I want to tell you so bad that I've been abusing laxatives and that I'd been purging. Maybe that'd make you love me. If you realise how fragile I really am. How close I am to breaking..
Instead, I don't get as much as a text.
I want you to hold me and tell me it'll be ok..and wipe my tears away..
I want you to tell me that there's nothing more you want in this world than being with me.
I want you to tell me we'll grow old together and have the house we've talked about since we first got together.
I want you to look at me like I'm some what beautiful instead of the hideous monster I really am.
I want you. Just you..
Just to hold me in your arms.
Even just for 10 seconds.
Just so the pain will go for that long.
sometimes I wonder why you're with me....I'm a wreck..and you deserve so much better then me
but yet...you're with me...why?
“Because everything that goes around comes around. Maybe it's luck or maybe it's fate, but either way, it comes back around."
Rest in Love Sar-sis. I'll see you the next time around hopefully <3 12/11/92-05/18/16
AJs mommy ❤️ 11/26/17
Married to my best friend and Soulmate 3/5/18 ❤️💍
Do you know that sometimes I go through old MSN conversations of ours, just to trigger me?
oh non-believer, please believe me.
is there honestly nothing in this world
that keeps you living & breathing?
you're a ghost in your own
goddamn city.
Oh my ever-loving GOD.
Are you fucking STUPID?
Good job, now everyone will think you want me dead. It won't help your victim disguise, that's for sure.
I may be happier and enjoying doing lots of cooking... but I've got more pills stashed away and brought more today. And I keep thinking about taking them.
Gatsby believed in the green light, the orgastic future
that year by year recedes before us.
It eluded us then, but that's no matter - tomorrow we
will run faster, stretch out our arms further...
And one fine morning - So we beat on, boats against the current,
borne back ceaselessly into the past.
No. I don't want to go over to your house tonight. After you've spent all week ignoring me I don't want to walk 2 miles to see you in the middle of your house when if I get caught I'll get in trouble. It's not worth it. I'm not going to get anything out of this. I'm going to feel like a slut and a worthless fuck toy-that I already know.
But I can't say no. Won't say no. Should say no. Can't say no.
Maybe I'll make marks on my skin that you're sure to see. Then look you in the eyes and lie about where they came from. Just to test myself again. I keep threatening, but I think I might actually do it this time...
I will get there. Someday
When everything feels like the movies, yeah you bleed just to know you're alive
I gave everything to you.
And you betrayed me. Just like everyone else.
I'm done.
I'm so close to breaking,
I don't even know how I'm still in one piece.
If you could call it that.
Tomorrow is it.
Tomorrow is the day.
This is too much.
Some of us fall by the wayside
Some of us soar to the stars
Some of us sail through our troubles
And some have to live with the scars
I'm really sorry that you think you're a burdan to me
you're not
I love you so so so fucking much
you have no idea
listening to you tell me how sorry you are that you're going to eventually leave me because there's no way to reverse your heart condition
look , I know this
I've accepted that you're going to eventually die
I'm going to be there with you no matter what
I love you.
“Because everything that goes around comes around. Maybe it's luck or maybe it's fate, but either way, it comes back around."
Rest in Love Sar-sis. I'll see you the next time around hopefully <3 12/11/92-05/18/16
AJs mommy ❤️ 11/26/17
Married to my best friend and Soulmate 3/5/18 ❤️💍
Oh so you two are buddies now? Maybe you can all go be friends with C too? Talk about how much fun it is to fuck me over , rape me, or hey just emotionally belittle me?
God I cant wait to get out of this place. Just a few more months.
Shame to leave behind some fucking awesome friends though.
Sarah: Give me the child.
Jareth: Sarah beware. I have been generous up till now. I can be cruel.
Sarah: Generous? What have you done that's generous?
Jareth: Everything! Everything you have wanted I have done. You asked the child be taken, I took him. You cowered before me, I was frightening. I have reordered time. I have turned the world upside down, and I have done it all for you! I am exhausted from living up to your expectations of me. Isn't that generous?
You baffle me and worry me all at the same time; I'm sick of listening to you because there's nothing I can ever do that will be any good.
I'm not your back-up friend. I can only help, for now at the very least, to a certain extent before I get too involved, again.
There are remarkable things all the time, right in front of us,
but our eyes have like the clouds over the sun
and our lives are paler and poorer if we do not
see them for what they are. If nobody speaks of
remarkable things, how can they be called remarkable?"
Meg you mean soo much to me as a friend and i love you to pieces.
I know i said i would try and stop purging but i just cant help it.
im sorry
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
“Because everything that goes around comes around. Maybe it's luck or maybe it's fate, but either way, it comes back around."
Rest in Love Sar-sis. I'll see you the next time around hopefully <3 12/11/92-05/18/16
AJs mommy ❤️ 11/26/17
Married to my best friend and Soulmate 3/5/18 ❤️💍
