i wish i can change the past, the shit i was getting at home and school, the emotional abuse and neglect was too much,then i ran away, i thought this new abuse was good, then i realised it wasn't i didnt tell anyone till now, Now im in a world of shit and your still hear cos i feel sorry for you, your affecting my new life now, but theres more people i can tell but i wont cos i feel sorry for you why?
I try to keep my "relapses" hidden as much as I can. Because I don't want people to have to deal with my shit. But sometimes... I'd quite like someone to notice and see if I'd like to talk about it. Not skirt round it a bit and then assume it'll be ok. Maybe it will be ok. Maybe it won't. But there's only so much I can do in my head, I'd just like to talk to someone about it... REALLY talk. In depth. Because it's hard to understand and I know it changes me. I'd like to try and explain while letting some of the pressure go too. Sometimes I want to tell you how I feel about myself. I want you to know how ugly I am, how fat I am. How empty I can be. How much I really don't deserve you. I have such double standards. What're you supposed to do? Guess? I just... I don't even know. I'm sorry
♪♫ I'm Learning To Be Brave In My Beautiful Mistakes ♫♪
I hate myself and I want to die
I want it so much...
you have no idea
I'm sorry...
I'm sorry for everything...
“Because everything that goes around comes around. Maybe it's luck or maybe it's fate, but either way, it comes back around."
Rest in Love Sar-sis. I'll see you the next time around hopefully <3 12/11/92-05/18/16
AJs mommy ❤️ 11/26/17
Married to my best friend and Soulmate 3/5/18 ❤️💍
I hate you. Scratch that- I hate everything about you.
I hope you fall in a volcano and boil to death.
I can't wait to get away from your talon grip.
Why the fuck won't you just let me live my life?
"In- in return?" Snape gaped at Dumbledore, and Harry expected him to protest, but after a long moment he said, "Anything."
I'm a crow chasing a butterfly.
I must become a lion-hearted girl, ready for a fight.
You never knew how much I liked you, I mean I really really liked you.
I couldn't stand the thoughtof her (or anyone else) treating you badly.
I never told you because I knew that you would never ever be interested in me. Instead I admired you from afar, even though I was only next door.
Now that your gone, I can't talk to anyone. I miss you so much and you didn't even know how strongly I felt about you. I feel so stupid for crying over you. I just wish I could see that smile one more time.
I miss you. ='(
This Is For My Fallen Soldiers, We Miss You.
Although You're Gone, We With You. <3
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Say what you will of me,
I'll always have Juggalo family <3
F*** you for being so funny... And intelligent... And interesting, and actually fun to talk to.
It makes it so hard not to like you. Before I saw you again I told myself I would be civil to you but nothing more, and then as soon you walked in I knew that was never going to be it.
I crave your attention, and that really f***ing pisses me off.
“Because everything that goes around comes around. Maybe it's luck or maybe it's fate, but either way, it comes back around."
Rest in Love Sar-sis. I'll see you the next time around hopefully <3 12/11/92-05/18/16
AJs mommy ❤️ 11/26/17
Married to my best friend and Soulmate 3/5/18 ❤️💍
I have never been able to like you, or trust you, or even remotely relate to you. You lie more than anyone I know. You are cold hearted, and close minded. You hate more than you are able to love. Anything that is different, scares you.
I sometimes really hate who I am. But then people like you are out there who reminded me what a great person I am. Thanks for that.
Location: In a glass vial in the pocket of a beautiful mind.
I am currently:
i do care for you dad, but i'm so relieved you've gone back down south, you were killing me.
rhap·so·dy - an ecstatic expression of feeling or enthusiasm. ♫
"Sacrifice is the most you can love someone." ♥
“Love was at best an excuse for stupidity, at worst a destructive, dangerous emotion that drove men to acts of annihilation which defied logic. It was a twisted, insidious sentiment used to justify everything from spoiling a child to destroying entire civilizations.”
