Cat's had issues since she was young. I've been with her for years, just nobody figured it out until a few months ago.
She had a bad childhood becuase of her parents, and the simple fact she was depressed, and she started hurting us at thirteen because of it. I feel bad for her though, becuase she was doing really well with her self harm until he showed up...he ruined everything for Cat.
If it weren't for him, then Faith wouldn't have shown up, and I probably would have gone back to sleep.
“Mental illness is so much more complicated than any pill that any mortal could invent ”
Yeah...but I take care of her.
There's a lot she just can't handle right now, so I help when she starts to break. Trying to get her to talk to her shrink, but she's still in denial.
So for now, I'm here for her and Faith.
“Mental illness is so much more complicated than any pill that any mortal could invent ”
So do I.
And Faith like it here, but I try to not let her out too often. Don't want her getting hurt like Cat. Cat never had a normal childhood, hell, just never really had a childhood. Faith will get hers though. I promised her.
“Mental illness is so much more complicated than any pill that any mortal could invent ”
Was Cat abused as a child? And in here Faith can have fun and have playmates. Lots of the littles I know and we know here like to have some toys and books and art projects around in the house, or even special kiddie DVDs. That might help Faith feel good and enjoy herself.
Farewell the Ashtray Girl
July 12, 1987-April 30, 2010
She wasn't abused, her parents were just kind of, negligent with her. We pretty much knew how to take care of ourselves by the time she was six.
She wasn't abused until he came along. Still trying to find a way to help her with that...
I've got a drawer in Cats desk set up with art stuff and a couple of toys for Faith, plus Cat still sleeps with her teddy, so Faith is happy. She's new, and it's been a learning experience, figuring out Faiths needs as well as our own. I've been taking care of Cat for so long, I got used to it being just the two of us, but Faith found her own place with us. It's kind of nice having a kid around.
“Mental illness is so much more complicated than any pill that any mortal could invent ”
*ventures out from under the quilt and away from the corner*
Well. That didnt go too bad. Managed to get a lot out, even if it was on facebook. I HATE talking to someone for the first time about something serious. Especially if its the first time ever talking to anyone about it at length. Now the only thing is I know this conversation isn't finished yet...we'll be talking about it again. In person.
Ah, DID. I was a little confused.
BTW Alex, thats a beautiful flower in your sig. :)
Every day the world is made a chance to change but i feel the same.
And I wonder why would i wait till i die to come alive?"
All alone the way she feels
Left alone to deal with all the pain-drenched sorrow relief
*sits quietly*
never realized how good I was pretending until I went wayyyy back in this thread and found littler me telling Tracie, and Miste about the bullies at school.. and really.. I seemed to talk so.. ok.. I dont know how. How does that even work.. I was being hurt then and I seemed better off than now that I'm not..
Like I'm getting.. weaker maybe.. =/ Or things are stewing and getting worse..
but I think Hazel was talking about it before too.. Like getting less stable now that things are safer.. Hm..
You're not weaker sweetie. You were used to being hurt, and learned how to cope with that. It's harder to learn how to cope without the hurt, because then you also feel like you should be "over it". *hugs gently*
Farewell the Ashtray Girl
July 12, 1987-April 30, 2010
I just feel so alone... My brother left me.. And now it feels like someone else is pushing me away.. and I jusst want to die because no one wants me *curls in a ball*
*hugs Tracie*
*leaves Sammy hugs* You know I love you sis. I want you. *hugs* and I'm not the only one.
*sits quietly in the corner*
Icky. I know I can be ridiculously sensitive, but when Emmy gets nasty sometimes.. Ugh. She can really be mean. I feel so pathetic cause she's my little sister and I should be able to shrug it off and even laugh because she's younger it's not supposed to hurt.. but it does. It does hurt. She hates me and I don't know what I did, and she says things.. just makes me want to curl up =( *sits under blankie*
I HATE talking to someone for the first time about something serious. Especially if its the first time ever talking to anyone about it at length. Now the only thing is I know this conversation isn't finished yet...we'll be talking about it again. In person. 
