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rach3121 · 26-09-2010, 05:07 AM

I'm grateful for you wanting to spend a couple of days with me. But your interference with my plans scares me. What will I do if you don't let me go through with it?

XxXflowerfairyXxX · 26-09-2010, 08:30 AM

Please please please text me before I text you! I have so many things I need to say. But I'll look so needy if I try to contact you first. I AM needy. But that's not the point. It's actually making me feel sick.

Sushi · 26-09-2010, 09:07 AM

i need to sleep.

XxXflowerfairyXxX · 26-09-2010, 09:32 AM

Why did I give in?

BridgesAndBalloons · 26-09-2010, 09:46 AM

I hate you, all the stress you've put us through, we could have lost everything, all our belongings, my sanity. I've wanted to die just to escape the situation you put us in. You will reap what you sow. It will come back to you. I won't need vengence, watching you slowly fall apart as you ruin your life will be plenty enough payment for what you put us through and how you used us.

Sushi · 26-09-2010, 10:42 AM

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn?
That's alright because I like the way it hurts.
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry?
That's alright because I love the way you lie.
I l o v e t h e w a y y o u l i e .

J.....

XxXflowerfairyXxX · 26-09-2010, 12:20 PM

I wish I had the balls to tell you I couldn't do this anymore. I wish I was independent enough to let this go. I wish I didn't know how hurt I'll be when this is over.

I want to tell you that we need to stop. I want to tell you I have feelings for you and that it's not fair on anyone if we keep doing whatever this is. That I shouldn't hurt her. And you shouldn't be hurting either of them. I think you still have feelings for K... and I don't even understand why you're with N.

But only if you'll tell me you feel the same.

88shelz · 26-09-2010, 01:38 PM

i have changed so much.
the life i had is in the past.
how bloody stupid was i to think that harming would help me.
it made things worse....it has left me alone.
im fighting back and im not giving up - this is my life. there is no room for harm or depression. 4months and it will be a year. time flies so fast.
i have a wish now....but i dont think you care enough to even bother trying to make that wish come true. no matter how i change or what i do it will never be good enough for you. you willl always see me as that weak and self destructive girl....i have news for you - im not. not nw.

Snow White. · 26-09-2010, 02:03 PM

I didn't want to come back to me.

What if everyone is laughing at me?
Being individual, standing up for your true self, can be challenging.

LozzyGirl · 26-09-2010, 04:27 PM

I miss you,
I hate that I miss you!

I love you,
I also hate how I love you.

DestroyMe · 26-09-2010, 05:31 PM

I don't. WANT to go anywhere
why is it when you want to eat crap you have to drag me with you?
I'm fine with eating what little we have in the house
save your god damn money.
and "get dressed if you want to eat"
actually I don't thanks, and wait
you're saying I have a choice in this?
jesus woman I'm 20 fucking years old not 5
stop dragging me everywhere when you want to go eat because you're hungry
I'm perfectly fine at home by myself thank you.

bugger off.

Sushi · 26-09-2010, 08:09 PM

Can't you see through me? I'm the enemy.

StillBroken · 26-09-2010, 09:23 PM

I have an eating disorder
I don't know who I am
I am confused

XxXflowerfairyXxX · 26-09-2010, 09:26 PM

You clearly have no interest in me today.

Second Chance · 26-09-2010, 10:10 PM

I really need to talk to someone.

Catherine117 · 26-09-2010, 10:52 PM

Don't you know one day she'll be your little girl forever.
But right now I need her so much more.
She's much too young to be on her own:
Barely just turned seven.
So who will hold her hand when she crosses the streets of Heaven?

Lord, don't you know she's my angel
You got plenty of your own
And I know you hold a place for her
But she's already got a home
Well I don't know if you're listenin'
But praying is all that's left to do
So I ask you Lord have mercy, you lost a son once too

And it must be kind of crowded,
On the streets of Heaven.
So tell me: what do you need her for?
Don't you know one day she'll be your little girl forever.
But right now I need her so much more.
Lord, I know once you've made up your mind,
There's no use in beggin'.
So if you take her with you today, will you make sure she looks both ways,
And would you hold her hand when she crosses the streets of Heaven.

I miss you so much Alice... 31.10.02 <3 My beautiful baby sister...

Alyssa! · 26-09-2010, 11:26 PM

I don't want to think about this stuff. Hopefully Friday we can just have fun and go nowhere near this topic. I'm scared, tired and lonely. I wish you could understand how this feels. But, I don't know anymore.

Aphelion · 27-09-2010, 12:13 AM

God..

DestroyMe · 27-09-2010, 02:02 AM

I don't want to know..really

Alyssa! · 27-09-2010, 03:31 AM

I'm not doing well today. I'm not doing well lately. You and so many other people say "fake it till you make it." What if I just wind up giving up? I'm so tired. Everyone says to hang in there for my kid. What about me? Why do I have to be so stuck? I hate my life. I can't control myself. I don't know what to do anymore.

We've talked about "the line" 100 times. I feel like I'm on my way to crossing it. Every day, every hour I have to keep asking myself "Do I want my issues to control me, or am I going to control them?" Why do I have to work so hard at all of this?