we tried so hard to understand
but we can't
we held the world out in our hands
and you ran away it takes some time to let you go and it shows
cause all we know
is falling it falls
remeber, cause I know that we won't forget at all.
....... you never, you never said this wasn't what you wanted was it was it?
this isn't what you wanted
this isn't what you wanted
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ don't cry to me if you loved me you would be here with me
you want me come find me
make up your mind should I let you fall? lose it all?
so maybe you would remember yourself
can't keep beleiving we're only deciving ourselves and I'm sick of the lie and you're too late
[chorus] couldn't take the blame sick with shame must be exhausting to lose your own game selfishly hated no wonder you're jaded you can't play the victim this time and you're too late
[chorus]
you never call me when you're sober you only want it cause it's over oh is't over
how could I burn paradise
how could I?
oh nevermind
[chorus] don't lie to me, just get your things I've made up your mind
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ your lipstick his collar don't bother angel I know exactly what goes on
when everything you'll get is
everything you want well which would you prefer? my finger on the trigger or me face down, down across your floor (me face down, down across your floor) just so long as this thing's loaded and will you tell all your friends you've got your gun to my head this all was only wishful thinking
lets go. don't bother trying to explain angel I know exactly what goes on
when you're alone and
how about I'm outside of your window
keep the details covered, you're such a sucker for a sweet talker yeah
......
I will never ask if you never tell me I know you well enough to know you never loved me and all of this was all you're fault.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
“Because everything that goes around comes around. Maybe it's luck or maybe it's fate, but either way, it comes back around."
Rest in Love Sar-sis. I'll see you the next time around hopefully <3 12/11/92-05/18/16
AJs mommy ❤️ 11/26/17
Married to my best friend and Soulmate 3/5/18 ❤️💍
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
You're sick of feeling numb
You're not the only one
I'll take you by the hand
And I'll show you a world that you can understand
This life is filled with hurt
When happiness doesn't work
Trust me and take my hand
When the lights go out you will understand
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Anger and agony
Are better than misery
Trust me, I've got a plan
When the lights go off, you will understand
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing, rather feel pain
I know, I know that you're wounded
You know, you know that I'm here to save you
You know, you know I'm always here for you
I know, I know that you'll thank me later
Pain, without love
Pain, can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Rather feel pain than nothing at all
Rather feel pain
What dreams we have
and how they fly,
like rosey clouds accross the sky.
And how they wither, how they fade, the waning wealth, the jiltingjade.
We wear the mask that grins and lies,
it hides our cheeks and shades our eyes.
This debt we pay to human guile, with torn and bleeding hearts, we smile.
You could never work well with our group
Not with the faults we found
So we've fixed you with cement galoshes
And no one can save you now
Unless you have friends among fish
There’ll still be no air to breathe
You could drink up the entire ocean We’ll still find someone to be everything we know that you’ll never be
"We've got to get better," I said, "It's all in your head." We could live through these letters or forget it all together See the months they don't matter it's the days I can't take
When the hours move to minutes and I'm seconds away
When she's saying, oh that she wants only me
Then I wonder why she sleeps with my friends
When she saying, oh that I'm like a disease
Then I wonder how much more I can stand
Well I guess, I should stick up for myself
But I really think it's better this way
The more you suffer
The more it shows you really care
Right? Yeah!
Eckhart saw Hell too. He said: The only thing that burns in Hell is the part of you that won't let go of life, your memories, your attachments. They burn them all away. But they're not punishing you, he said. They're freeing your soul. So, if you're frightened of dying and... and you're holding on, you'll see devils tearing your life away. But if you've made your peace, then the devils are really angels, freeing you from the earth.
Leave me out with the waste
This is not what I do
It's the wrong kind of place
To be thinking of you
It's the wrong time
For somebody new
It's a small crime
And I got no excuse
And is that alright, yea?
Give my gun away when it's loaded
That alright, yea?
If you don't shoot it how am I supposed to hold it
That alright, yea?
Give my gun away when it's loaded
That alright, yea?
With you
Leave me out with the waste
This is not what I do
It's the wrong kind of place
To be cheating on you
It's the wrong time
She's pulling me through
It's a small crime
And I got no excuse
Sparkling angel, I couldn't see, your dark intentions, your feelings for me.
Everything is gone but the echo of the burst of a shell
And I'm stuck here waiting for a passing feeling
In the city I built up and blew to hell
Still I send all the time
My request for relief
Down the dead power line
Though I'm beyond belief
In the help I require
Just to exist at all
Took a long time to stand
Took an hour to fall.
I've been walking around all day,
Thinking. I think I have a problem,
I think I think too much. I've been taught to hold back my tears,
And avoid them.
But you make pain into something I could touch.
I've been walking around all day,
Laughing.
I think I'd be better off without you here.
And I bet you're sweet and hard to get over.
So I'll cry and people will stop and stare.
Now that's okay.
Let them stop and stare.
Cause I am fragile.
I am hopeless. I'm not perfect.
But I am free.
I've been walking around all day,
Waiting.
And waiting is all I seem to do.
Cause I never get it unless I'm fed it.
But this time i'll just have to.
Yeah this time i'll just have to.
And I'm fragile.
I am hopeless. I'm not perfect.
But I am free.
Say you're not around, Am I finished?
If you're not around, thats too bad.
Hope youre safe and sound, not alone now.
Cause you know I believe in you.
I'm still fragile,
I'm still hopeless, I'm not perfect,
But I am free.
And I'm fragile,
I am hopeless,
I'm not perfect,
But I am free.
Cause I am fragile, hopeless,
I'm not perfect,
But I am free.
oh oh oh oh....(till the end)
"Recovery is something that you have to work
on every single day and it's
something that doesn't
get a day off."
Does anybody know how I feel?
Sometimes I'm numb, sometimes I'm overcome
Does anybody care what's going on?
Do I have to wear my scars like a badge on my arm
For you to see me, I need release
Do I have to scream for you to hear me?
Do I have to bleed for you to see me?
'Cause I grieve, you're not listening to me
Do I need to scream?
I will tell you a story
That's never been told I will tell you a secret
Five lifetimes old My life has been a prison
A labyrinth built beneath the mountain of tragedy I'm a stain on the cloth
I'm just an after-thought
But I
Would die
For this
But through the veins of decay
I'll remain to betray
To live like Caesar
To die like Jesus To build my own religion
No gods, no laws To celebrate pain
Forsaken and ashamed
To watch them all
Crawl beneath us On this bed of nails and regret Dying of fevers, betrayal, and sweat I cry
My organs are rotting
My enemies are plotting I am made of pages
Paragraphs and inspirations
Paper girl, burn the world
I pass the flame to you Murder, mayhem, hurt her, hate him
Murder, mayhem, **** her, slay him
My pain, my pride, these scars are mine
My pain My misery has been formulated into an equation of nein
My sanity wrote a suicide note but
One of us is illiterate
And the other is blind My first act of treason was picking up a pen
My
First act of love was
Finding myself again
The hardest thing to do
Was standing up to you
Now I'm off my knees
Now you're begging me please
I'm the wound and the weapon
The fracture and the
Fist
My organs are rotting
My enemies are plotting I am made of pages
Paragraphs and inspirations
Paper girl, burn the world
I pass the flame to you Murder, mayhem, hurt her, hate him
Murder, mayhem, **** her, slay him
That stabbing in your heart
That black hole in your soul
Slowly ripping you apart
That's me
So let it be written
So let it be done
The brighter they shine
The darker
We
Become
Vae victus, abomination
You felt the coldness in my eyes
And something I'm not revealing
Though you got used to my disguise
You can't shake this awful feeling
It's the me that I let you know
And I'll never show, I have my reasons
I hate to say that I told you so, but I told you so
There's blood on my hands like the blood in you
Somethings can't be treated
So don't make me, don't make me be myself around you
Straight from your eyes it's barely me
Beautifully so disfigured
This other side that you can't see
Just praying you won't remember
Feel the pain that I never show
And I hope you know it's never healing
I hate to say that I told you so, but I told you so
There's blood on my hands like the blood in you
Somethings can't be treated
So don't make me, don't make me be myself around you
Straight from your eyes it's barely me
Beautifully so disfigured
(There's blood)
This other side that you can't see
Just praying you won't remember
(There's blood)
There's blood
There's blood
Blood, blood
There's blood on my hands like the blood in you
Somethings can't be treated
So don't make me, don't make me be myself around you
There's blood on my hands like the blood in you
(There's blood)
Somethings can't be treated
(There's blood)
So don't make me, don't make me be myself around you
(There's blood)
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