what happened? i can't take this. you're perfectly fine. you don't even think about me. you removed me from your life totally, it's like i was never there. right after you told me you weren't going to cut me out completely. it's so easy to get over me. i really was invisible.
you were my best friend. i miss you so bad. it hurts so much.
if these thoughts don't stop soon, i really don't know what i'm going to do. someone just please help me. save me.
Please don't let her have seen them....
If she did please let her keep her f*cking mouth shut!
The stress is killing me... I hope she didn't see them...
don't touch me...If you do I might shatter into a thousand pieces.
it was like talking to a brick wall... like seriously!!!
and how do I feel right now? - I dont know... numb... empty... SAD
I wish you got it. But you dont and that IS ok...
and so right now I just gota do what I need, regardless of the consequences... right now I just gota move on to do what I know is right!
for me... not you but for me!!!
sometimes being strong means not holding back the tears but letting them fall
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my fur baby girls are my life <3
r.i.p my beautiful girl jackie. i will love you always no matter what - 6/5/10
I haven't gone completely off you, I'm not that fickle. But I do care a lot less. I'm just being realistic. You won't leave her, it wouldn't work and I think you're probably still seeing K; it would just hurt me too much to ask her.
Are you still seeing him? I do feel like the two of you are playing me a bit. I can understand why though. And if you are, and that's what you want to do. You're welcome to him and I'm not going to hold it against you. I love you too much for that.
Getting with you was amazing. I never thought it could happen. But I don't want to get too ahead of myself. I need to know where I stand with you. I know you technically have a girlfriend and you feel bad about that. But I need to know what's happening there. Was it just a one off? You aren't the kind of person who risks a relationship for a stupid fling. It wasn't just a drunken kiss. I just feel like if I ask, I look obsessive and needy. I'm not doing that anymore.
I'm sorry. You're the one who gets let down and hurt in all of this. I feel so bad for letting you think something could happen. It won't. let's face it you're third on the list.
Gatsby believed in the green light, the orgastic future
that year by year recedes before us.
It eluded us then, but that's no matter - tomorrow we
will run faster, stretch out our arms further...
And one fine morning - So we beat on, boats against the current,
borne back ceaselessly into the past.
I can't believe you of ALL people are a self harmer.
I'm so sorry. Should I tell you about my own problem? M thinks we can help each other. But I don't think I can handle more people knowing.
why are you mad at me? you were the one who said you wouldn't be with me if you didn't have to worry about me... i gave you what you wanted - what you were trying to get me to do.
what i don't get is how did you end up hating me that much that quickly? what did i do that was so wrong that everything you ever said to me didn't matter anymore? why will you still not talk to me? or was your goal getting rid of me forever?
sometimes i wish for that one too. you really have no idea how much i wish that.
I bet you won't phone me. I worry that this friendship is one sided but it's not! Not anymore! You never phone me. You never call to check I'm okay even when it's clear I've been really upset.
I'm tired of doing all the running about. I'm sorry you're daughter had a miscarrage, I'm truly am - I really feel for J.
But i'm tired. I'm tired of being the lap dog!
You know what.
I lie about things to get you realise im hurting.
And I can't excatly just say oh yeah im cutting again.
I dont kno anymore.
I just need the pain to stop.
I need to be just me.
I need to be able to actaully do things without them being wrong.!
Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.
Just leave me alone.
I can't think of you the same way anymore. Too much has changed between us. You've changed.
Just...remembering. Christ. I don't even want to think about it. It's such an uncomfortable memory. It made me see you in a completely different light. In a way that's just repulsive to me.
I doubt I'll talk to either of you on Monday but even over the internet means so much. And telling me some stuff about yourselves too. Can't believe how nice you're being to me. Never thought anyone would do that for me.
Thank you.
Gatsby believed in the green light, the orgastic future
that year by year recedes before us.
It eluded us then, but that's no matter - tomorrow we
will run faster, stretch out our arms further...
And one fine morning - So we beat on, boats against the current,
borne back ceaselessly into the past.
I'm sorry.....I know that doesn't mean much but I'm sorry
I may act like I want you to leave
but..please please don't leave me
you're all I've got
“Because everything that goes around comes around. Maybe it's luck or maybe it's fate, but either way, it comes back around."
Rest in Love Sar-sis. I'll see you the next time around hopefully <3 12/11/92-05/18/16
AJs mommy ❤️ 11/26/17
Married to my best friend and Soulmate 3/5/18 ❤️💍
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