I wish you wern't so selfish and concerned only with yourself, we needed you and you were never there, no one was ever brave enough to tell you but minesweeper and spider solitare are NOT MORE IMPORTANT than you're wife and kids. I hate the way that you think you can make up for everything by trying to be our friend and giving us money occasionally, money can't make up for the 10 years that you have ruined, you've messed up everything and I wish I didn't have to live everyday pretending like I don't care what you did. you made me feel like i wasn't worth anything, my mum like everything was her fault but guess what we've finally worked out the truth. you were the one who messed up and you didnt care enough about me to let me know i mattered...
how dare you get sick, especially now. i love you too much to see you in pain like that. it hurts me to see you suffer. and the only thing i know to do is make you laugh and i hurts you to laugh. i'm going to miss you soooo much and i want to spend a lot of time with you but you're in the hospital and i can't. i love you.
come and join me. then world domination.
mmmwuhahahahahahaha.
i like to commit raoh's (random acts of hugging)
HazardxToxMyselfx3 = sister
hahaugotpunked87 = fairy-god half step sister
Katiebean = pet moose
morbida = third cousin once removed
you're supposed to be one of my best friends but you hurt me so much only in one month.
you took her away from me, you knew it wasnt right.
you broke up with your girlfriend, and went out with my best friend.
you knew i loved her. you told me so.
so why did you do it?!
you messed with your ex's head so much.
you messed around with her too. you can't just pick and choose.
and now you go back out with her again.
and the best thing is?
she's mine. you know, the one who you messed around with, my best friend.
and you might not even be happy with the first one.
and i smile at that.
even though you are still my best friend, and i love you.
I can say I love you until I'm blue in the face, but I can see that it never changes anything...nothing ever changes. I'm here. You're there. You can be happy because you have him. I get to sit in this room all alone, crying, like a pathetic fool. Nothing ever changes. My feelings for you haven't changed. I am so depressed... You won't even talk to me... I hate myself. How is it that you can be happy while I suffer? I don't know....I wish I could be happy with you.
I want you to know that I don't care anymore. I just want everything to go away. I want us to be five years old. So that the most important thing in our lives isn't important at all. That scene politics didn't matter. That we wouldn't have to hate each other for who we like.
Wait. I don't hate you.
I'm a b*tch. You should know that, darling.
I'm a nasty person.
I act like a spoilt brat, and you should be used to that by now.
No matter what you think... I don't hate you.
I could never hate you.
No matter what we go through, no matter who comes and goes. It'll always be us against the world and I'd like to keep it that way.
Love always.
xxx
MCR is my CPR
Think Happy Thoughts
'Cause all of the stars, have faded away. Just trynot to worry, you'll see them someday.
i didn't mean to fuck everything up for you,
i didn't menn to make your life shit,
i didn't know i was hurting you,
i didn't know any of it,
it's not my fault...
things happend you blamed me.
over and over and over again.
dont deny it.
i have the scars and maks to prove it.
RYL Family
Bleedingdragon (Dad)
For It's Easier For Man To Destroy The Light With In Himself,
Wow. Thanks for showing me how much "better" you were than me last night. Are you going to blame your buzz on that? You don't deserve to say a damn thing about my anger and my cruelty, when all you could do was insult me, call me names, and be a huge hypocrite to me the entire time we talked.
To my half-angel,
You see me like no one else does, from the day we met i knew i would always love you. You are one of my dearest friends and i know i can tell you anything, except this. i love you more than you can ever know, i cried when i left yours that day because i didn't know when i would see you again. i hope it is soon. Lady walk with xxx
Last edited by severina : 21-04-2012 at 08:17 PM.
Reason: privacy
Hey baby, for the first time ever i actually feel like someone likes me and wants to spent time with me, you make me feel special and i am so grateful that one person in the world thinks the world of me. I love you soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much and i would do anything for you, anything to make you happy and stop you from getting hurt. I cannot tell you this because im scared to say that someone cares about me incase im actually wrong and they dont, and then ill look so stupid. Im too mixed up and depressed and too much trouble, you deserve not to have to put up with me, you have sed several times i bring out things in you that other ppl dont, i think in a good way and that i know you so much better than anyone else. i think you are perfect and i want to be in your company all the time, you make me stronger and you make me feel like i can get thru this and that theres something to live for. Im so sorry if i have ever hurt you or upset you, i would never ever want to do that! I hope that i know you forever and that you are always in my life because my life would just not be the same without you. I love spending time with you so much and you always make me feel better about myself. Thank you so much for everything you have ever done for me, i am unbelievable grateful and always will be!!! I wish i could tell you all this but im not sure i could. I will see you soon, i cannot wait to see you tomorow. I miss you and love you so much xxxxxxxxxx
im not fine, nowhere near it
im off meds but not cured
im waiting for the next downfall
i know youve all seen it one too many times
dont promise that you'll stick around
cos in your head your glad you dont have to be there now
and hope you dont have to deal with it again
i love you so much.
i just feel that sometimes we are fighting a loseing battle with some people.
there has been times when i was gunna end it..because i couldnt take it no more. but guess what......we are stronger than them they are just jealous of what we have.
i know that we can get through anything together.
we can fight them all together....me and you against the world.
i cant wait till you become my wife.
i love you more than anything in this world and that scares me because i have been hurt so many times before and i dont ever want to get hurt again....
i need you so much and i cant live without you.
Last edited by *Gothic*Angel* : 31-07-2007 at 04:24 PM.
Reason: spelling
What progress, you ask, have I made? I have begun to be a friend to myself.
The very first poem I wrote, ever, when I was fourteen....before I met Alex, or got a job, or did anything outside of stay in the house and cut... Was a poem called "two soldiers"
It was a war about two people inside of me, fighting to see which one got to control the body....
Sometimes I wonder, if, back then, I felt it..... the crack...severing.... the split into someone who could take it and someone who couldn't...I spent a good deal of time practically catatonic....
you wont let me si but u cut my hands for fun i dont get why u call your self my friend and you do all these mean things to me i wish i didnt interduce you to tash and mayby things would be different mayby you would treat me with respect the only reason i let u cut me is its the only way i can feel the pain
Dear Dad, my brothers and my aunt.
The 4 people that seem to care most about me. Thats the reason I've excluded mum in this.
I dont know how much longer i can go on without letting on to all of you that i'm really far from okay, my aunt you know some of it, you know alot of it, but theres still a limit to how much i can tell you.
I wish I could be happy even if its for you, Dad. I wish i didnt fail you as a daughter, that hurts me so much. I wish we were close in the way that i didnt have to hide all of this from you. I wish that i'd of carried on getting that help so then maybe i wouldnt of still be like this now. I'm so sorry.
To the brothers. I'm sorry for any upset ive caused you. I'm sorry if ive made you feel any less important in anyway shape or form. I'm sorry for being a mess up. I love you both, so much. I could never tell you how much, but i truly do, from the bottom of my heart. You both mean the world to me and even if we dont always get on, dont talk everyday, I love you both so much and i'd do anything for you.
To the aunt. I'm so sorry that ive broken my promise to you. I'm so sorry that i'm that person i was, the person you gave up on. But thank you, for always being there wehn it truly mattered. Ill always remember that.
Mum.
Pull yourself together before you lose your family.
We love you and sure we care, but you have to understand that we have limits and your so close to them. Forgetting about your sons birthdays? thats low. Really low. Letting us down. Saying youll do something and you never do. Being angry at me and accusing me of things.
Please take a long look in the mirror before you accuse any of us for doing stuff.
**If You Love Someone Or Something Enough, Set Them Free.**
Don't you know that you're hurting me? Don't you care? Why are you putting me through this over and over again? I'm the one who should be mad at you. I should give up, put it all behind me, move on. But I can't, and you know I can't. So you can take advantage of knowing that I'll always be here when you want me. But what about when I want you? I need you now but there's nothing I can do about it until you decide that you'll talk to me again. It's like the harder I try, the worse I make things. There's so much we need to talk about though. And I know you're avoiding it, but you're only making it worse for both of us. I miss you, I think about you all the time, and without your reassurance, there are too many bad thoughts in my head. I always want to turn to you when I'm not okay, but I know that I'm too much for you to deal with, especially now. I'm sorry for how I am, but you're still hurting me, and I still need you.
But it's too late to be real, no time to be strong enough just time to leave it all behind, memory has become pain
You're tender and you're tired
You can't be bothered to decide whether you live or die
or just forget about your life
Drift away and die, never say goodbye Drift away and die
Never say goodbye
Drift away and die
