"A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell 'em for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'"
He reminded me that he is in control and that i belong to him. He will always be in control. I will never be free. I will always be hurt. I belong to him. I dont want to breathe anymore.
"A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell 'em for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'"
I'm glad its not so much now, but its still not ok. You're not dirty, just hurt.
Sam, you do deserve it, and it really doesn't matter if you do or not. The fact is, you are being hurt, and that is wrong. :/ Sorry you broke your laptop. Shh not time for you to die yet, honey. Theres loads for you to live for and do still. *holds Sam* Can you please think about calling someone?
Every day the world is made a chance to change but i feel the same.
And I wonder why would i wait till i die to come alive?"
All alone the way she feels
Left alone to deal with all the pain-drenched sorrow relief
Its what i'm for for people to use sexually and pleasure themselves from and try out things
It was better for parents when small as lot men like little girls it seem
I just not like it when made pictures or things sometimes have to have it long time
"A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell 'em for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'"
Thats not what your for. You are more than a body for people to have their way with Those men are perverted. No one would like that. Did you have another counseling session yet? Is that helping at all?
Its hard to think clear when you're hurting, no need to be sorry. Please call someone and get some help, Sam. It's ok to ask for help, you're being hurt and hurting. That guy has no right to say what he did or treat you the way he is.
Every day the world is made a chance to change but i feel the same.
And I wonder why would i wait till i die to come alive?"
All alone the way she feels
Left alone to deal with all the pain-drenched sorrow relief
Therapy not help lot
Feel bad things
Why did people do things if it not what i'm there for and why do it lots
Me had to show men where to go to bedroom then get undressed and stand till touched
"A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell 'em for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'"
It could take awhile to work through this, therapys not gonna make you feel all better in just a few sessions. All this sounds very scary. Has therapy helped at all? People do bad things because they have no respect for other people, they are caught up in their own selfish desires and don't care what is right. When they have the power, they can do it as much as they want. Doesnt mean that is what you're for. I promise its not, honey.
Sam, you're not his. He did not make you. Even if you're tired, hold on. Get someone to help you fight, to help you be safe.
Every day the world is made a chance to change but i feel the same.
And I wonder why would i wait till i die to come alive?"
All alone the way she feels
Left alone to deal with all the pain-drenched sorrow relief
I'm sorry I just really don't think I deserve it. Keep going to the fridge and staring at the beer. I need it. I'm scared and it numbs my fears. I need them numbed. Very badly. I'm breaking. I want to take a walk to my bridge but I fear I wont come back.
"A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell 'em for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'"
I had to have done something. I'm stupid. I'm ugly. I'm fat. I'm disgusting. Thats what I did. I let them hurt me. It's all my fault. *hugs knees to chest and screams*
I do need it...But im not allowed to. Don't know if i can hold off tho.
Sam, you arent any of those things. And even if you were, that is no reason for anyone to hurt you. Some people just don't care about others and do what they want. Doesn't make it your fault. Remember the pm you sent me the other week? *hands you a pillow to scream in*
Every day the world is made a chance to change but i feel the same.
And I wonder why would i wait till i die to come alive?"
All alone the way she feels
Left alone to deal with all the pain-drenched sorrow relief
