Loz, I'm sorry you're going through so much **** at the moment.
Firstly, have you spoken to your doc about the girly stuff, they might be able to help and reassure you. Secondly, have you spoken to a careers advisor or anything, as they may be able to help you decide what you want to do, as they are objective and removed from your personal situation. I think that you need to try and take a step back from everything and look at all the good things you have. If things are really getting to you, take time out, get your head straight and then go back to it. Your mental and physical health are more important than anything else. xxx
"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel. Make us all feel wonderful. We'll never forget."
Near enough everyone thinks i'm fine fine fine so i brave face it most days I am fine. just these twatish days where everything swoops on me in one big flipping clump.
I don't know what to do any more and its scaring me to hell. I don't know what to do as a career I don't know what to do with my life... god i just wish something would give me a wand and sort this out because i dunno how much longer i can take before i snap...
I was close last monday to snapping in placement but held it together, i'm sat here nearly in tears and i just don't know what to do. there's like so much I want to say but no words to describe what I want to say...
This all ****ing started properly after my nan died 3 years ago and god i wish she was ****ing here I really really do becuase I miss her so damn ****ing much at these moments even if it was just a friendly talk down the phone... **** best stop these tears before parents come back from pub...
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If you want my new account PM me. xxx
I just, I have no words, I'm really sorry, but it's alright to cry, it really is. Maybe if your parents knew how you felt then they could help.
I'm so sorry about your nan, have you considered berevement councelling, because you sound like you really need to talk out how you're feeling. We're here for you, and I really hope things start to get better for you.
I'm sorry I can't do/say more.
"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel. Make us all feel wonderful. We'll never forget."
Claire, you haven't been emo at all! You're struggling, and that's okay. We're here for you.
Loz, I wish I could give you a real hug. It sounds like everything is really getting on top of you, and that's totally understandable, that's a lot for anyone to have to deal with! I understand the need to pretend that you're fine, I really do.. but it's not going to get you anywhere, sweetie. It just means that everything builds and builds until you can't cope with it anymore. About the girly stuff.. go to the doctor, yeah? Hopefully they'll be able to put your mind at rest, and it's one less thing to worry about. You're seeing the nurse about weight stuff right, so could you bring up the purging and everything? You deserve support with this! And I think you know it isn't normal, and part of you anyway wants to get it sorted out. Are you getting any other kind of help, seeing a counsellor or anything? Because if not, it would probably be a really good idea, just so you can have someone be there for you and listen and help you work through all this without judging you or putting any pressure on you. Claire's suggestion of bereavement counselling is good; how would you feel about that? Also is there anyone you can talk through the abuse stuff with? I know it doesn't help a lot for me to say it, but you didn't deserve it, no-one ever deserves to be abused. I don't know if I'm reading too much into it because after all pretty much everyone gets stressed about applying to uni but from things you've posted it seems like you feel kind of pressured into it? And like you're not really sure where you want to go with your life? If that's the case I wouldn't rush into any decisions, or feel like you 'have' to do anything. Talk it through with someone, is there a careers person at your college? If you need to take time out and work on getting yourself to a good place and then figure out where you want to go that's fine too. It's easy to feel like you have to go straight from college to uni to a job and have everything all figured out but for loads of us it ends up not working out quite like that and that's okay. You're the most important person! Just do what's right for you, yeah? Bah, sorry for rambling. Here if you need someone <3
Thanks sparky and claire. I'm gonna go for the night because tbh i'm shattered. will possibly be on msn on my phone but i dunno...
too much crap bogging me down and stuff xx
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okay, sleep tight, get some rest and remember that tomorrow is a new day, and it's good to face things fresh and awake.
Love xxx
"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel. Make us all feel wonderful. We'll never forget."
Hi Leigh and Sparky!
How are you?
Good on you with the fruit-that's nice and healthy!
You cannot get through a single day without having an impact on the world around you What you do makes a difference, and you have to decide what kind of difference you wish to make.
I don't actually think we have any. =/ Thats pretty bad.
I remember when I lived in France, I bought loads fresh fruit and veg and well, it just went off to quick so I didn't buy it again, It was just to damn expensive aswell.
Fruit is good.
Life can be beautiful if you let it.
Step back, breathe and take it in
I went looking though all my parents stuff earlier trying to find something (thats mine) and now my dad is yelling at my mum thinking that it was her that's messed his stuff up..something has been put back wrong because the door won't shut properly or something (oops)
I will not be telling them it was me, he seems to have shut up now so yes.
Life can be beautiful if you let it.
Step back, breathe and take it in
I don't actually think we have any. =/ Thats pretty bad.
I remember when I lived in France, I bought loads fresh fruit and veg and well, it just went off to quick so I didn't buy it again, It was just to damn expensive aswell.
Fruit is good.
I so know what you mean Leigh about the fruit! That's why I never buy it at uni. In fact I'm always quite nervous about buying any food items at all because they go off so quickly.
Probably it was best to let your dad cool down Leigh-it sounds like the sort if thing that will blow over soon anyway.
I'm good thankyou Sparks! I had a Samaritans taster day today which I thought was good. What have you guys been up to?
You cannot get through a single day without having an impact on the world around you What you do makes a difference, and you have to decide what kind of difference you wish to make.
I'm always tempted to do that Leigh-my bed is way too comfy to get out of!
You cannot get through a single day without having an impact on the world around you What you do makes a difference, and you have to decide what kind of difference you wish to make.
