1. I'm going to start restricting properly. Sorry about this, I know it will hurt you, but I need it.
2. I'm sorry I wish to remain anonymous to you. I hope you weren't offended, you didn't seem to be. But I hope you joined this place, because right now it can offer you more support than I can. And I can't say those words to you.
3. I'm bruising again. Cutting again. I want someone to notice but I'm doing my best to hide it. Please someone find me, I'm lost.
4. I'm sorry hun but your attitude annoys me. And I don't know why because it's not your fault. I guess I'm just irritable. I'm sorry.
5. You're in a really bad way at the moment and all i've done is send a few texts. She's in a really bad way and I've tried to give advice but I guess it was pretty crap. He's in a bad way and I'm actually quite horrid to him a lot. To all three of you, I'm so sorry.
6. To everyone on here: sorry I'm not giving much advice at all, my head isn't in the right place at the moment. I'm sending out hugs and when I can I'll try to help, I promise.
We should be getting excited together right now.
You should be sleeping over here tonight.
We should be going up there together tomorrow.
Instead.
I'll just be sitting there wondering what happened.
I lied when I said it didn't bother me anymore.
How long did we get excited about this for? We did it all together. Every last step. We always ended up needing space at the end of it all didn't we? But we still pulled together every time.
We always pulled together.
We helped each other.
It was always me & you.
"Be nice. Think happy thoughts. Champion silver linings. Love all things (not just cute things like babies and kittens) & when you do love - love like they do in power ballads (you know like on a cliff with the wind in your hair and your eyes shut, knowing you'll never know love like this). Watch out for dog poo. Smile at people - even grumpy ones. Remember anything is possible & whatever you do always try to look on the bright side."
sorry have i got mug writen on my head.
do i look like a mug??????
are you taking the p**s out of me??
ive had it with you.
me and you are over.
i cant cope with you telling me im doing things ie not done.
ive had it.
just lave me.
i dont want to see you ever again.
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
You miss me more than I miss you.
That's not because I don't love you, it's because my feelings in general are not as strong as yours. And they're dulling down right now. All feelings.
It's just, I can't deal with your paranoia right now. It's like an attack on me, you don't trust me?
I'm sorry hun. I love you. But is that enough to help you when I can't help myself or anyone else?
how dare you! you do not have the right to say that to me, i tell you i'm sick, i'm cutting and smoking and suicidal more than ever, but i'm still not just surviving but achieving, i'm working so hard, and not for me, for you, for everyone. if there was no one else in my life, just me and no one else, i'd kill myself in a second, but i refuse to hurt people like that, i always said i'd take all the pain you have if it would make you happy, but dont tell me i'm wrong, and dotn tell me you hate me, cuz if you dont care i'll stop trying
"Nothing is permanent in this wicked world, not even our troubles" ~Charlie Chaplin
if i didn't make such an effort to cover up my body, to cover up my face, to cover up all the hurt i have been commiting, then you wouldn't say these things to me.
FUCK YOU!
seriously.
get the fuck out. i am sick of this. i am sick of THIS.
i am supposed to be your daughter & you can't see a thing! you cannot fucking see me can you?!
LOERBNLWRKTBNKTRJBHWRTKBBLTEKVB
i am learning to hate you.
i am learning to fucking hate this whole mess.
FUCKING LOOK AT ME.
i will show you soon. FFS. i want to show you everything i have been doing to myself, i cover it up to protect you but i cannot be fucked anymore. you make me so goddamn angry.
I know we hardly know each other but i'm worried about you.
I want to be there for you. I want to help you in any way i can.
The thing, is i don't know if your ok with that?
I'm sorry.
This time tomorrow I should be banned. Thank fuck. & next wednesday, meant a hell of a lot to me. I tried my best for you, would've been nice to make some effort for me.
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Last edited by typsee : 14-12-2007 at 10:35 AM.
Reason: post edited due to an offensive comment about other members of this site
i love you
i cant stop thinking bout you
your soo beautiful
i love you so much
y are you interested in my sister
i no im fat but i am nicer
she treats you like shit...do u not see
Today, I went to Benji's house and gave him a blowjob.
Yes. Benji.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
I'd love to tell someone who knows him just to hear them say "Oh. My. God. Benji?"
But nup...can't. If people knew it'd fuck shit up basically.
It was great though. I feel better about myself than I have in a long time.
"Well yeah, and I'm sad, but at the same time I'm really happy that something could make me feel that sad. It's like, it makes me feel alive, you know? It makes me feel human. And the only way I could feel this sad now is if I felt somethin' really good before. So I have to take the bad with the good, so I guess what I'm feelin' is like a, beautiful sadness. I guess that sounds stupid." "Yeah."
