Tell Your Secrets! And Be Honest!! - Page 187

SheHasHope · 02-04-2010, 11:40 PM

I cried for the first time in a long time, I didn't cut, just cried. I cried in the shower because I know I'll never be good enough to do what I love most. And that scares me, depresses me, and confuses me.

DestroyMe · 03-04-2010, 12:12 AM

I'm terrified

charlieglasgow · 03-04-2010, 07:20 AM

I do NOT want to give him up to Satan....I don't know if my heart will ever stop breaking over this.

DestroyMe · 03-04-2010, 07:30 AM

I'm actully starting to get afraid of eating again
fuck

Ardea · 03-04-2010, 07:57 AM

i know i'm the reason for all this. i'm the reason he's gone. i'm the reason you're unhappy. i'm the reason everything has turned to shit. i'm the reason for my own problems.

lozza · 04-04-2010, 01:34 AM

right now I really need you here by my side but I am too scared to call you or anyone else. I'm sorry

DestroyMe · 04-04-2010, 06:22 AM

I hav DID and the only person taht knows that has DID too

lozza · 07-04-2010, 09:55 AM

I know I should be calling or talking to someone... but she is back in my head screaming... and she wont shut up or leave

sweet sweet ella... how I missed you, how I missed you being in my very head

welcome back sweet heart - its great to have you home:s

Imperfect.Star · 07-04-2010, 10:35 AM

I read the information about having compassion for yourself and it terrified me. How could I want to like me? to be kind to myself? That would mean I'm ok with what I am which just can't be. Maybe I should have let them put me in hospital, maybe he was right all along and I was wrong as usual.

DestroyMe · 07-04-2010, 12:42 PM

I'm not ready to give this up
I'm sorry

Imperfect.Star · 07-04-2010, 11:26 PM

I'm just trying to fool everyone that I'm good enough, I know it will never be true.

TinkerDebs · 07-04-2010, 11:33 PM

i've never actually stopped cutting - you think im 9 months free - do you even notice me?

DestroyMe · 08-04-2010, 12:01 AM

secretly I liked that you took the time to notice
even though you called me stupid for it
it means that somewhere part of you still cares
...and yet you do nothing about it
well, that's fine too I guess

PoisonedApple · 08-04-2010, 12:04 AM

sometime I want to just quit. but I'm not a quitter.even if I was a quitter giving up means they win. maybe it means I'm a bitch but I'm okay with that.

08-04-2010, 04:18 AM

I'm afraid of eating, nobody knows I am. I've hidden it for years...
I hate myself and everything about me. I hate getting up in the morning just because I have to look at myself

SoAlone · 08-04-2010, 04:48 AM

Without someone by my side I develop a hole in my heart that I turn to drugs or cutting to fill; even though they never do. I'm not ok being alone. Yet it's all I ever feel. I need someone to be happy.

Imperfect.Star · 08-04-2010, 10:42 AM

I'm so close to getting what I wanted and I'm terrified of it.

DestroyMe · 08-04-2010, 12:42 PM

I actually looked up and smiled when my Psych teacher told all of us she had an ED, "I don't like to eat, it takes too much time"
because I thought, "finally someone who knows what its like, that I see everyday"
now I use her as competition and I don't exactly feel bad about it
but I should

DestroyMe · 12-04-2010, 03:42 AM

I'm scared more then I let on

*fallenangel* · 03-05-2010, 01:34 PM

The cracks are showing, the tears keep coming and I cant stop them. I want to call the Mcmillan helpline...but i dont know what im going to say