I'm sorry I'm so jealous of you, Zac, but some kind of concern for the minor surgery I just had and the week I have to wait to see if I had cancer would be fantastic. Dear christ I'm cranky and stressed over this. Wouldn't you be? I just want to cry.
Last edited by Jasmine222222 : 29-07-2008 at 06:56 PM.
Reason: forgot something
reading those old conversations makes me so sad.
i remember how happy i was, how happy you were.
how much you cared about me. how you'd comfort me.
how you were stable. before your depression got worse.
and it killed me to reread the old conversations where either you were hurting or i was.
please get help. if it doesn't work the first time, try again.
i love you so much. i want you to be happy again.
or at least better than you are.
I have been unusually happy lately, but I'm supposed to see you on saturday, please don't ruin my happiness like you always seem to do... please... I am really happy right now. And I love being around you, I just hate that you would rather be around someone else, so let's just be happy together like we used to be. remember? riding home together on the bus, talking and laughing at lunch, going to movies and texting stupid messages? You are an amazing friend, but let's be honest, we have drifted and it makes me sad that we can't be like we used to be... but please don't ruin my happiness okay? J'aime mon petite bonbon :3
F*** it! They dont have a clue! Not a sodidng clue! They say Im dependent, fine I wont be dependent I'll give up on the whole bloody lot of them as they are not helping me get better in the slightest because I am a failure, a f******, fAILURE!!! Ive asked to be discharged so many times but every time I ask same answer is no. I dont need to be treated. Im not even ill!Im perfectly fine. They just think Im a patholigcal lier because they dont believe me that She is there and She exists. Of course she f-ing exists. She was talking to me. All the way in the car on the way to the doctors. Hate it. hate hate it hate.ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!
It doesn't matter that you're always honest with me, it matters that you need to learn to always be honest with yourself.
"Be nice. Think happy thoughts. Champion silver linings. Love all things (not just cute things like babies and kittens) & when you do love - love like they do in power ballads (you know like on a cliff with the wind in your hair and your eyes shut, knowing you'll never know love like this). Watch out for dog poo. Smile at people - even grumpy ones. Remember anything is possible & whatever you do always try to look on the bright side."
I miss you F, I really do. I still love you, and I'm thinking about you all the time.I miss you like hell and I wish you were here. Wont you please come back too me? I need you, my life is a even bigger mess when you're gone...
My RYL family: PaperClip is my big sis
"Greatness inspires envy, envy engenders spite, spite spawns lies. You must know this, Dumbledore."
- The Dark Lord
i want you so bad
ive messaged you
asked to be added to your friends list
but you dont seam to want to meet up or even be online friends
i guess i should take the hint
if you were interested you would have responded by now
Don't be someone else's slogan because you are poetry.
I could spend all day listening to you.
You've actually made me day, just talking to you outside in the garden, you telling your stories, you're the one person i can forget everything with.
Thank you.
It's so easy to get lost in constantly having to present
whatever face you believe a person wants to see rather than your own
