Actually I feel really bad but you're low so I want to pretend I'm okay so I can help you.
I said previously I was going to alter my behaviours and I just realised I'm falling into the same old pattern.
If I keep this all in then it will spill out beyond my control and that will just hurt the people I was originally trying to protect.
so what I really want to say is:
I feel a bit low and really anxious but there isn't a particular source for it so hopefully I'll just ride it out.
Can we focus on you today?
I'm falling back into Anorexia, and I'm okay with that.
You said I looked good today, like I lost weight or grew again.
I'm sorry that this is going to end up hurting you...
It's the children the world almost breaks that grow up to save it.
-Frank Warren
I am sick of people screwing me over, ripping my confidence away. Slashing my self esteem and destroying my faith in life.
I need something good to happen
Life can be beautiful if you let it.
Step back, breathe and take it in
I clearly deserve the opportunity to progress, so what's the hold up? Clearly you're just bullshitting so I won't leave. I wish I'd taken one of those job offers now. You dried up old bitch.
Play the game out
Amor Vincit Omnia
Dad 10/11/2008 Always our sunshine, I'm still playing for the town hall clock
Why are you being such a moody little shit over something so trivial, that I couldn't even help? You make it so hard to sympathise with you. THIS IS HARD FOR ME TOO.
The only time you will find real light is when you're searching in the dark..
Part of me wants to get worse so I can kill myself and get it over with.
I never want kids. Even the idea of it makes me shudder.
I hate being touched.
It was my fault.
Gatsby believed in the green light, the orgastic future
that year by year recedes before us.
It eluded us then, but that's no matter - tomorrow we
will run faster, stretch out our arms further...
And one fine morning - So we beat on, boats against the current,
borne back ceaselessly into the past.
J*de, you are a massive snob. You call my house grotty and tiny, but you don't understand being poor because your rich daddy fucking pays for everything and you live a lush life. Have a thought for those who don't have handouts.
"John, being brave is going where no man has gone before and with Lizzy Stark, that is NOT what you'll be doing!" - Aunt Polly.
“I told him I was going to betray you, and betray Lyra, and he believed me because I was corrupt and full of wickedness; he looked so deep I felt sure he'd see the truth. But I lied too well. I was lying with every nerve and fiber and everything I'd ever done...I wanted him to find no good in me, and he didn't. There is none.”
~I don't want to try anymore..I want someone to take care of me for once I'm tired of taking care of all of you guys when you just shit on me!!!
so fuck my trying to recover from my eating disorder, not like you ever really gave a shit. and yes, she DOES care, shows how much you fuckers know.
~being an asshole to me and admitting your a bully isn't gunna get you anywhere but dead, and I hope he kills you, he hates you.
~you give up? excuse me?? who was the one that looked up shit for you online??!! who was the one that helped you out when you had feeling for your ex still??!!! who was the one that put up with your annoying shit all year long?!!! and you say I'm annoying? no darling, I'm just an adult, and pregnancy doesn't make you act like a snob, once a snob ALWAYS a snob. and yeah if you're gunna give up just because I'm HAPPY then fuck you and I hope you rot. bitch, you didn't do shit for me anyways.
~so sleeping with guys makes me a slut? well excuse me that I was suffering and couldn't do shit about it, asshole. I was drunk 100% of the time anyway. so where are these guys that I supposedly "slept with" hmmm?
~I'm glad you're ok baby, and I have good news for you when we talk later tonight, I hope you're proud of me..you and Adam are all I've got.
~you were right about him dude, now please tell me something to get me through this year without the bullshit, from the people that say they don't want bullshit, they seem to be causing a shit ton..I can see why you dropped out :|
I'm gunna miss you when you leave :(
“Because everything that goes around comes around. Maybe it's luck or maybe it's fate, but either way, it comes back around."
Rest in Love Sar-sis. I'll see you the next time around hopefully <3 12/11/92-05/18/16
AJs mommy ❤️ 11/26/17
Married to my best friend and Soulmate 3/5/18 ❤️💍
~I'm glad you're ok and in a better mood bro' I can't lose you man. I'm gunna need your help when he leaves
~you guys had better come GET me this weekend dammit!
~I wuv you baby, glad you're feeling better, can't wait to hold you again...<3
~I'm sorry dear, I don't know what you want me to do...
“Because everything that goes around comes around. Maybe it's luck or maybe it's fate, but either way, it comes back around."
Rest in Love Sar-sis. I'll see you the next time around hopefully <3 12/11/92-05/18/16
AJs mommy ❤️ 11/26/17
Married to my best friend and Soulmate 3/5/18 ❤️💍
