It With A Twist, I'll Paint It In Red, With The Canvas On My Wrist.~
yes i got triggerd and hurt my self because i saw my favourie actress potray someone with mental heath issues befor cutting her wrists.
i am such an idiot. Iknow that but her acting of it was amazing and it hurt every part of me watching it.
the worst part i could of a should of just turned it off but i diddn't. why didn't i do the right thing?
"The body faught to survive, it evacuated toxins in any way it knew how. It made clots to stop the bleeding.Bones would find the quickest ways to heal themselves. It made scar tissue. In the face of violence towards it, it would become violent. It was amazing, yet excruciating. "
Stop questioning me. What do you want to hear? That I'd rather fuck girls than guys, or more specifically my counsellor. Is that what you want to hear. You fucking bitch.
well it's over now. i called my therapist and told him i'm not coming back... well, i told the lady working at his office. i love how everyone ends up breaking my trust. there were problems with him i didn't even tell anyone else about. i doubt i ever will.
I love you baby girl but i don't understand you. Im sorry I didn't do what you though I should but my mind doesn't work like yours. Im sorry I didn't understand. I will try harder next time.
Because Everyone feels heartache
And Everyone feels pain
But only those who have true courage
Can get up and try again
I'm sorry, I'm ugly...disgusting, should've warned you. Should've stayed away.
But I really need you to talk to me, I need you to say something, anything
I feel like crap
My RYL family: PaperClip is my big sis
"Greatness inspires envy, envy engenders spite, spite spawns lies. You must know this, Dumbledore."
- The Dark Lord
Please don't give up on me.
Please...I made a mistake but it goes deeper than this.
He knew what he was doing.
I can't prove it, but I know it.
I know it...
Please don't give up on me...
Giving up doesn't always mean you're weak.
Sometimes it just means you're strong enough to let go.
I'm gonna learn to lie and get away with not taking my meds. i don't wanna take them. screw you people. maybe out of control is safer for me. Maybe out of control is something that is safe and constant for me. does anyone ever think of that?
Another day - Another play - Mold the clay
Straighten it out -Make it lay - Breathe upon the living creature Lungs burn - Heart pumps - Fingers twitch - Becomes alive -
