"A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell 'em for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'"
I want to say those words so much but you know as well as I do that I just cant.
So tomorrow and the next day will pass, and I will not call.. cuz those words everyone wants to hear me speak... are words that I can never let escape from these very lips.
sometimes being strong means not holding back the tears but letting them fall
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my fur baby girls are my life <3
r.i.p my beautiful girl jackie. i will love you always no matter what - 6/5/10
Half Psychotic Sick Hypnotic We sat and waited for the sea
To stretch out so that we could disappear
Into the endlessness of blue Into the horror of the truth We are far less than we knew
G - I just don't know what to do about you. I mean, I like you and we are pretty much inseparable, everyone at work has noticed. But I just don't have the urge to jump on you like I do with him. It's totally different. You're exactly the kind of man I want to marry. Problem is, I don't want to get married right now. And the fact that you're going back to uni at the end of this week is putting so much pressure on this. I'm going to miss you so much. Maybe, we'll just have to see how I feel when you're gone. I'll come and visit anyway, I just don't want you to get the wrong idea. I'm not ready to jump into something with you but I can't admit to you why. I've thought about telling you so many times. I know you have your suspicions. But I can't tell you I'm sleeping with him, or that I do have feelings for him. I don't even know who I like more anymore. I know I should do the sensible thing and forget him. But it's too hard! I'm really hung up on him. It's not like I see me having a future with him, it's just some fun but I'm still pretty obsessive. And I need to get him out of my system before I'll let myself test the waters with you. Because otherwise, it just isn't fair on you. I'm not like him... I can't hurt someone I'm supposed to care about like that. Well, clearly I can. I'm hurting two girls that love him more than anything. But it's different. Maybe that shows how much I do care about you. And how much I value you. I just hope you don't get sick of waiting!
Get the fuck out of this house, get the fuck out of my life, & stay the fuck out.
Narcissistic spiteful selfish bitch.
I hate you.
I miss you beyond belief angel.
I wish you were here.
I'm falling so hard & I need you so much.
I'm sorry.
I'm scared to trust this new professional from HOPE.
So scared.
Last time I was sectioned.
& that was years ago.
& I'm not having it happen again.
NEVER. FUCKING. HAPPENING.
EVER.
GOT IT?
i am so filled with self loathing, i am honestly surprised i am still here and pretending im a good person when i know im not. i HATE myself because why?? i get bored. i hate being stuck in my own head. i hate it.. i hate everything i have to say... i am simply just filled with hate.
haha he guessed everything about you, spot on. he knows. he knows!
i had to pretend i had noooo idea. i said it was crazy. but he knows, and he's right.
smart boy, that one.
i think the only thing he'll never know is that thing we had.
"i love you more than everything that is dear to me right now. I want you to know that you're my BEST friend and that anything that hurt you would hurt me too. so please be careful because it might break my heart. i miss you hard"
Made me cry. I'm so sorry for everything. I love you.
Care. Just ****ing care. Is that too much for me to ask?
Answer me when I talk to you. Don't change the subject or walk away.
I need you to listen. I need your reassurance that things will be okay and I won't be like this forever.
If you can't do that then at least tell me I'm disgusting and how much you hate me.
Don't leave me in limbo.
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