Im under a very thick duvet with furry sheets with a blanket in fleecey pjs. Told you the thermostats broken! I did get tea and porridge thank you :)
Yay well done on the productivity- that excellent :) Dude thats not pathetic, I wouldnt consider ever going for a run even if there were perfect conditions.
ps Im really sorry for being such a pathetic moaning idiot atm.
Oh dear maybe you should fix your thermostat! I still think you should get a hot water bottle! In my house last year, I was so cold I slept in pajamas, a onesie, a dressing gown, a blanket, 2 duvets and occasionally a hot water bottle :P well done of making tea and porridge :) are you feeling any better? also you are not moaning at all, I think you're lovely to talk to and are trying really hard, but are way too hard on yourself sometimes xx
Thanks Lillie :) haha well I probably should though because otherwise I will feel lazy and gross for the rest of the day because I am weird :P my housemates dog is staying with us for a week and he's going to walk it soon, I'm contemplating whether to join him or not. Pros - walking and exercise and nice park, cons - don't really like dogs, will be lots of other big loud dogs + also have to make conversation etc :P
Have you ever looked fear in the face and said "I just don't care"?
I am very distressed my anxiety has peaked, **** THIS **** I am fed up I dislike change too much, i feel unreal why is this happening, why can't I just be like a normal person. I tried to dress up and look nice and pretend to be real and 'normal', but it just doesn't work out for me. Never has, never will. I am so sorry for all the negativity..
ETA: It's like I need ****ing assistance everyday, I need someone to wake me up FOR REAL, and someone to hold my hand and take me places I need to go cause otherwise I'm going to **** up like I am now.
ETA2: Thanks Hannah for the advice, it would have been so good to have someone to come with me, but I have no friends because they all realised what a piece of **** I am and can't make new ones because socializing sucks. I tried.
Will say something more useful when I will have calmed down from this ****.
Lucy I'm sorry you are so distressed at the moment, what will help calm you down? Can you listen to some nice relaxing music, have a bath or a shower? Perhaps go for a nice long walk in the park if you feel able? Maybe do something which helps you feel a little more real as well, for example holding ice or something cold, or hugging a teddy a fluffy blanket etc. I'm sorry things are so hard for you at the moment, is there anymore support available at the moment? it sounds like you only have your GP and psychiatrist, what about therapies etc? I hope you are okay <3 xx
Have you ever looked fear in the face and said "I just don't care"?
Lillie you definitely should have bought a onesie! Mine is a pig one :p I did go out for a walk with the dog :)
Poppy, I hope you manage to get to sleep quickly when you get back, I also really hope your exam goes well. Of course its a big deal if it feels that way for you, I know it's hard but try not to worry too much about the exam. Worrying will only make it worse. Can you plan something nice for yourself afterwords?
Have you ever looked fear in the face and said "I just don't care"?
I'd love to meet earlier, but one of the girls in my group is in a sorority and they have chapter meetings tonight; another member is a football player and he has practice until 8:30 or so.
I've done pretty poorly on my last two exams in this other class. I really want to do well on this one, because I feel like I understand the material a *bit* better, and it's over a short section. I've been studying like mad, but I'm afraid I'll forget everything or find I've been studying the wrong things somehow when I actually take the test.
We are meeting at a coffee shop, though, and they make a really delicious Snickers Mocha, so I'm going to treat myself.
Hannah - glad you made a walk with the dog! I know you said you don't like dogs, but walking is good and dogs have their good qualities as well. :)
I tend to put my phone on silent if I urgently need sleep during day time.
Glad the stomach is behaving :)
Yes and yes.
Felt awkward and uncomfortable during the seminar but survived. Everyone there seemed like super smart and I found that to be rather intimidating.
The cinema was super great fun with people clapping and laughing a lot. Sometimes it's great to do something in a crowd. :)
And my brother had a really great time and enjoyed himself and it was just nice doing something with him :)
*waves at Carmen*
Sounds like things are pretty rough.
Idk. Main thing is I went I guess.
It doesn't help that the room was super tiny with too few seats. And I can already tell that I won't be able to avoid participation and group work. It's only seven sessions though as we will be doing bi weekly double sessions.
So now to decide whether it's worth pushing myself to tackle an uncomfortable situation or whether it will break me.
You can set individual ring tones and I think silent is an option.
On my phone it's when I'm in my contacts and select someone and then check the settings / options.
I think I know pros and cons and just need to decide which arguments are more convincing.
Carmen, whatever makes things easier for you is a legit way to tackle the whole uni situation.
I tend to advise people to go to class asap because it just gets harder to go back the longer you wait. But if the pressure of going increases chances of not managing to go at all one more class missed won't make a difference.
