checking in. just got home after spending two days in the local risis stabilization unit. doing a little better than i have been. hugs to all. take care and stay safe
MY RYL FAMILY: Blondiebear is my sister; nuttergirl is my little sister; makeachoice is my niece; prs100 is my niece; rachel487 is my sister;emovampryss is my wiccan sister; phroggie is my wiccan sister;crazychaoticmess and salutaredelamare are my angels. they always help to save me from myself.
at a party. told someone i had a self injury recovery bracelet after i let her loan it for 1 minute. then she asked me if my arms were really messed up. i know this is like a taboo for me. i had two beers. im at a fork post with my life now. thoughts going slowly against the wrong way. i havent cut in like month and a half. but lately i've been thinking about just using them again. or ending my life. cause no one knows me i feel like it doesnt matter what i do that i will never ever get to know someone again. just like a open door with me infront of it but i dont know how to move.
i started to save up my sleep med now. its not much but i cant get stoned or something cause they will know cause i just found out this is kinda a mini ward. i cant even nudge the fire alarm cause then it will trigger a silent alarm that brings the main chief of the fire departmant like last time. and im gonna keep asking for sleep med til i have enough to get drugged on so i can feel that im doing something with my life instead of just beeing alive. cause no one cares.
“Never lose faith in yourself,
and never lose hope;
remember, even when this world throws its worst and then turns its back,
there is still always hope.”
i still got the recovery bracelet though and it helps. havent thought about doing that in about month and a half. it works like a charrm. *hugs doikers and louise*
hi everyone. im back again. hugs for everyone. i messed up pretty bad, so now im in trouble with my family, and i see the doc in three days. dont know what to do. but i will make it through somehow. i alwys do.
*leaves plate of sugar cookies and pithcer of milk for all ho want some*
MY RYL FAMILY: Blondiebear is my sister; nuttergirl is my little sister; makeachoice is my niece; prs100 is my niece; rachel487 is my sister;emovampryss is my wiccan sister; phroggie is my wiccan sister;crazychaoticmess and salutaredelamare are my angels. they always help to save me from myself.
