I keep lying to you, telling you that everything here is great and that I'm having a wonderful time. Truth is I'm locked away in my room, self-destructing and I can't tell anyone
The place I am in right now is quite a scary one. I am scared of everything and everyone around me and, to be honest, the whole caution of it is exhausting me. I am sick of being on my guard but I wouldn't have to be if people didn't let me down... all the time. The things I do to myself really hurt, but I don't think you care. Can you care? Please?
tonighit, i drank.. i dont know if it made me stop feeling or not. im am tired tho so hopefully will be able to fall sasleep ok for work. mission acomplished i suppose. sigh. i feel sick.
You keep turning your blind eye telling me i am like everyone else and i know i'm not and it's so hard to beat the hurt others left behind when i haven't got enough good in my soul to squash it.
I wish you'd believe i would never leave you of my own will. but can't stop my heart from saying goodbye for me,and it scares me too. i wish i could forget all the things that go on around me, but i spend too much time in reality to remember what it's like on the other side.
I just wish you could see just how much you mean to me.
I do love you.
"i want you within my soul,
arms open wide i would swallow you whole.
We melt together,souls drift in the flames.
passion burning, and the skies ablaze.
Along such beauty and grace,and I am barely worth your presence, my fingertips graze your face.
You will be the one,I could never replace.
And two become one, We are one in the same."
I haven't organised any volunteer work because the bad stuff happened outside the volunteers center. I tried to go back, I honestly did. I'm too scared. Could you come with me?
I NEED HELP ok there i said it. i need help purging and restricting has taking over my life again and i dont know how to stopi need help can you help me[/size]
Location: In a glass vial in the pocket of a beautiful mind.
I am currently:
shit.
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