I had my counseling session this morning. I was really nervous, but the man was very nice. He wasn't terribly concerned - he said my stress was certainly understandable - but I'm going to go in for a few talking sessions just to have someone to vent to.
Also, he had a picture of his Sheltie on the windowsill. My heart dog (that I lost two years ago) was a Sheltie, so it was kind of like a good omen.
BUT I have a quiz and three tests this week, and another next week. So much to do, so much stress, my self esteem is still taking a hit and I feel awful.
Right now I'm sitting in calc and pretending to take notes. I can't understand a word my lecturer says, so I'm hoping my brother will be able to tutor me tonight :)
Overall, I just feel terrible and want to slink away and hide. I have to work this afternoon, so even though it's against my nature (when I feel bad I tend to just give up altogether) I am going to treat myself to a really good lunch beforehand. Maybe that will help.
I think I'm trying to get to the point where even though there are things I don't like about myself, they don't have to completely rule my life.
Seems we are all having bad days. I had to leave my seminar halfway through because of a massive IBD flare, had to use the disabled toilet and got a load of abuse of a wheelchair user when I came out.
Poppy well done for going to counselling, hope the nice lunch helped.
Carmen, I hope things have turned a little brighter for you.
Cat, that sounds distressing, hope you are able to catch up the seminar.
Its so cold! Its like -2 in my house and Im cold even in bed with extra layers on and tea.
Need to ask or some tips on setting up a good work routine/ pattern. Mine is shocking and whilst I am getting some done its very hit and miss and Im anxious not to fall behind because the exam is in january! My concentration and MH are poor right now so Im struggling to implement anything.
Im with Carmen, write a rough essay plan before you start. So helpful.
Im not good Carmen, spent a lot of tie dissociated and/or asleep with random things I woke up to and Im struggling to cope now. I may try and distract myself with some study- I have studies to read and make notes on before tomorrow.
Never mind a module, I did a whole undergrad and am now doing a postgrad degree on literature good job I love reading because I counted how many books I 'read' for my degree and weeper a little inside.
Just dug out all my module titles from undergrad and postgrad- prepare for a list- yes I am presuming you want to know!
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Undergrad- year one
1- Introduction to Poetry
2- Introducrion to Literary Studies
3- Introduction to Popular Culture
4- Introduction to Narrative
5- Introduction to Drama
6- Making Americans
7- Victorian and Edwardian Literature (double semester unit)
I didn't get to choose any of those modules sadly.
Undergrad- year 2
1- Introduction to Modernism
2- Colonial and Postcolonial Literature (double semester unit)
3- Theory Ward (we learnt12 theories in 12 weeks, was a difficult module but worth it)
The ones that follow below were options I picked.
4- Restoration Literature
5- Renaissance Literature.
6- American Literature 1
7- American Literature 2
Undergrad year 3
1-Georgian Literature- the formation of the novel. (Double semester)
The rest are all options
2- Shakespeare (double semester module)
3- Science Fiction and Fantasy Literature.
4- Literature, Film and Gender
5- Dissertation on subject of your choice- I did it on sexuality and gender.
Now postgrad- doing it part time though so split into 2 years.
Postgrad year 1
1- English Now 1- Poetry and drama from 2000-present.
2- English Now 2- Life Writing and Fiction.
Postgrad year 2
1- Romantic Legacies.
2- 19th Century Women's Writing.
3- Dissertation- have a few ideas for this, but don't need to worry about it until Feb next year.
THAT IS AWESOME OH MY GOD. They've kind of compressed ours so there's one that's all about different genres as well as types of texts, while the other focuses mostly on critical approaches and literary theory. Also, as it's a joint degree I'm also studying Media and Journalism.
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Doing the blood aspect of the cardiovascular system at the moment and reading about WBC's (white blood cells). I'm making notes in the hope that I will understand that a bit now and understand more when I go over them and consolidate them down to post it notes ( I love post its)
Tonks my advice for studying anything Biology-related is to write things down, and draw diagrams, I found that really helpful.
Hannah, yeah it's probably only your school(and maybe Law) within the uni that records them, as I've only ever heard the Law students(and you) talk about it; I remember when I was doing Zoology, they weren't recording ours..
I'm sorry to hear everyone seems to be struggling.*hands out big hugs and tea and fairylights and nice*
I am /struggling/ too. This week has been a massive **** up. I didn't make it to any of my lectures or seminars. I was trying very hard for my seminar on modernist short stories, and then they just HAD TO go and change the date from Wednesday to Tuesday and that destroyed everything and I didn't make it and it made me very upset. To make matters worse, I saw my psych on Tuesday(right before the **** up) and she put me on quetiapine, and it's making me sleep too much and I'm tired all the time and don't feel like doing anything :(( I also have to get a job but I feel awful, and unable to go out and apply for jobs...
My advice for anything biology related is don't do it! :P (I do a bio degree)
Lucy, sorry to hear things are difficult for you and I hope you are able to catch up on what you've missed. Quetiapine is a good med but can be like that, it does wear off though.
Thanks....I don't know, everything just feels so wrong for some reason :( I'm so sorry I can't really be supportive...
I can really relate to feeling overwhelmed and I find showering and getting dressed very difficult at times.
I have to read Heart of Darkness, and I also have to read many other things, I wish it was easier I wish I didn't have to find work as well on top of all this...
That's the problem I HAVE to because my father won't really be supporting me financially for much longer, and my landlady has told me that if I can't afford to pay rent by December, as well as keep it going, she'll have to throw me out, and I really don't want to be homeless again.
I hate concentration issues the most; I like something, and would love to read about it, but I can't do it because I can't concentrate :/
ETA: Yay for motivation glitter :3 I've always wanted to read Heart of Darkness too, and it's the kind of text that will generate a lot of debate, and will be very interesting to analyse..
I decided to re join this thread in the hopes that it will help me act like an actual student again.
I finally signed up for the classes I need to do next semester (classes start on Monday). Which I guess is better than my original impulse of ignoring it and not doing classes this semester.
I'm scared and worried and struggling with the usual low mood and anxiety that accompanies start of semesters. I'm semi confident the anxiety is temporary and I can take it. But I'm seriously struggle with low mood and mood swings and it's hard to not let them take over.
I'm only doing two classes and basically picked the ones that are done by lecturers I feel comfortable with who are aware of mh issues. One is on British Feminism and one on Dance Culture. Could go either way as to how interesting they will be.
Will miss one class next week as I'm at work, but I am sure I can just email the lecturer about it.
Naps are mandatory for uni students I find.
It sounds like things are rough with dissociation but you're doing really well to keep going. I'm glad it's at least interesting.
I dont think of you when I think of dance culture! I hope the classes prove to be interesting and Im sure the lecturer will understand, very few people go to each and every class I find.
good job I love reading because I counted how many books I 'read' for my degree and weeper a little inside.
