anyone else feeling slightly abandoned? Spent most of the day at my parents' celebrating my sister's bday and finally get home and get 2 out of 3 kids out and hubby takes off.
I tried to talk to him about it and he just got pissy about it and left in the middle of it cuz he didn't like what I had to say. :(
*hugs knees to chest and tries not to feel so alone*
~Kelly~
the hardest battle you are ever going to fight is the battle against yourself
“The good things don’t always soften the bad, but vice-versa, the bad things don’t necessarily spoil the good things and make them unimportant.”
“Nobody important? Blimey, that’s amazing. Do you know, in nine hundred years of time and space I’ve never met anyone who wasn’t important before.”
“If it’s time to go, remember what you’re leaving. Remember the best. My friends have always been the best of me.”
I know exactly how you feel, Oliver. Only mix mine up with a lot of hurt feelings and the feeling of being the biggest damn idiot in the world... sigh.
I'm feeling so damn triggered right now it's rediculous... I was listening to my music, but now I have a huge head ache so... no more music for me :(
~Kelly~
the hardest battle you are ever going to fight is the battle against yourself
it's ok... i don't think there are any words that will really help me right now, but knowing that i'm not alone and that i have awsome friends does help a little... i just with i could count my husband among them right now. he's acting like a total ass and i'm so damn tired of fighting for something he's obviously not willing to fight for as well... and it just makes me want to cut that much more...
~Kelly~
the hardest battle you are ever going to fight is the battle against yourself
how dare someone who doesn't know what BPD is question the fact that I have it when I have been diagnosed by a professional, then she asked what it is so I described some of the symptons, like the mood swings, the impulses, the abandoment issues, the paranoia, the anger outbursts, the self harming and suicidal behaviour, the love hate and unstable relationships and she turned around and said while I have some of that so whats so special about you. I felt like killing her, I dont feel special, I hate having BPD, and she just questioned it.
sorry for the rant just needed to get it out. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr *stomps around in the garden*
"Never be a spectator of unfairness or studpidity. The grave will supply plenty of time for silence." Christopher Hitchens
'When words fail, music speaks'
I am transsexual and homoromantic and proud to be.
no need to apologize, oliver... that would piss me off too. Tell her that when she goes to medical school, then she can question your diagnoses and how it affects you and sets you appart from her! I can only imagin how hard living w/ BPD or any other disorder could be... I've never been formarly diagnosed though if I had the insurance I'm sure I would be with at least some form of depression ... :(
~Kelly~
the hardest battle you are ever going to fight is the battle against yourself
eh... tried to be nice to hubby and got attitude so still not great... i'm less mad and more hurt by it now...
i did get out for a 'lil w/ my bff and got some chocolate and soda and that made me feel a tad better... but it's really only a bandaid on a gapping wound if that makes sense
~Kelly~
the hardest battle you are ever going to fight is the battle against yourself
*cuddles Kelly* I'm sorry about your husband, but I'm glad you managed to get out with your bff (is that best friend forever??) and chocolate sounds good :)
"Never be a spectator of unfairness or studpidity. The grave will supply plenty of time for silence." Christopher Hitchens
'When words fail, music speaks'
I am transsexual and homoromantic and proud to be.
yes bff = best friends forever... we've been bff's since 4th grade. There for each other when our kids were born, her for my parent's divorce, me when her dad died... and both of us there to help us through the process of beating SI
~Kelly~
the hardest battle you are ever going to fight is the battle against yourself
