You say i'm fat then buy me a chocolate bar?! Make up your flipping mind!
When one door of happiness closes another one opens, but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one that has been opened for us.
You did it, you broke me. I was so close to breaking for so long, and now I'm finally falling apart. I did not enjoy it, though I said I did, and kept hoping you would see my thoughts and stop, but you didn't. You used me when I was at my weakest, and yes, we did some things, and yes, I manipulated you too. But over all, I kept asking you to stop, and you never did. I know you didn't want this to become a choice about you or her, and it's not. This has been coming a long time now, and now it's finally here. Goodbye.
The angel sees,
The angel knows...
Through the wind and the rain
Though the laughter and pain
Count on me.
And when life isn't fair
and there's nobody there
I will be.
note: That was not a suicide note, it was me saying goodbye to a former friend. I just reread the post and saw what it looked like, so I figured I'd make that clear.
The angel sees,
The angel knows...
Through the wind and the rain
Though the laughter and pain
Count on me.
And when life isn't fair
and there's nobody there
I will be.
Every word you whispered into my ear I believed, everytime you told me you loved me I glowed, you made me trust you so that I gave you the one thing in this world I had managed to keep protected from harm, my heart.
Now everyday I find its even more damaged and broken than before. Its slowly starting to rot away, its turning blacker by the day but oh how it still loves you, how I still love you!
Somehow you manage to patch me up with kisses and huggles, making me think that maybe, just maybe its going to be ok. Then you turn and spit on my wounds, the acid of your love burning them ever wider, ever deeper untill finally the hurt is scarring my soul.
Even through all this, I know as well as you, that I will forever be lost in your damning embrace, your an addiction and I will never be weaned from you.
I still love you.
I really, really hope I never have a dream like that ever again. I've never been more terrified in my life. How can you wake up and be panicked for ten minutes or more and not even know what you dreamt about?
i love you even though I shouldn't. even though we clash, even though we would hurt each other...i still love you. i've been tring to stop for 5 years now but there's just something about you. you're amazing, no matter what you think. it breaks my heart to see you cry--i feel your pain like my own. your smile is worth so much. and i love you...and i pray that you'll never find out.
fuck you.... just fuck you... i just fuckin' hate you, you fuckin' bitch. you're a fuckin' bitch. you hate me, i hate you. i hate you and everyone in this fuckin' high - school full of whores and phonies. i just fuckin' hate you all. i wish you could fuckin' die. i wish i could fuckin' tell you this face to face you fuckin' motherfucker. i hate you so much i could fucin' kill you if i fuckin' had the guts to do it. fuck you, fuck you and this whole country and everyone in it. i hate you all. i could fuckin' do anything just so you could be fuckin' fired. i could do fuckin' ANYTHING. JUST FUCKIN' LEAVE ME ALONE YOU FUCKIN' MOTHERFUCKER!!!! what the fuck have i done to you? you fuckin' pervert, go to fuckin' hell. i could punch myself to death and tell everyone that you did it. so you can just be fuckin' fired. god, i hate you so much. I FUCIN' HATE YOU MUCH!!!! FUCK YOU. FUCK YOU. FUCK YOU. you little piece of shit. i wish you could just die. i wish all of you to fuckin' die. you motherfuckers. all of you!!!! just leave me alone you fuckers. stop fucking my brains. i can't take it anymore. i hate this fuckin' country. i wish i could fuckin' run away from here. god I'M SO FULL OF HATE. i just can't imagine that friday i have to go to school and fuckin' see you all again. FUCK YOU.FUCK YOU.FUCK YOU. fuck everyone in this fuckin' country. i wish i could fuckin' kill you all. I HATE YOU ALL!!! F U C K Y O U. FUCK FUCK FFFFFUUUUUUUCCCCCCKKKK YYYYYYOOOOOUUUUU AAAAAAAAALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL. fuck you fuck you fuck you.
god, i feel so relieved now... i love this thread hehe
If I had a world of my own, everything would be nonsense. Nothing would be what it is, because everything would be what it isn't. And contrary wise, what is, it wouldn't be. And what it wouldn't be, it would. You see?
My bright pink boyshorts are exceedingly cute to walk around in with my little pink shirt and pink toenails. That said, my old, gothy self would slap the shit of of this version of me.
I cannot stop making inane posts. Dear god, I've become a teenager again. I should do something productive. bah. no sleep. work.
You claim to care, yet you leave right at the moment I need you the most! You dont see the results of our fights upon my body. Thanks for the support that you claim to be giving!
I wish you knew what you were doing; hell; I wish I knew what I was doing.
And honestly, I think this relationship is going to fail. I think it is going to fail miserably. Because I don't think I really love you. I don't know if I really could. I love you as a friend, as a best friend, but I am not sexually inclined. Not towards you, or anyone really - so it isn't a bad thing, I just can't take putting you through something you don't deserve.
But knowing myself, I am going to stay in this relationship forever, and I am going to talk to you everyday until I'm eighty, if I'm not in the psychiatric hospital from cutting and overdosing.
Everybody says I act thirty.
When honestly, inside, I don't care, I just want to be free. I just want to be free, floating, in the middle of the sea, in the middle of a sea, on top of a mountain, in the snow. I wish that you could realize that I am sick, and that I'm no good for you.
seductive dystopia my left ventricle swells and with the unpleasant palpitations awaiting i strive to become less equal uncontained
the most important things are the hardest things to say...
...And you make revelations that cost you the most, only to have people look at you in a funny way.
not understanding what you've said at all, or why you though it was so important that you almost cried when you were saying it.
Shut the fuck up already! You're not the only person who feels pain! I get it, you're depressed! Get some fucking help already and stop flaunting it like it's a prize! You talk about how you don't have any friends, but then you make it impossible to get close to you by making fun of anyone who tries. You say you love laughing at my every fault, guess you've never seen what that did to me. You don't believe I ever cut because obviously if I hurt that much someone would be able to tell. Well guess what? People did, they just weren't you and didn't say anything.
Get over yourself, laugh and the world laughs with you, cry and you cry alone.
I may be sick, but you're insane.
I'm just doing what I think is best but don't blame me if it doesn't seem like it.
I know you're never going to be the person I knew... but it doesn't mean it hurts any less to see you like this.
I just don't know who to believe.
I'm sorry.
I don't love you.
I am sorry for the pain I caused,
It was meant for me,
Never you.
You loved me when others didn't.
you cared and I pushed you away.
I miss your smell,
your touch,
Your taste.
I miss you.
I wish you could understand why I do the things I do.
It's not because I don't care,
It's that I care too much.
I never wanted to hurt you.
pushing you away is the only way I can protect you.
Protect you from me.
Yes I am strange, deal with it!!!
Adopted by: Concreteangel (my miss fate) and suicidal~lullaby (my yoda)
I'm sorry that I can't be a good enough friend for you. I didn't mean to upset you...but I found something you did funny, and it lightened my mood and stopped from ruining my 2 weeks free. I'm really sorry that you took it the wrong way. Maybe I'm not any good. Sorry.
"I let my guard down, and you caught me by surprise" Sonic Syndicate
add me if you want. just let me know you're from RYL.
I still think about you every minute of everyday.
My heart still beats for you
I look at our picture every night before I go to sleep
I miss you more then anyone in the world realizes
You are still my everything.
I love you. I never knew what love was until I met you.
You still give my life meaning, even if you arent a part of it anymore.
Goodnight baby, I will see you in my dreams.
I love you truly.
