I woke up to reality....
and it's my nightmare
and the funny thing is
you haven't tried to contact me at all
not once
you just fucking diappear for days and leave me broken because of what I found out from Shelly {who's a sweet girl and you're an asshole}
don't you dare decide to call me two days from now with some fuckshit story
don't you dare.
I will fly my ass up there to murder you in your sleep
you can count on that.
give me an explainiation as to why you lied and cheated and broke me into pieces
and then stay. the FUCK out of my life.
k? thanks
“Because everything that goes around comes around. Maybe it's luck or maybe it's fate, but either way, it comes back around."
Rest in Love Sar-sis. I'll see you the next time around hopefully <3 12/11/92-05/18/16
AJs mommy ❤️ 11/26/17
Married to my best friend and Soulmate 3/5/18 ❤️💍
We broke up, I finished it, I couldnt be afaid to speak and act any more, i've been the victim once before, it wont happen again. So why does it hurt so much like my heart will break? I found a new way to hurt myself, one you cant see, you'll all think im fine but i'm not and you really dont care
I dont talk I write,
I used to throw those writing away, delete them or burn them but now they're here http://wfats.blogspot.com
DD - im sorry for all the bother i have caused you and the lying but i only did it because i love you and i wish you could see that
AL & JL - i hate you and i know you hate me so why dont you just get out of my life and leave me alone instead of getting involved in my life all the time
SJ - sorry for everything, really didnt want you to get into trouble, you were my best friend and i let you down and ill never forgive myself for that
'Im finding me out, im having my doubts, im losing the best of me
dressed up as myself, to live in the shadow, of who im supposed to be'
'I know how i feel, But im afraid to show it
Inside its so real, But no one else would know it'
I'm not happy...
I'm lost and broken and angry and want answers
will I get them?
no...
“Because everything that goes around comes around. Maybe it's luck or maybe it's fate, but either way, it comes back around."
Rest in Love Sar-sis. I'll see you the next time around hopefully <3 12/11/92-05/18/16
AJs mommy ❤️ 11/26/17
Married to my best friend and Soulmate 3/5/18 ❤️💍
Two years of sobriety down the drain. I'm drinking tonight. Why? Because I like myself better this way. This way I don't have to think about everything that hurts so much. Tonight, I give up. Monday, I might tell you. Probably not. You really don't care. I know that now, so fuck you.
Location: In a glass vial in the pocket of a beautiful mind.
I am currently:
Alright.
rhap·so·dy - an ecstatic expression of feeling or enthusiasm. ♫
"Sacrifice is the most you can love someone." ♥
“Love was at best an excuse for stupidity, at worst a destructive, dangerous emotion that drove men to acts of annihilation which defied logic. It was a twisted, insidious sentiment used to justify everything from spoiling a child to destroying entire civilizations.”
Location: In a glass vial in the pocket of a beautiful mind.
I am currently:
I hate you for falling in love with me. It cost me my best friend and I miss her. Why did you have to change everything. I miss what we had. I want my best friend back, not another lover.
rhap·so·dy - an ecstatic expression of feeling or enthusiasm. ♫
"Sacrifice is the most you can love someone." ♥
“Love was at best an excuse for stupidity, at worst a destructive, dangerous emotion that drove men to acts of annihilation which defied logic. It was a twisted, insidious sentiment used to justify everything from spoiling a child to destroying entire civilizations.”
I'm sorry, I'm so so sorry. I didn't mean to ruin it, I never should have suggested it. There's something wrong inside me and it's not your fault but I know you'll feel like it is. I'm sorry.
Always seem to get things just that little bit wrong.
"don't wish, don't start, wishing only wounds the heart"
Now I'll play your ghost as my ace, whenever I'm led astray.
But I am actually good, can't help it if we're tilted.
I'm in my right place, don't be a downer.
