You say I can't pick and choose when I want you around? I'm sorry I have things to think about, I'm not like you, you just generally don't have a care in the world. I'm honest with you, but I won't tell you about the ED. I know how you are and you'll think I'm lying or joking. You think that only tiny people can have them, you're clueless.
Location: In a glass vial in the pocket of a beautiful mind.
I am currently:
I wish, with all I am, that you could understand that losing my little boy is the hardest thing in the world. If you want me to love you, want you and trust you, then you have to wait. Because I don't have it in me anymore to trust anyone. I don't need anyone. I don't want anyone. If you can't wait for me, then just let us go.
When you needed me, I was there. When I needed you, you rolled away.
Thank you for loving me as much as I love you. I have never been so hurt in all my life by another person. I hope you never learn this pain. I would not wish it on my most hated foe.
rhap·so·dy - an ecstatic expression of feeling or enthusiasm. ♫
"Sacrifice is the most you can love someone." ♥
“Love was at best an excuse for stupidity, at worst a destructive, dangerous emotion that drove men to acts of annihilation which defied logic. It was a twisted, insidious sentiment used to justify everything from spoiling a child to destroying entire civilizations.”
i never wanted to fall for you.but i did! and its so obvious that i still like you! im probably going to see you tomorrow night, with your girlfriend. how fun for me.i just know that when i do see you ill get embarrassed and nervous
I know the right thing to do is to get help and I know I do need it, but I don't feel like I'll ill enough, so until I am, I shouldn't ask for help. So now I have to make myself worse so that I am to the point where I might be ill enough to get help. Which probs makes no sense.
Why am I such an idiot?
*holds* that makes far too much sense... but please take care love?
<3
i dont wanna keep fiighting =\ why do people hafta care? wanna self destruct without feeling guilty ><
“The good things don’t always soften the bad, but vice-versa, the bad things don’t necessarily spoil the good things and make them unimportant.”
“Nobody important? Blimey, that’s amazing. Do you know, in nine hundred years of time and space I’ve never met anyone who wasn’t important before.”
“If it’s time to go, remember what you’re leaving. Remember the best. My friends have always been the best of me.”
Location: In a glass vial in the pocket of a beautiful mind.
I am currently:
happy fucking new year
rhap·so·dy - an ecstatic expression of feeling or enthusiasm. ♫
"Sacrifice is the most you can love someone." ♥
“Love was at best an excuse for stupidity, at worst a destructive, dangerous emotion that drove men to acts of annihilation which defied logic. It was a twisted, insidious sentiment used to justify everything from spoiling a child to destroying entire civilizations.”
do you even know you're stabbing me in the back by going to a movie with him? or are yo just so fucking convinced that you two are "just friends" that you believe your own bullshit! seriously! i know you like him but you wont ever say anything to me because supposedly you're my "best friend"? right. why don't you just fuck him and get it over with!? shove the knife further into my back.
I don't care. I really don't care. I'm too tired now. I don't want to cry, i'm tired of crying over you and you. I'm not going to change anything, no matter how hard I try. I'm sorry, that's all I have left to say.
You can't lose hope when it's hopeless.
You gotta hope more,
then put your fingers in your ears and go,
"Blah blah blah blah!"
I hope you are having a really good time away such as you deserve and that if you haven't already you will alter one of the plans you had for when you arrive back.
So I'm not going to elaborate again on how bad I feel as I can't be leaned on if I'm falling to pieces can I. And I can deal with it alone, it is what I'm used to. You're more important to me than I am.
I wish I could tell you how much I like you but I won't because I lack the courage and contain the fear that it may be too overwhelming of a knowledge to gain.
Also, it might seem incorrect of me to have arrived at such an opinion after so little time but..I think that people should not be understood by what they say but by what they are holding back and the way that they behave.
