i dont want this moment.. to ever end.. when everythingz nothing.. without yew..
i'd wait here forever just to.. to see you smile cuz its true.. i am nothing.. without yew..
through it all.. i made my mistakes.. i stumble and fall.. well i mean these words..
i want u to know.. with everything i wont ley this go..
these words are my heart n soul.. ill hold on to this moment u know..
as i bleed my heart out to show.. and i WONT LET GOO!!
i believe that everything happens for a reason..
people change so that you can learn to let go..
things go wong so that you apreciate them when they're going right..
you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself..
and that sometimes good things fall apart so that better things can fall together.. <33
I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone.
These wounds won't seems to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing Just praying to a God that I don't believe in 'Cause I got time while she got freedom
'Cause when a heart breaks no it don't break even
Her best days will be some of my worst
She finally met a man thats gonna put her first While I'm wide awake she's no trouble sleeping
'Cause when a heart breaks no it don't break even
What am I suppose to do when the best part of me was always you
What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and your ok
I'm falling to pieces I'm falling to pieces
They say bad things happen for a reason
But no wise word's gonna stop the bleeding
'Cause she's moved on while I'm still grieving
'Cause when a heart breaks no it don't break even
What am I suppose to do when the best part of me was always you
What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and your ok
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces (One still in love while the other ones leaving)
I'm falling to pieces
('Cause when a heart breaks no it don't break even)
Oh you got his heart and my heart and none of the pain
You took your suitcase, I took the blame
Now I'm trya make sense of what little remains Cos you left me with no love, no love to my name
I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing Just prayed to a god that I don't believe in Cos I got time while she got freedom
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break, no it don't break even
What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you
What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and your ok
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces (One still in love while the other ones leaving)
I'm falling to pieces
(Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even)
Oh it don't break even no
Oh it don't break even no Oh it don't break even no
I had a brother once
He drowned in a bathtub
Before he had ever learned how to talk
And I don't know what his name was
But my mother does
I heard her say it once
Padriac, my prince, I've all but died
From the sheer weight of my shame
You cried but no one came
And the water filled your tiny lungs
Appear, my dear, and cry for me
It was six years ago today
That I laid you in your grave
Your sweet young skin was shining then too
And so tonight to celebrate, I will, I will poison myself
Another coughing, shaking fit in a bathroom that is spinning
So I close the door and rest my head on the tile floor
Sickness and sleep turning me cold
I'm still not sure
Is there some better place I should be heading towards?
Where the selfishly sick and self absorbed are welcome
I saw the future once
I was drunk in a phone booth
My eyes were wet and red
But I could not tell what was said
And through the screams of the traffic
Voices carried, saying, "I'm sorry"
On a day so gray it's black inside
Watching churches on TV In a coma you don't dream
You just hope that someone sits with you Babies turn blue when they're ignored
Like the sky on summer days
Before you turn and walk away It has changed you
So tonight to compensate, I will, I will poison myself
Another coughing, shaking fit in a bathroom that is spinning
I used to be involved, and I felt like a king
Now I've lost it all and I don't feel a thing
I may never grow old, I may never give in
And I'll blame this world that I live in
I visit hell on a daily basis
I see the sadness in all your faces
I've got friends who have married
And their lives seem complete
Here I am still stumbling down a darkened street
And I act like a child and I'm insecure
And I'm filled with doubt and I'm immature
Sometimes it creeps up on me and before I know it
I'm lost at sea
But no matter how far I row
I always find my way back home
But I don't know what I've been waiting for
But I know that I don't wanna wait anymore
Now I'll play your ghost as my ace, whenever I'm led astray.
But I am actually good, can't help it if we're tilted.
I'm in my right place, don't be a downer.
This time I wonder what it feels like
To find the one in this life
The one we all dream of
But dreams just aren't enough
So I´ll be waiting for the real thing.
I'll know it by the feeling.
The moment when we´re meeting
will play out like a scene straight off the silver screen
So I`ll be holdin’ my own breath
Right up to the end
Until that moment when
I find the one that I'll spend forever with
`Cause nobody wants to be the last one there.
'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There`s gotta be somebody for me like that.
`Cause nobody wants to do it on their own
And everyone wants to know they´re not alone.
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere.
There`s gotta be somebody for me out there.
Tonight, out on the street out in the moonlight
And dammit this feels too right
It´s just like Déjà Vu
Me standin’ here with you
So I´ll be holdin`my own breath
Could this be the end?
Is it that moment when
I find the one that I'll spend forever with?
‘Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There´s gotta be somebody for me like that.
`Cause nobody wants to do it on their own
And everyone wants to know they´re not alone.
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There`s gotta be somebody for me out there.
You can´t give up!
Lookin´ for that diamond in the rough
You never know but when it shows up
Make sure you´re holdin` on
‘Cause it could be the one, the one you´re waiting on
‘Cause nobody wants to be the last one there.
And everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There has gotta be somebody for me
Ohhhhhh.
Nobody wants to do it on their own
And everyone wants to know they´re not alone.
Is there somebody else that feels the same somewhere?
There`s gotta be somebody for me out there.
Nobody wants to be the last one there
'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Is there somebody else that feels the same somewhere?
There has gotta be somebody for me out there.
shoot for the moon... if you fail you'll land amongst the stars.
I'm so fed up with everyone around me
(No one seems to care)
I'm just so far gone and nothing's gonna change
(I'll never be the same)
It's always do this, do that,
Everything they want to
I don't want to live that way
Every chance they get their always
Pushin me away
[Chorus:] It's never enough
No it's never enough
No matter what I say
It's never enough
No it's never enough I'll never be what you want me to be
It's all so messed up and no one ever listens
(Everyone's deranged) I'm just so f***** up and I'm never gonna change (Wanna lay it all to waste)
Their always say this, say that,
Nothing that you want to
I don't want to live that way
Every chance they get their always
Shovin me aside
[Chorus]
I'm Done
[Bridge:]
In the end we're all just chalklines on the concrete
Drawn only to be washed away
For the time that I've been given
I am what I am
I'd rather hate you
For everything you are
Than ever love you
For something you are not
I'd rather you hate me
For everything I am
Than have you love me
For something that I'm not
It's never enough
It's never enough
No matter what I say
It's never enough
No it's never enough
No matter who I try to be
It's never enough
No it's never enough
No matter how I try to taste
It's never enough
Never never enough
I'll never be what you want me to be.
'Coincidence...it's what the Universe does for...fun.'
The Doctor
Location: In a glass vial in the pocket of a beautiful mind.
I am currently:
How do you get that lonely,
how do you hurt that bad
To make you make the call,
that havin' no life at all
Is better than the life that you had
How do you feel so empty,
you want to let it all go
How do you get that lonely... and nobody know
rhap·so·dy - an ecstatic expression of feeling or enthusiasm. ♫
"Sacrifice is the most you can love someone." ♥
“Love was at best an excuse for stupidity, at worst a destructive, dangerous emotion that drove men to acts of annihilation which defied logic. It was a twisted, insidious sentiment used to justify everything from spoiling a child to destroying entire civilizations.”
He's utterly sarcastic- aesthetically confused
He tells me I'm bombastic I want to be his muse
An ordinary person who climbed into his void
Would only wake up bitter and deeply paranoid
He's unenthusiastic. Emotionally abused
He thinks that it's fantastic- I'd walk ten miles in his shoes
As I watch him disappearing. I know that it's not right
I love him completely, At least for tonight
There's a lack of understanding - a mutual malaise
He thinks I'm reprimanding with my uncertain gaze
Though I can't conceal my feelings, Like he can't purge his
pain
Cause once he sees a mirror, logic goes down the drain
He's unenthusiastic, emotionally abused
He thinks that it's fantastic I'd walk ten miles in his shoes
As I watch him disappearing - I know that it's not right
I love him completely
At least for tonight
My manorexic
There's a roughness to our romance - A sadness to his step
And though he won't admit it, I know he's often wept
Perhaps it's just frustration, at stars he'll never reach
Reflecting his self image, Bleeding poetry in the sheets
He's unenthusiastic, emotionally abused
If I wrap him up in plastic, I'll save the parts he'll never use
I watch him disappearing - I try to hold on tight
Can't love him completely
At least not tonight
A year now and nothing much has changed
Holed up in a motel in El Paso This was meant to be my great escape I got lost along the way
Amongst free HBO and take-out
Going to write my Moby Dick
More like scratching lyrics on paper plates I spent the best years of my life Waiting on the best years of my life So what's there to write about?
What have I done?
What have I done?
So is this my destiny?
From starlight into eternity The gods must be laughing down at me Ha, ha, ha Ha, ha, ha
A traveling salesmen at twenty years old
Stranded in Ann Arbor with a flat tire
And I watch the sun sadly set
Any younger, I may have wept
Much older, I wouldn't notice But I was out there in the world Yeah, then the world, it passed me by I was telling everyone back home That I was taking it by storm Instead, I watched it from the roadside
What have I done?
What have I done?
Are these the best tales I can spin?
A boy waiting to begin
A man of no memoirs
What have I done?
What have I done? You're young and you're going to be someone Then you're old and you're ashamed of what you've become
Well, take a look around you
You're preaching to the choir...
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Broken Smile . Starless Sky . End it All . Say Goodbye...
"Friends are only ghosts" she said
"They fade and fall apart"
They never stick around
When the going gets hard-nosed, strong-boned
Stick-impervious, diamond stoned
And it's only names that really hurt
Take me anywhere from here, i'm not asking
I'll do anything to disappear from here
I don't like thinking that maybe something I did was wrong
I didn't understand her, and suddenly she didn't belong
People come and go, one day they're here, the next they're gone
Paranoia isn't pretty, but it sure makes you strong-bones
Hard-nosed, unimpressible, indisposed
So call me the names that really hurt
Take me anywhere from here, i'm not asking
I'll do anything to disappear from here
Your life is just a movie in which you wish we never had starred
But right back at the start
I bet there's scene that makes you hard-nosed
Strong-boned, stick-impervious, diamond-stoned
And it's only names that really hurt
Take me anywhere from here, i'm not asking
I'll do anything to disappear
So take me anywhere from here
"Be nice. Think happy thoughts. Champion silver linings. Love all things (not just cute things like babies and kittens) & when you do love - love like they do in power ballads (you know like on a cliff with the wind in your hair and your eyes shut, knowing you'll never know love like this). Watch out for dog poo. Smile at people - even grumpy ones. Remember anything is possible & whatever you do always try to look on the bright side."
We can't stop now
Were so close now Cause these times are almost over
I wont give up
So god save us
It feels like were getting closer
RIP Mike [4.1.06] RIP Grandma [8.2.08] Jon&Nicole[1.6.09] Sometimes when i say "oh i'm fine..."
i want someone to look me in the eyes and say "tell the t r u t h"
The shortness of life, I keep saying, makes everything seem pointless when I think about the longess of death.
When I look ahead, all I can see is my final demise. And they say not for seventy or eighty years.
And I say, Maybe you, but me,
I'm already gone.
PM me if you ever need to talk, im always here to listen/try and help
The cracks of my skin can prove
As the years will testify
Say your prayers and light a fire
We're going to start a war Your slogan's a gun for hire
It's what we waited for
Hey Gloria,
This is why we're on the edge The fight of our lives been drawn to
This undying love
Gloria, Viva La Gloria
You blast your name
In graffiti on the walls Falling through broken glass that's
Slashing through your spirit
I can hear it like a jilted crowd
Gloria, where are you Gloria You found a home
In all your scars and ammunition
You made your bed in salad days Amongst the ruin
Ashes to ashes of our youth
She smashed her knuckles into winter
As autumns wind fades into black She is the saint on all the sinners
The one that's fallen through the cracks
So don't put away your burning light
Gloria, Where are you are Gloria Don't lose your faith
To your lost naivety
Weather the storm and don't look
Back on last November
When your banners were burning down
Gloria, viva la Gloria Send me your amnesty down
To the broken hearted
Bring us the season
That we always will remember
Don't let the bonfires go out
So Gloria,
Send you your message of the light
That shadows in the night. Gloria, where's your undying love? Tell me the story of your life
Romeo save me, they're trying to tell me how to feel
This love is difficult, but it's real
Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess
It's a love story, baby, just say yes
Oh, oh...
Turning tricks with absent guile
Reeling in your crooked smile Why did I turn to you? I only wanted a hand to pour my heart into And now I'll bump my grind through another night Lose my mind in another fight Why did I turn to you?
I only gave you a chance to prove the rumors true
And now I'm paying with my
Paying with my life
I'm paying with my life
My life
My life
So let the record show That you murdered me In your coldest blood With your own two hands Don't think no one understands It happens every day
Working life like a burlesque show
Get them off and they'll let you go Why did I turn to you? I only turned out to be just one more girl you slew And now I'll bump my grind through another Lose my mind in another Why, why, why, why?
I only gave you a chance to prove the rumors true
And now I'm paying with my
Paying with my life
I'm paying with my life
My life
My life
Broken Smile . Starless Sky . End it All . Say Goodbye...
