Lyrics to how you're feeling right now.

[vonAppen]

All my life I've been searching for something
Something never comes never leads to nothing
Nothing satisfies but I'm getting close
Closer to the prize at the end of the rope
All night long I dream of the day
When it comes around then it's taken away
Leaves me with the feeling that I feel the most
The feeling comes to life when I see your ghost

Come down don't you resist
You have such a delicate wrist
And if I give it a twist
Something to hold when I lose my breath
Will I find something in that
So give me just what I need
Another reason to bleed
ONE BY ONE hidden up my sleeve
ONE BY ONE hidden up my sleeve

Hey don't let it go to waste
I love it but I hate the taste
Weight keeping me down [x2]

Will I find a believer
Another one who believes
Another one to deceive
Over and over down on my knees
If I get any closer
And if you open up wide
And if you let me inside
On and on I've got nothing to hide
On and on I've got nothing to hide

Hey don't let it go to waste
I love it but I hate the taste
Weight keeping me down [x2]

All my life I've been searching for something
Something never comes never leads to nothing
Nothing satisfies but I'm getting close
Closer to the prize at the end of the rope
All night long I dream of the day
When it comes around then it's taken away
Leaves me with the feeling that I feel the most
The feeling comes to life when I see your ghost

And I'm done, done and I'm on to the next one
[x8, then x4 but yelling]

Hey don't let it go to waste
I love it but I hate the taste
Weight keeping me down [x2]

[yelling]
Done done and on to the next one
Done I'm done and I'm
On to the next.

[Buttons.]

Feeling broken
Barely holding on
But just there's something so strong
Somewhere inside me.
And I am down, but I'll get up again.
Don't count me out just yet

I've been brought down to my knees
And I've been pushed way past the point of breaking,
But I can take it.
I'll be back -
Back on my feet
This is far from over
You haven't seen the last of me.
You haven't seen the last of me.

They can
Say that
I won't stay around
But I'm gonna stand my ground
You're not gonna stop me.
You don't know me, you don't know who I am.
Don't count me out so fast

I've been brought down to my knees
And I've been pushed way past the point of breaking,
But I can take it.
I'll be back -
Back on my feet
This is far from over

[vonAppen]

[Chorus]
My legs are dangling off the edge
The bottom of the bottle is my only friend
I think I slit my wrists again
And I'm gone gone gone gone

My legs are dangling off the edge
A stomach full of pills didn't work again
I put a bullet in my head
And I'm gone gone gone gone




Gone too far yeah I'm gone again
It's gone on too long tell you how it ends
I'm sitting on the edge with my two best friends
One's a bottle of pills, and one's a bottle of gin

I'm 20 storeys up yeah, up at the top
I polish off this bottle now it's pushing me off
Asphalt to me has never looked so soft
I bet my momma found my letter now she's calling the cops


I gotta take this opportunity before I miss it
Cos now I hear the sirens and they're off in the distance
Believe me when I tell you that I've been persistent
Cos I'm more scarred more scarred than my wrist is

I've been trying too long with too dull of a knife
But tonight I made sure that I sharpened it twice
I never bought a suit before in my life
But when you go to meet god you know you wanna look nice


So if I survive then I'll see you tomorrow,
yeah I'll see you tomorrow


[Chorus]
My legs are dangling off the edge
The bottom of the bottle is my only friend
I think I slit my wrists again
And I'm gone gone gone gone

My legs are dangling off the edge
A stomach full of pills didn't work again
I put a bullet in my head
And I'm gone gone gone gone



We hit the sky, there goes the light
No more sun why's it always night
When you can't sleep well you can't dream
When you can't dream well what's life mean

We feel little pity but don't empathise
The older getting older watch a young man die
A mother and a son and someone you know
Smile at each other and realise they don't

You don't know what happened to that kid you raised
Or what happened to the father, who swore he'd stay
I didn't know cos you didn't say
Now momma feels guilt yeah momma feels pain

But you were young, you never thought you'd die
Found that you could but too scared to try
Looked in the mirror and you said goodbye
Climbed to the roof to see if you could fly



So if I survive then I'll see you tomorrow,
yeah I'll see you tomorrow


[Chorus]
My legs are dangling off the edge
The bottom of the bottle is my only friend
I think I slit my wrists again
And I'm gone gone gone gone

My legs are dangling off the edge
A stomach full of pills didn't work again
I put a bullet in my head
And I'm gone gone gone gone




I wish that I could fly
Way up in the sky
Like a bird so high
Oh I might just try x2

[monket]

You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now

[lonely_hope]

Standing on the bus stop
Feeling your head pop
Out in the night on the kind of night
Where you want to be out on the street
On the street
Crawling up the walls like a cat in heat
And the air is thin and it blows through your skin
And you feel like something is about to begin
But you don't know what and you don't know when
So you tear at your hair
And you scratch at your skin

You want to run away
Run away
Just get on a f***ing train and leave today
And it doesn't matter where you spend the night
You just might end up somewhere in a fight
In a fight
Or caught in your room on a concrete shelf
Fighting all alone with yourself
With yourself
And you just want to feel like a coin that's been tossed
In a wishing well
A wishing well
A wishing well
A wishing well
A wishing well
Well you're tossed in the air and you fell and you fell
Through the dark blue waters where you cast your spell
Like you were just a wish that would turn out well

So you stand on the corner where the angels sit
And you think to yourself this is it
This is it
This is all that I have
All I can stand
This is the air in my lungs
And this coin in my hands
That you tossed in the air
And I fell
And I fell
All the way to the bottom of the well
Of the well
Like those soft little secrets that you tell
That you tell
When you think to yourself
No one's listening too well

And the walls spin
And you're paper thin
From the haze and the smoke and the mescaline
The threat of your brow
And your unmade sheets
In your ear with the noise from the darkest streets
We ran far and wide
You screamed
You cried
You thought suicide was an alibi
But you were always a mess
You were always aloof
Yeah it's awful I guess
But it's the awful truth
It was the truth from the first to the last words that she read

And she emerged from the dark like a ghost in my head
She said I haven't forgot any words that you said
I just stare at the clocks and I cry in my sleep
And I tear up your letters and I burn them in heaps
And I gather the ashes in the hole in the ground where we fell

[Hobbes]

Gonna get me a little oblivion, baby,
And try to keep myself away from me.

[Ardea]

don't waste your time on me, you're already the voice inside my head.

[vonAppen]

My ship went down, in a sea of sound.
When I woke up alone I had everything;
A handful of moments, I wished I could change,
And a tongue like a nightmare, that cut like a blade.
In a city of fools, I was careful and cool,
But they tore me apart, like a hurricane.
A handful of moments, I wished I could change,
But I was carried away.

Give me therapy, I'm a walking travesty,
But I'm smiling at everything.
Therapy, you were never a friend to me,
And you can keep all your misery.

My lungs gave out, as I faced the crowd.
I think that keeping this up could be dangerous.
I'm flesh and bone, I'm a rolling stone,
and the experts say I'm delirious.

Give me therapy, I'm a walking travesty,
But I'm smiling at everything.
Therapy, you were never a friend to me,
You can take back your misery.

Arrogant boy, love yourself so no one has to.
They're better off without you.
Arrogant boy, cause a scene like you're supposed to.
They'll fall asleep without you.
You're lucky if your memory remains.

Give me therapy, I'm a walking travesty,
But I'm smiling at everything.
Therapy, you were never a friend to me,
You can take back your misery.

Give me therapy, I'm a walking travesty,
But I'm smiling at everything.
Therapy, you were never a friend to me,
You can choke on your misery.

[Ardea]

she said i feel stranded
and i can't tell anymore if i'm coming or i'm going
it's not how i planed it
i've got a key to the door
but it just won't open

and i know, i know, i know
part of me says let it go, that life happens for a reasons
i don't, i don't, i don't
cause it's never worked before
but this time, this time
i'm gonna try anything to just feel better

tell me what to do
you know i can't see through
the haze around me
and i'd try anything to just feel better

i can't find my way
and god i need a change
so i'd do anything to just feel better
any little thing to just feel better

she said i need you to hold me
i'm a little far from the shore, and i'm afraid of sinking
you're the only one who knows me
and who doesn't ignore that my soul is weeping

i know, i know, i know
part of me says let it go, everything must have it's season
round, and round, it goes
and every day's the one before
but this time, this time
i'm gonna try anything to just feel better

tell me what to do
you know i can't see through
the haze around me
and i'd do anything to just feel better

i can't find my way
and god i need a change
and i'd do anything to just feel better
any little thing to just feel better

i'm tired of holding on
to all the things i ought to leave behind
it's really getting old
i think i need a little help this time

[The Ashtray Girl]

The storm blows around
This harbour town
I listen to its wind as a choir
The shipping forecast
Is crackling
Like wet wood upon a fire

And time slows and slips away
The tourists come around in May
'Till August when the clouds roll in
The pier cracks, the awnings fade
The Ferris wheel spins slowly in the rain,
The day is gone.

Under this weather
Under this weather
Such shadows are blossoming
Under this weather
Under this weather
Such shadows are blossoming
Out at sea

I am not going to set myself free here
I am following some dark fortune
Some circle in me

Hold back the wind
Hold back the rain
I want to live
To see good weather

Hold back the years
Hold back the hours
I want to live
To see the sun break through
These days
These days

Under this weather
Under this weather
Such shadows are blossoming
Under this weather
Under this weather
Such shadows are blossoming
In me

[Amalias]

Don't hold me up, now
I can stand my own ground
I don't need your help now
You won't let me down, down, down

[RedHorse]

Their mouths salivate
Fantasizing my gruesome ending
This world looks down upon
A man who can stand on his own two feet
(Without eating from their claws)

Life feels like Hell should
But this Hells so cold
Pull another knife out
Stick it with rest of them
When my back is full
Turn me around to face it

Such melancholy, burning the stars from skies
As we melt drowning inside their bloodied eyes
Hope is ravaged running from lacerations
Sob so heavily we choke then we die


- section from Throes of Perdition by Trivium.

[[Luna]]

Those you’ve known
And lost, still walk behind you
All alone
They linger till they find you

Without them
The world grows dark around you
And nothing is the same until you know that they have found you

Those you’ve pained
May carry that still with them
All the same
They whisper: “All forgiven.”

Still your heart says
The shadows bring the starlight
And everything you’ve ever been is still there in the dark night

When the northern wind blows
The sorrows your heart holds
There are those who still know –
They’re still home
We’re still home

Though you know
You’ve left them far behind
You walk on by yourself, and not with them –

Still you know
They will fill your heart and mind
When they say there’s a way through this

Those you’ve known
And lost, still walk behind you
All alone
Their song still seems to find you

They call you
As if you knew their longing –
They whistle through the lonely wind, the long blue shadows falling

All alone
But still I hear their yearning
Through the dark, the moon, alone there, burning

The stars too
They tell of spring returning –
And summer with another wind that no one yet has known

They call me –
Through all things –
Night’s falling
But somehow I go on

You watch me
Just watch me –
I’m calling
From longing

When the northern wind blows
The sorrows your heart’s known –
I believe…

Still you known
There’s so much more to find –
Another dream, another love you’ll hold

Still you know
To trust your own true mind
On your way – you are not alone
There are those who still know

Now they’ll walk on my arm through the distant night
And I won’t let them stray from my heart
Through the wind, through the dark, through the winter light
I will read all their dreams to the stars

I'll walk now with them
I’ll call on their names
I’ll see their thoughts are known

Not gone –
Not gone –


They walk with my heart –
And I'll never let them go

I’ll never let them go
I’ll never let them go
You watch me
Just watch me
I’m calling
I’m calling –
And one day all will know

[vonAppen]

Don’t want to turn off the light
hope someone hears me tonight.
I know there’s a snake in my bed
eating its way through my head

I want to be normal, I want to feel safe
waking up screaming, it’s always the same.
I don’t want to turn off the light
hope someone hears me tonight.

Hold me, tell me everything’s ok.
Show me there’s a way to beat the monster
save me, make it go away.

I’m trying to wash of the stains,
try not to think about the pain
I know I’ve got no place to hide,
God knows the times that I tried

I want to be normal, I want to feel safe
waking up screaming, it’s always the same.
I don’t want to turn off the light
hope someone hears me tonight.

Hold me, tell me everything’s ok.
Show me there’s a way to beat the monster
save me, make it go away.

Hold me, tell me everything’s ok.
Show me there’s a way to beat the monster
save me, make it go away.

Ooooooooh, oooooooooh, ooooooooooh, ooooooooooh.

I want to be normal, I want to feel safe.
Waking up screaming, it’s always the same.
I don’t want to turn off the light.
Hope someone hears me tonight.

Hold me, tell me everything’s ok.
Show me there’s a way to beat the monster
save me, make it go away.

Hold me, tell me everything’s ok.
Show me there’s a way to beat the monster
save me, make it go away.

[High_Voltage]

Where do I begin?
You said it was pretend
And when the bullet went through
It took more then just you, it took two
It was you it was me and suddenly
How can someone say they're helpless and then they act so selfish
You put me through hell with this so fck you lets just end this
And what about our friendship?
And what you did was senseless
You thought you found an exit
Like I said, let's end this!

[Koriandr]

Oh where is your inflammatory writ?
your text that would incite a light be lit?
our music deserving, devotion unswerving,
cried "do i deserve her?" with unflagging fervor
well, no we do not if we cannot get over it.

but what's it mean when suddenly we're spent?
tell me true
ambition came and reared it's head and went
far from you

even mullocks have weddings, though solemn and leaden,
but you dirge for the dead and take no jam on your bread,
just a supper of salt and a waltz to your empty bed!

and all at once, it came to me
and i wrote and hunched til four thirty
but that vestal light, it burns out with the night
in spite of all the time that we spent on it
on one, de-raggled ghost of a sonnet
while outside the wild boars root
without bending a bow underfoot
oh it breaks my heart i dont know how they do it...

SO DON'T ASK ME.

and as for my inflammatory writ?
well, i wrote it and i was not inflamed one bit!
advice from the master derailed at disaster
said, "Hand that pen over to me, Poetaster!
we'll cross the great plains, keen, lovely and lawful,
we'll ulate the laws, great American novels!
an unlawful lot left to stutter and freeze flood lit.
but at least they didn't run to their undying credit."

[The Ashtray Girl]

Darling, stop confusing me
With your wishful thinking
Hopeful embraces
Don't you understand?
I have to go through this
I belong to here
Where no one cares
And no one loves
No light, no air to live in
A place called hate
The city of fear

I play dead
It stops the hurting
I play dead
And the hurting stops

It's sometimes just like sleeping
Curling up inside my private tortures
I nestle into pain
Hug suffering
Caress every ache

I play dead
It stops the hurting

[vonAppen]

Playground school bell rings again
Rain clouds come to play again
Has no one told you she's not breathing?
Hello, I am your mind giving you someone to talk to
Hello

If I smile and don't believe
Soon I know I'll wake from this dream
Don't try to fix me, I'm not broken
Hello I am the lie living for you so you can hide
Don't cry

Suddenly I know I'm not sleeping
Hello, I'm still here
All that's left of yesterday

[Zedebee]

I am my own affliction
I am my own disease
There ain´t no cure they could sell
Ah, there ain´t no drug to make me well
There ain´t no drug

There ain´t no drug
There ain´t no drug
It´s not enough
The sickness is myself

[little_paws]

Doctors play your dosage like a card trick
Scrabbled down the hallways yelling "Yatzee"
I brought books on Harper in the Arctic
Something called "The Politics of Lonely"
A toothbrush and Quick Pick with a plus
You tried not to roll your sunken eyes

And said "Hey can you help me? I can't reach it"
Pointed to the camera in the ceiling
I climbed up, blocked it so they couldn't see
Turned to find you out of bed and kneeling
Before the nurses came took you away
I stood there on a chair and watched you pray