Almost a year later and the parties still aren't the same without you. I miss you dude, who would have known that time I was down would be the last time I would see you?
Every time I go on the train to Honiton, I always look out for the field we took the dog to. I don't even know why, it's so weird.
Anyway, I'll have a little drink or something for you this weekend, bit early but who cares.
Thinking about you all the time dude, I miss you
come back please!!!!!
I need you and i cant take much more!
Please i'll do anything if you come back even for 5 more mins, i need to hear your voice and one last hug.
xxxxx
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
I'm so sorry I couldn't save you. I failed as a big sister in protecting you from the awful world. I should have stepped in, asked if you were okay...I'm really sorry. I miss you. We all do. I love you so much and I'm so so sorry that I didn't show it very well, despite what everyone else said. I'm really sorry I have't seen your grave site since the day you were laid to rest...but I hear it looks beautiful. I love you little brother! So much!
"Whether you think you can or can't, you're right" - Henry Ford
Kevin- Thinking of you. I'm sorry that you couldn't hang on any longer. I'm sorry you weren't able to talk and ask for the help you deserve. I'm sorry this life hurt you so much.
Just wanted you to know, You were special and you are missed.
I hope you are resting in peace.
God knows you deserve to be at peace. x
Here's the day you hoped would never come,
Don't feed me violins, just run with me
through rows of speeding cars.
21 on the run, on the run, on the run
From myself, from myself and everyone
I better leave the light on
The darkness, The sweetness, The sadness, The weakness,
O, I need this
Hi, I'm Roli Take Care, Stay Safe, Shout if you need anything
Thank you for being the most caring person I have ever seen in my entire life.
No matter how tiring this life gets, I will try to move forward.
I will make you proud, I promise. You will never ever ever ever ever be forgotten, and you are loved.
Please be happy up there, and send me signs that you are watching over me.
I'm sorry I couldn't stop the man who was going to be your father before it was too late. I know you were only 3 or 4 months growing inside of me but you deserved more than to be killed without a fight. You'd be 2 now, I imagine you with long blond hair like me. But, you lucked out in a way, and I'm glad you're somewhere better that's not the chaos of my life. I think about you often and love you in a way I don't understand.
If u want the Rainbow,u gotta put up with the Rain
Join Date: Mar 2005
Location: London
I am currently:
Daddy,
Im trying but Im really really struggling. Please cant you just come back now. Ive tried to hold down the fort. Tried to keep everything afloat. But I just cant manage it without you anymore. I need you. More than ever. Why wont you come to me. Why wont you help me. I need you. You said youd always be there. And nows when I need you. Please Dad. Please. Ill do anything. Anything. Just come back. Ive had enough of this now. I cant do it for even one more day without you. I just want you back.
'Where did I go wrong
My life's a bargain basement, all the good shits gone
Now I'll play your ghost as my ace, whenever I'm led astray.
But I am actually good, can't help it if we're tilted.
I'm in my right place, don't be a downer.
Tash,
I can't believe it's been a whole year. It's flown by. I miss you. I'm thinking of you today ♥ I hope you're at peace now; wherever you are.
I tried calling your family but they weren't there...I'm guessing they might have been at your grave...gah! Why am I even telling you all this? I don't know. I just want you to know no one's forgotten you. That no one ever will. I wish you'd have called...reached out...asked for help. I wish you were still here. I've got to stop wishing at some point though; I know it's pointless. I just hope you're finally happy.
I love you ♥
Katie xxx
I'm really really really going to miss you.
I can't cry enough tears.
'i lived my life without regret until today.
And you who loved to love and believed we could never give enough,
I didn't get to say goodbye the day before the day.'
6 years on and they've finally put a crossing on the road where you were killed. Not sure how to feel. I'm glad it makes it safer, but sad because if it had been there before you might not have died.
Now I'll play your ghost as my ace, whenever I'm led astray.
But I am actually good, can't help it if we're tilted.
I'm in my right place, don't be a downer.
Dear Mom, You were everything to me. My best friend; someone I could tell anything to. You were an amazing mother and you have one of the most pure hearts I have ever seen. You made me the person I am today, and for that I thank you. I miss the way you smell, and your soft hair against my cheek when you gave me a hug. I'm sorry for not hugging you longer all the times you squeezed me. If I could, I'd hug you forever. I'd do anything to just hear your voice one more time. You're in my dreams every night. I love you more than anything. I hope you are in a peaceful place.
I keep expecting to see you or hear your little feet patter on the floor or your collar jingling. I heard it earlier but it was just mum putting it away.
You were my rock and I know this is going to hurt for a very long time. I can't believe you're gone. I miss you so much and I wish you were here so I could scoop you up and bury my head in your fur.
Spoke about you today. I'm sorry that it's too hard for me. I hope that you forgive me and I hope that you know that I love you always.
Now I'll play your ghost as my ace, whenever I'm led astray.
But I am actually good, can't help it if we're tilted.
I'm in my right place, don't be a downer.
I want you. I want to hold you in my arms and take you in.
Your smell, your face, your tiny fingers.
I'm stupid because you were barely anything and how could I miss you when I never got to meet you but you would have been the miracle that came from that night. I was so broken, so hopeless, so empty but you could have given me the reason to live. I would have given you so much love!
Realistically, I know that Dr B would have stuck to his word and have you taken into care. I wasn't well enough to look after you and maybe that's why you died. I know I should say goodbye and let you go, it just hurts so much! I feel like someone has punched me in the stomach and I'm struggling to catch my breath. It's so hard to let go of what could have been.
Let us go then you and I, when the evening is spread out against the sky, like a patient etherized upon a table
- T.S. Elliot
If u want the Rainbow,u gotta put up with the Rain
Join Date: Mar 2005
Location: London
I am currently:
Daddy, Happy Fathers Day. I love you and miss you so much. I know I let today go by quietly, because it was the least painful way for me to deal with it, but you have been in my thoughts all day, as you are every day, I just dont show it. Besides I know that what you would of wanted was for me and the little one to be running around in the sun having fun, you wouldnt want us to be sad. I miss you and love you and I still dont think i will ever really accept that youre gone. But I come to appreciate the kind of man you were, and the father you were and still are in my heart, every day. Because Ive yet to meet any man as kind and special as you, and I doubt that I ever will. And it makes me realise even more every day how special you were and how lucky I was to have you, even though it wasnt for long enough. Youre always in my heart, and Im still and always will be a Daddys girl. Love you x
'Where did I go wrong
My life's a bargain basement, all the good shits gone
Take Care, Stay Safe, Shout if you need anything
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