I can't believe your making me go on this mother fucking ridiculous holiday.
A weekend away with your parents, grandparents where i have to fucking reveal my whole disgusting body to them, scars and all, when going swimming. Even though i've told you 1000x times they are the last people i ever want to fucking know that i used to self harm.
And even if i hadn't, why would i want your grandad/dad/whoever to see me half naked?
I look disgusting.
I feel disgusting.
You make me feel like a disgusting tramp.
I'm so angry at you and upset and i don't even want to talk to you.
Just because i love you doesn't mean you can take me for a mug.
The next 4 days are going to be an actual living hell.
"I'll lean on you and you lean on me and we'll be okay"
I don't thnik anyone can help me now.....
and that scares me
“Because everything that goes around comes around. Maybe it's luck or maybe it's fate, but either way, it comes back around."
Rest in Love Sar-sis. I'll see you the next time around hopefully <3 12/11/92-05/18/16
AJs mommy ❤️ 11/26/17
Married to my best friend and Soulmate 3/5/18 ❤️💍
Hmm amazing how easy it is to contact me when you want someone to talk to isnt it.
Never thought you'd turn out to be one of those people.
My exams went fine thanks for asking.
Sarah: Give me the child.
Jareth: Sarah beware. I have been generous up till now. I can be cruel.
Sarah: Generous? What have you done that's generous?
Jareth: Everything! Everything you have wanted I have done. You asked the child be taken, I took him. You cowered before me, I was frightening. I have reordered time. I have turned the world upside down, and I have done it all for you! I am exhausted from living up to your expectations of me. Isn't that generous?
I'm slipping. Can you see it? Do you remember the signs? Will you notice them or will it come as a shock when I lose it again?
I want to get away, to save you from having to see it all again but no matter where I am you will know. I'm sorry,
By the way, I never intended to give him that letter. You want to tell him, then go right ahead. But I don't see why he needs to know, or why I have to tell him.
I also find it really hypocritical that you expect me to work on all my issues when you won't even work on your own.
oh non-believer, please believe me.
is there honestly nothing in this world
that keeps you living & breathing?
you're a ghost in your own
goddamn city.
I've never kept a secret from you before. You're my best friend..and I can't bring myself to tell you that I've started again...or that I don't want to stop.
I loved you. I fell head over heels for you. And then you were only there for me when you needed me to do something for you. I love you so much it hurts to think you couldn't be anything different than a [obscenity]. I could have died for the love of you in April before I realized, "Who am I to let you do this to me?" You rant about all the "beautiful sexy women" with blond hair and blue eyes but when I am with you, you don't even call me beautiful or sexy after ALL the stuff I did for you. You used me and threw me away. You led me on to believe we were going to be so much more. Now, I begin to see the real "u" and I stopped sugarcoating your words and stopped thinking that everything you said was "cute". I see you for the [obscenity] you really are. But dang, I miss you so much...
I'm really sorry about all this....I don't know who else to turn to...I have no one else.
you're it. you know?
“Because everything that goes around comes around. Maybe it's luck or maybe it's fate, but either way, it comes back around."
Rest in Love Sar-sis. I'll see you the next time around hopefully <3 12/11/92-05/18/16
AJs mommy ❤️ 11/26/17
Married to my best friend and Soulmate 3/5/18 ❤️💍
1. Why do you do this? You tell me you love me, then act like you don't care. My head's messed up now, but I love you, and I don't think you realise it. I just want you to tell me how you feel, you know me really well but I know barely anything about you, and this really intimidates me.
2. I've had ENOUGH of your bulls**t. You're a bloody liar and you need to grow up.
3. I'm glad you're back now, it means we can talk, or I can just ramble and remember the past we had together. Gah.
T,
i miss you.
and it's both of our faults that things have happened the way they have. i wish i could change it , because oh god, i miss you so much.
i'm pretty sure i still love you :) six months without seeing you and i still can't get you out of my head or stop thinking about you.
sometimes i think you miss me too, from the phonecalls and texts and everything else, i hope you miss me as much as i do you. well, actually i dont, because its horrible.
i wish things could've worked out better.
i love you and miss you.
the only one who does not realise how much i still love you is you. and your the only one who does not realise how much pain your causing me, cause if you did you'd stop. it hurts too much to stay, but it hurts too much too walk away, so i stay cause i love you more than life itself. i feel like your pain and hatred is my fault ,you say it is and i am starting to belief your cruel words ,i wish things were so different, like they were when we first got together you loved me then.
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