I told you I wasn't going to put you in that position last night, promised you I wouldn't leave that way even. the second the words were out of my mouth I wanted them back....because I knew it was going to be a lie, I am going to kill myself and it hurts me knowing that I'm going to hurt you...being the last thing you ever loved. but this hurts..I can't anymore.
“Because everything that goes around comes around. Maybe it's luck or maybe it's fate, but either way, it comes back around."
Rest in Love Sar-sis. I'll see you the next time around hopefully <3 12/11/92-05/18/16
AJs mommy ❤️ 11/26/17
Married to my best friend and Soulmate 3/5/18 ❤️💍
“Because everything that goes around comes around. Maybe it's luck or maybe it's fate, but either way, it comes back around."
Rest in Love Sar-sis. I'll see you the next time around hopefully <3 12/11/92-05/18/16
AJs mommy ❤️ 11/26/17
Married to my best friend and Soulmate 3/5/18 ❤️💍
i cut. i drank. i made up excuses and then i lied to you.
you deserve so much better than i can give. for that i feel so horribly guilty
that i push you away
I love you and i wish i could tell you that.
I just want you to say you love me and that you will look after me.
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
I'm still suicidle, I want to vanish...I almost overdosed last night, but my step father interviened without knowing it. I almost SHed last night, but I kept away because I got sevral messages from my friends telling me how they had dates for the dance, and wishing me luck for my preformance tonight...I didn't want everyone at school seeing my cuts onstage, so I stayed away...Lucky me, huh? I wish you had comforted me last night, eternal friend...
"Hate can't drive out hate. Only love can do that."
-Martin Luther King Jr.-
I will try and talk but to be honest I dont know if anything will come out...
my hands and me typing is my voice right now... my head is too loud and is in control of what does and doesnt come out of my mouth
I'm scared
sometimes being strong means not holding back the tears but letting them fall
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my fur baby girls are my life <3
r.i.p my beautiful girl jackie. i will love you always no matter what - 6/5/10
“Because everything that goes around comes around. Maybe it's luck or maybe it's fate, but either way, it comes back around."
Rest in Love Sar-sis. I'll see you the next time around hopefully <3 12/11/92-05/18/16
AJs mommy ❤️ 11/26/17
Married to my best friend and Soulmate 3/5/18 ❤️💍
Everytime you ask i'm ok i say i'm fine well guess what.......
I'm not fine i lie everytime and why because you shouldn't have to ask if i'm ok.
You only need to look into my eyes and see that i've lost the spark in my eyes.
I just want you to see what is really going on.
I want to tell you but i just can't find it in me to tell you!
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
it took me hours to get comfortable with that, and that's pathetic......
“Because everything that goes around comes around. Maybe it's luck or maybe it's fate, but either way, it comes back around."
Rest in Love Sar-sis. I'll see you the next time around hopefully <3 12/11/92-05/18/16
AJs mommy ❤️ 11/26/17
Married to my best friend and Soulmate 3/5/18 ❤️💍
i tried to kill my self to nights ago. I have never felt more tempted to try again
"The body faught to survive, it evacuated toxins in any way it knew how. It made clots to stop the bleeding.Bones would find the quickest ways to heal themselves. It made scar tissue. In the face of violence towards it, it would become violent. It was amazing, yet excruciating. "
“Because everything that goes around comes around. Maybe it's luck or maybe it's fate, but either way, it comes back around."
Rest in Love Sar-sis. I'll see you the next time around hopefully <3 12/11/92-05/18/16
AJs mommy ❤️ 11/26/17
Married to my best friend and Soulmate 3/5/18 ❤️💍
I always look at other people and want to be like them. I always feel inferior. I always get that slight touch of pain inside when i see how happy and complete other people can be..... And i copy everything i see but at the end of the day i'm still me.... And it hurts.
I hold arguments with my alters, the ones taht I know of at least, and that pretty much makes me insane I'm sure
“Because everything that goes around comes around. Maybe it's luck or maybe it's fate, but either way, it comes back around."
Rest in Love Sar-sis. I'll see you the next time around hopefully <3 12/11/92-05/18/16
AJs mommy ❤️ 11/26/17
Married to my best friend and Soulmate 3/5/18 ❤️💍
I always look at other people and want to be like them. I always feel inferior. I always get that slight touch of pain inside when i see how happy and complete other people can be..... And i copy everything i see but at the end of the day i'm still me.... And it hurts.
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