I've managed almost 2 months, because I've got reason and purpose.
And most importantly, because I can't let you down, even though you don't know.
Complicated mind.
I wish I was his daughter. I wish I mattered to him. I wish he would notice me and want to be in my life. I wish...
So complicated,
Filled with so much hatred, Such a tired game
It's enough, I've done all I could think of, Chased down all my demons
I've seen you do the same
Pretty, pretty please, don't you ever, ever feel
Like you're less than f*cking perfect
Pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel
Like you're nothing, you're f*cking perfect to me <3
I wish I could go back in time and open up. I wish I could go back in time and show them that I am stronger than this. That I did it without them. And how much I wish I didn't have to do it alone...
So complicated,
Filled with so much hatred, Such a tired game
It's enough, I've done all I could think of, Chased down all my demons
I've seen you do the same
Pretty, pretty please, don't you ever, ever feel
Like you're less than f*cking perfect
Pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel
Like you're nothing, you're f*cking perfect to me <3
Honestly, you have no right to quit like that. Not when you have responsibilities. You are a cowardly piece of shit. Just because something gets hard doesn't mean you light out like that. I hope we don't ever have to see each other again.
I'm so sick of this exact kind of crap from people.
Also, twas very confused today when someone said they saw you. I forgot you existed, to be honest. It's delicious. And my adopted mother... big improvement. :)
REALLY
Really, now, it had to happen, and now of all times
The time when she's just trying and starting to make progress
THIS fucking happens
GREAT, just fucking great
Now the thing she loves most that keeps her going, releives her stress and lets her escape for a while might be taken away
GREAT
And now she's in a physically vulnerable position, which is even better for the cause
Godfuckingdamnit
I hope it gets better
Farewell the Ashtray Girl
July 12, 1987-April 30, 2010
Im actually saying this to this thread. Because theres nobody I can tell.
I purged twice today. Im not recovering, and Im either starving myself or purging.
Sarah: Give me the child.
Jareth: Sarah beware. I have been generous up till now. I can be cruel.
Sarah: Generous? What have you done that's generous?
Jareth: Everything! Everything you have wanted I have done. You asked the child be taken, I took him. You cowered before me, I was frightening. I have reordered time. I have turned the world upside down, and I have done it all for you! I am exhausted from living up to your expectations of me. Isn't that generous?
If you apologised I would spit in your face. No amount of sorry could make this better. You ruined me and now you're not even around and you're still managing to ruin my life.
I fucking hate you you scum bag. You're the worthless piece of shit, not me.
I want to hate you the way that you despise me.
I want that. so much
“Because everything that goes around comes around. Maybe it's luck or maybe it's fate, but either way, it comes back around."
Rest in Love Sar-sis. I'll see you the next time around hopefully <3 12/11/92-05/18/16
AJs mommy ❤️ 11/26/17
Married to my best friend and Soulmate 3/5/18 ❤️💍
