Can't you take the hint?
I don't want to talk to you right now.
I'm over your pathetic problems, which, in truth aren't as bad as you make out.
I'm sick of your whining, your pathetic shit. I'm sick of always being there for you, day in, day out with nothing in return. I happen to have real shit going on, real problems, real issues & yet you don't see me going on to you about nay of it, I just sit there, listen to you go on&on&on & I'm sick of it.
Stop messaging me.
Stop facebooking me.
Stop talking about me behind my back.
Just leave me alone.
Until at least you can grow up, grow out of your damn attention seeking faze & then come & talk to me.
Till then, leave me alone.
I'm not in the mood for you.
I've been staring at my phone, waiting for your call since the second you said you would phone me at some point. Some point most likey won't be for hours but I can't stop looking at my phone, hoping it will ring. Because I love you so much it hurts, because I feel so alone right now and I need you to talk to me and tell me it's okay, you're there. Please hurry, before something pushes me over the edge
I don't trust you. I'm not mad at you. Because I knew this would happen. You crossed the line. You pushed me too far. I can't trust you again. Give up. Please.
I felt every ounce of me screaming out,
But the sound was trapped deep in me.
=) Those shorts didnt look half bad today. I've lost more weight.
But I still need to lose more. Not a stupid amount. Just enough for it to look ok =)
Sarah: Give me the child.
Jareth: Sarah beware. I have been generous up till now. I can be cruel.
Sarah: Generous? What have you done that's generous?
Jareth: Everything! Everything you have wanted I have done. You asked the child be taken, I took him. You cowered before me, I was frightening. I have reordered time. I have turned the world upside down, and I have done it all for you! I am exhausted from living up to your expectations of me. Isn't that generous?
You, you're never sorry.
You never mean it.
You don't care.
You always drink. Time&timeagain.
You always fucking get drunk every evening.
& When you cause shit to happen, you say you didn't mean it, it won't happen again, you were just drunk, it was stupid, etc.
Oh, & guess what?
Here we go again, you get drunk AGAIN.
You do shit, AGAIN.
Is being arrested not even enough?
Is me begging you to stop drinking not enough?
Is me offering to support you & help you not enough?
AM I NOT A FUCKING NOUGH FOR YOU TO STOP?
YOUR OWN DAUGHTER?
All these fucking years, it's always been about the drink.
Either that or you abusing/neglecting me.
& You don't even seem to blink an eye when you do it.
You don't seem to care.
Atall.
& I'm sick of it.
I WANT A GODDAMN MOTHER.
I don't want an alcoholic, abusive, neglectful biological mother.
I want a real mother.
I know I'll never have that.
I just wish I could.
& I wish you could see how much you destroy me inside.
I fear you going to sleep & notwakingup.
I fear you dying because of how severely you drink & smoke & I know you're not the best mother ever, but... you're my only mother, & I need you, I need my mummy.
I just wish you could beher.
I feel dead inside & I want to drink the vodka & take the pills & fall into a coma & die.
I can't take being inside my head anymore.
I'm a bad person. Punishme.
Location: In a glass vial in the pocket of a beautiful mind.
I am currently:
I've been awake a long time. I just want my personal space back, and my bed to myself. I won't sleep in it with other people in it. I just can't. Leave me alone.
rhap·so·dy - an ecstatic expression of feeling or enthusiasm. ♫
"Sacrifice is the most you can love someone." ♥
“Love was at best an excuse for stupidity, at worst a destructive, dangerous emotion that drove men to acts of annihilation which defied logic. It was a twisted, insidious sentiment used to justify everything from spoiling a child to destroying entire civilizations.”
I should trust you more. If you say it isnt working it isn't working. So how come you could phone me?
Why didn't you deny it?
Why are you ignoring me?
Why is this happening?
I don't know what I'll do.
I know nothing anymore.
I wish you would answer me.
About everything...
Please come home. Please come home. Please come home. I hate being left home alone like this. It scares me so much. Please? Or atleast anwser your phone ;_;
I don't wanna go because seeing you is going to hurt and she's gunna be there I know..so I'm sorry I know that you wanna spend time with me, I know you do, but..maybe it's best taht I just delete myself from your life, I'm poison don't you see?
~I love you, I'd pick you over him anyday, you know that right?
“Because everything that goes around comes around. Maybe it's luck or maybe it's fate, but either way, it comes back around."
Rest in Love Sar-sis. I'll see you the next time around hopefully <3 12/11/92-05/18/16
AJs mommy ❤️ 11/26/17
Married to my best friend and Soulmate 3/5/18 ❤️💍
~I'm not going to miss you when you leave..you drink too much I'm sorry, I'll always be part of the Pakk bro' but...I just can't
“Because everything that goes around comes around. Maybe it's luck or maybe it's fate, but either way, it comes back around."
Rest in Love Sar-sis. I'll see you the next time around hopefully <3 12/11/92-05/18/16
AJs mommy ❤️ 11/26/17
Married to my best friend and Soulmate 3/5/18 ❤️💍