You'll never make me leave
I wear this on my sleeve
You wanna follow something
Give me a better cause to lead
Just give me what I need
Give me a reason to believe
So give me all your poison
And give me all your pills
And give me all your hopeless hearts
And make me ill
You're running after something
That you'll never kill
If this is what you want
The fire at will
This place inside my mind, a place I like to hide
You don't know the chances. What if I should die?!
A place inside my brain, another kind of pain
You don't know the chances. I'm so blind!
Another place I find to escape the pain inside
You don't know the chances. What if I should die?!
A place inside my brain, another kind of pain
You don't know the chances. I'm so blind!
Deeper!.. Deeper!.. Deeper inside me!
To live a life that seems to be a lost reality
That can never find a way to reach.
My inner self
I stand alone!
How deep can I go in the ground that I lay?
If I don't find a way to see through the gray that clouds my mind.
This time I look to see what's between the lines!
I can see, I can see, I'm going blind
Here I am different in this normal world
Why did you tease me? Made me feel absurd
****ing stereotypes feeding their heads
I am ugly. Please just go away
Now come one come all, to this tragic affair
Wipe of that make-up, what's in is despair
So throw on the black dress, mix in with the lot
You might wake up and notice, you're someone you're not
If you look in the mirror, and don't like what you see
You can find out firsthand, what it's like to be me
So gather 'round piggies, and kiss this goodbye
I'd encourage your smiles, I'll expect you won't cry
Hey dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do?
But it hurts when you disapprove all along
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that
I'm alright
And you can't change me
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard
Just to talk to you
But you don't understand
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
DILLIGAF
"its when youre acting selflessly, that you are at your bravest"
- Four.
♥
Well I couldn't tell you, why she felt that way
She felt it everyday
I couldn't help her, I just watched her make
The same mistakes again
What's wrong, what's wrong now
Too many, too many problems
Don't know where she belongs
Where she belongs
She wants to go home
But nobodys home
That's where she lies
Broken inside
With no place to go
No place to go
To dry her eyes
Broken inside
Open your eyes, and look outside
Find the reasons why, you've been rejected
And now you can't find, what you've left behind
Be strong, be strong now
Too many, too many problems
Don't know where she belongs
Where she belongs
She wants to go home
But nobodys home
That's where she lies
Broken inside
With no place to go
No place to go
To dry her eyes
Broken inside
Her feelings she hides
Her dreams she can't find
She's losing her mind
She's fallen behind
She can't find her place
She's losing her faith
She's fallen from grace
She's all over the place
She wants to go home
But nobodys home
That's where she lies
Broken inside
With no place to go
No place to go
To dry her eyes
Broken inside
She's lost inside, lost inside
Oh oh
She's lost inside, lost inside
Oh oh
I'm giving up on everything, because you messed me up
Don't know how much you screwed it up, you never listen
That's just too bad, because I'm moving on
I won't forget, you were the one that was wrong
I know I need to, step up and be strong
Don't patronise me
The sharper the edge, the cleaner the wound
So I'll be keeping it dull tonight For I deserve to hurt Disfigure the outside
To show how ruined I am There's no pain and no pleasure when you're
Too numb to feel
There's a pedestal across the room
And if I try to climb again
This time the fall is fatal Now, I don't deserve such an easy exit So maybe my
Spine can snap on impact and I'll
have to crawl away.
I'm ready to take that big step
Start tearing off the layers I put up
Or is it too late to be
Anything but what I am Identify the problem
Now let's see
If we can fix anything.
Just close the door and let me do what I need
Cause it's better for us
If you just let me leave.
I'm ready to take that big step
Start tearing off the layers I put up
Or is it too late to be
Anything but what I am
Identify the problem
Now let's see
If we can fix anything
How to fix everything
___________________________
don't mean to scare you but i've i've not been sleeping lately and phone calls aren't doing much to help so if it's all the same i'd
just ask to never have to
offer explanation or excuse again
we make believe every day
we make our lives seem like they're still worth living
when we find out in the end
it's only us that we've been kidding
so find the darkest place and
search under blankets for me smothering myself in this darkness i am lying down tonight and
you're not lying with me
but honesty doesn't sit so well on you
some things you just can't fake
we make believe every day
we make our lives seem like they're still worth living
when we find out in the end
it's only us that we've been kidding just another stupid drama
that no one notices but you
and you only take an interest when
there's nothing else to do
but you won't mind
wait for all of it
i can't go wait for all of this
but you won't mind
you wait for all of it
i can't go and wait for all of this
we make believe every day
we make our lives seem like they're still worth living
when we find out in the end
it's only us that we've been kidding just another stupid drama
that no one notices but you and you only take an interest when
there's nothing else to do
______________________________
Pound my knuckles hard against the floor.
My head against the wall. But I did this to myself.
Assume it's just not worth getting back up, so I'll blame it on bad luck. And I'll shake responsibility, yeah.
I spent some time in a bad place at 18, wishing I could see something through clear eyes. Do you ever wake up to realize
that your life is meaningless? Does it give you strength or lead you to
your grave at a young age?
Pound my knuckles hard against the floor.
My head against the wall. But I did this to myself.
Assume it's just not worth getting back up,
so I'll blame it on bad luck.
And I'll shake responsibility, yeah.
It seems that when I ran away from my past
all my dignity, my faith, my pride got left back.
And now I think it's time that I realize self pity's meaningless. Though I'm 10 feet deep,
I'll claw my way back out from in my grave.
Pound my knuckles hard against the floor.
My head against the wall. But I did this to myself.
Assume it's just not worth getting back up,
So I'll blame it on bad luck.
And I'll shake responsibility.
And say a hard life did this to me.
Now I realize, I'd give anything I have
to walk a day in my old shoes. Wondering what my first smoke would be like,
my first ****, my next **** up. {Or} the next band that would change my life
and it changed my life
and it changed my life.
Pound my knuckles hard against the floor.
My head against the wall. But I did this to myself.
Assume it's just not worth getting back up,
So I'll blame it on bad luck.
And I'll shake responsibility.
And say a hard life did this to me.
'Never forget what you are. The rest of the world will not. Wear it like armor, and it can never be used to hurt you.'
['There is only one thing we say to death. Not today'.']
'We are each our own devil, and we make this world our hell. Oscar Wilde
Its hard to dance with the devil on your back. Sydney Carter
that boy smiles just like hollywood
that girl acts interested
here I am dressed to massacre
all alone in the corner of a crowded room
lights camera wait
no ones getting any action
take a sip while no ones looking
just to try to ease the tension
director cut to my dying slowly
on the floor in the corner of a crowded room
This time, taking it away
I've got a problem, with me getting in the way,
Not by design
So I take my face and bash it into a mirror.
I won't have to see the pain (Bleed, Bleed)
This state is elevating, as the hurt turns into hating.
Anticipating, all the ****ed up feelings again
Remember all the times that we used to play?
You were lost and I would save you
I don't think those feelings will ever fade You were born a part of me
I was never good at hiding anything My thoughts break me Do you understand what you mean to me? You are my faith.
Won't you cure my tragedy?
Won't you cure my tragedy?
...If you made the world a stage for me then I hope that you can hear me scream Can you hear me scream?
I can't take this anymore
I can't feel this anymore! My whole life I've made mistakes
Can you hear me scream?
Last edited by My_Name_Is_Aiden : 13-03-2008 at 04:52 PM.
Reason: adding more
Leave him numb. Leave him crushed.
All in all is all we are
Location: second star to the right and straight on til morning (USA)
I am currently:
still I [you] hear you [me] say
you [i] want to end your [my] life
...she stands hard as a stone, in a world she can't rise above...concrete angel
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