Hello,
on a few occasions I have been temped to cut my face, and often acted on it. I'm not sure if I can explain this fully, but I think there was a bit of me that wanted the shock from others, that wanted to do it where everyone could see. I felt ugly, wrong inside and felt the outside should reflect that.
My mother at the time knew I self-harmed, but had seen nothing of it. At that point, the cutting was a cry for help and because I was hiding that need for help on my arms no one was listening. However egotistical and selfish this may seem written in black and white, it's what was in my mind at the time.
What I'm trying to say is don't worry. I'm sure from the number of replies you have on this you cans see you're not alone. I don't think in cases like this the medical profession should use such strong, judgemental words as "normal", but perhaps the doctor was just genuinely surprised that you'd chosen to cut your face.
Take care.
C.
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