For just once i wish i could beat you. Do you realise you brake me down compleatly untill i doubt my self and the whole world around me. I am so fed up of waking up and seeing what you have done to me. So why then after all this can i never let you go. Becuase you i have loved like i have never loved before
"The body faught to survive, it evacuated toxins in any way it knew how. It made clots to stop the bleeding.Bones would find the quickest ways to heal themselves. It made scar tissue. In the face of violence towards it, it would become violent. It was amazing, yet excruciating. "
You were always there for me to fall back on, and now you've disappeared. You're just another let down. How am I supposed to carry on without you?
I hate you.
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But I can't help but miss you for what you did for me. You made me feel again, so I thank you for that. If I need you again, you're there, aren't you? I think that I need you to be.
please leave me alone. people are going to find out and they're going to help me to get rid of you. as much as i want you to stick with me and however much i rely on you... i want you to leave me alone.
please just give me at least a month free! just a month is all i ask!
You're better than this. Breathe in. Breathe out. It'll be okay. I promise. Just don't forget to smile :)
The funny thing is,
nobody really ever knows how much
anybody is hurting.
We could be standing next to somebody,
who is completely broken,
and we wouldn't even know.
You have changed my life forever. Now I will never know what would of happened if I fought for my happiness, instead of choosing you as the easy way out, it's easy to want you again, so so so easy and don't think I don't consider it because I do, all the time, but right now it's been a month since you made me break, but i don't class that as a relapse, Im down and I'm weak and i can hear you swarming around me and suffocate me...I need to breathe through my skin.
I gave you up for everybody elses sake, and it hurt so much, but i knew taht it made everyone else happy.
Now i have you back its still the best and the worst thing in the world. You bring me stability and insanity, courage and fear.
I don't understand why you have to hurt others, when its just me that im hurting.
I dont understand why i have to need you, or want you, when there are other things which could help me which are far less destructive but equally punishing.
Why am i so unhappy if youre the thing ive always wanted
Okay, I'm saying goodbye to you again. I hope not to see you this time.
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But I also do. I'm so ashamed to admit that I want to see you again.
There are remarkable things all the time, right in front of us,
but our eyes have like the clouds over the sun
and our lives are paler and poorer if we do not
see them for what they are. If nobody speaks of
remarkable things, how can they be called remarkable?"
I wish u never took the worst in me.. now its u i think of everyday even this morning, u demand more and more,wanting planning permission of a city in the making, love hate relationship i guess we carry, cant live with you... cant live with out you.... if i dont see u i feel u, its either one or the other. my friends or family will never love u.
Laughter is a direct route to the soul. It broadens your perspective, keeps you healthy, and makes an unbearable situation alot easier to deal with.
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Without you, I would never have become the person I am today. And I still need you. Don't leave, like everyone else has. Stay with me, if only for a little while.
oh non-believer, please believe me.
is there honestly nothing in this world
that keeps you living & breathing?
you're a ghost in your own
goddamn city.
How did you become such a big part of my life??
I never realised as a child that you would be in my thoughts daily, even in my dreams. That every situation would led me to think of you.
I need you but don't want to, I don't know how many times I have tried to give up or go without you but you still come back.
You make me feel, you can make me happy for a little while, you make me hate myself....yet still I am drawn to you, still I fantasize about you.
I love you and I gate myself.... Shouldn't it be the other way around? I do hate you for the way you make me feel
I've been without you for so long, I've been able to say no to you and mean it. Why now? Why are you making me choke back tears and think of ways that I could give in to you with no one finding out? I wish I could let you in to calm me down. I know you'd comfort me. But I know I wouldn't be able to let you go again.
