In this state of chaos sleep seems impossible. It's taking a lot of focus to stay mostly still on the sofa. Think it's going to be mad was until I crash.
Yeah, once again i managed to not bring enough presents to satisfy the young miss :( however, i am unsure if it is even possible, at her age, to actually bring a satisfying amount of presents ;)
Her little brother had a meltdown from the minute we picked them up at kindergarden. I suspect they had given both kids a double espresso each just before we arrived to Pick up….!!!! Turns out he beats people at random when he's tired o_o good thing he's only 3 and punches like a sissy!!!
So, after being beaten, hugged, cuddled, beaten some more and having tried to comfort and console them both at least 6 times, i was quite tired and happy to go home!!! I am NOT made of parent stuff. I love those two but i am mentally too much a wuss to cope with them for too long.
I Got home, had a total attack of anxious energy that left me unable to sit still and calm down. Decided to go to bed so made a kettle for my hot water bottle. Upon emptying kettle i discover there's something rattling around inside the electronic part of it. So i pull it from the plug and the entire socket decided to come out of the wall…..
I can't cope with anymore today. I'm gonna throw a tantrum like a 3 year old if i am faced with any more obstacles.
I've cuddled my bun bun so much to try and calm myself down that i suspect he'll stay Well away from me until tomorrow morning.
So, let us all try to soothe ourselves tonight and breathe in peace and inner harmony. Lest we end up punching someone/something…
Hope everyone managed to settle down and get some rest after a challenging day for many of us!
I've only just finished what I was doing study-wise today. I've been basically doing it all day and I think it might all have been mostly a waste of time, heh. Anyway, what's done is done and sent to my mentor. Bedtime now, up again in like 7 hours and then work all day followed by more study. Tired enough without thinking about that!
Sending love to all, and hugs to those who want them. <3
I hope work goes ok today Luce always harder to work on low sleep. I am sure not all of your studying has gone to waste there will be something there you can build on.
Blah indeed Beckie! That is not a vibe!
I got 6 and a half hours sleep. Which isn't enough. Woke up with a headache so taken some paracetamol and going to see if I can doze a bit more. Not especially hopeful though.
03:45 is waaaay too early to be up Beckie! You must be knackered. Hope the gym goes okay, be careful - especially on that little sleep.
Sorry your chest is playing up Jen, hope the inhaler and rest keeps it under control.
Work is indeed harder on no sleep - first half hour I've not even managed to do anything and I've bumped my first meeting by half an hour, but I'll get into it I'm sure. And I'm sure I can use some of the stuff I found yesterday, it just feels like that was a job that a 'normal' person would've been able to do in a couple of hours. I managed to fail at skim reading, not really know what I was looking for and over-complicate it whilst making it take all day and write pages of quotes/evidence - most of which I won't need! So yeah I feel a bit stupid and worried about the time I've got left, but we are where we are and I'll just have to get it done so I've not screwed the whole of the last year up.
Luce, you get street cred for actually powering through even though you really needed to relax <3
Sometimes you have to compromise with assignments. And turning something in when you've tried your best is good compared to not turning anything in at all!!!
Spent most of the night awake. Had awful restlesness, awful headache that refused to go and a bunny that came jumping onto my bed a million times to dig caves in my duvet and pee on duvet because it's obviously HIS duvet and must smell accordingly!!
Poor you, Beckie!!! Having to obey your body and get up in the middle of the night. I hope gym is okay but remember to look after you!!!
And i hope you can get a nap later, Jen. With no subsequent headache or tightness in chest. Xx
You did your best Luce, wanted to add most people don't study and work full time let alone have mental health challenges to deal with. I am sure the extra info will come in handy at some point and there is some useful stuff in the midst of the not so relevant bits. Try and show yourself some compassion although I know that's hard.
Naughty Findus! Sorry you had a rough night Zurg.
Morning Tamo and Lindsay!
Lungs seem to be behaving. Am rather tired and quite bored as well
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I hope your lungs continue to behave, Jen, and you can get some rest and also find something to occupy yourself with that isn't going to make things worse. What might you be able to do?
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
