Tonight I'm so alone
This sorrow takes a hold
Don’t leave me here so cold
(Never want to be so cold)
Your touch used to be so kind
Your touch used to give me life
I’ve waited all this time
I’ve wasted so much time
Don’t leave me alone
‘Cause I barely see at all
Don’t leave me alone
I'm falling in the black
Slipping through the cracks
Falling to the depths can I ever go back?
Dreaming of the way it used to be
Can you hear me?
I'm falling in the black
Slipping through the cracks
Falling to the depths can I ever go back?
Falling inside the black
Falling inside, falling inside the black
You were my source of strength
I’ve traded everything
That I love for this one thing
Stranded in this offering
Don’t leave me here like this
Can’t hear me scream from the abyss
And now I wish for you my desire
Don’t leave me alone ‘cause I can barely see at all
Don’t leave me alone
I'm falling in the black
Slipping through the cracks
Falling to the depths can I ever go back?
Dreaming of the way it used to be
Can you hear me?
I'm falling in the black
Slipping through the cracks
Falling to the depths can I ever go back?
Falling inside the black
Falling inside, falling inside the black, black, black, black
But all I could do was close my eyes
And cross my arms and hope to die
Cause you don't f***ng listen
When I'm around.
The least you could do is take it back
All the vicious remarks and verbal attacks,
Cause I can't f***ing stand it.
When You're Around.
The future has got me worried, such awful thoughts
My head is a carousel of pictures, the spinning never stops
I just want someone to walk in front and I'll follow the leader
Like when I fell under the weight of a schoolboy crush
Started carrying her books and doing lots of drugs, I almost forgot who I was
but came to my senses Now I'm tryin' to be assertive
I'm making plans
Wanna rise to the occasion, yeah
meet all of their demands But all I do is just lay in bed
and hide under the covers
I know I should be brave
but I'm just too afraid of all this change And it's too hard to focus through all this doubt
I keep making these "To Do" lists but nothing gets crossed out
Working on the record seems pointless now.
When the world ends, who's gonna hear it?
But I'm tryin' and take some comfort in written words,
yeah Tim I heard your album and it's better than good
When you get off tour I think we should hang and black out together Because I've been feeling sentimental for days gone by
all those summers singing, drinking, laughing, wasting our time
Remember all those songs and the way we smiled in those basements made of music But now I've got to crawl, to get anywhere at all, I'm not as strong as I thought
So when I'm lost in a crowd, I hope that you'll pick me out
Oh, how I long to be found The grass grew high, I laid down
Now I wait for a hand to lift me up, help me stand
I have been laying so low
Don't want to lay here no more
Don't want to lay here no more
Don't want to lay here no more
Don't want to lay here no more
But if everything that happens is supposed to be
and it is predetermined, can't change your destiny
Then I guess I'll just keep moving, someday, maybe, I'll get to where I'm going
“Dead as dead can be,” my doctor tells me
But I just can’t believe him, ever the optimistic one
I’m sure of your ability to become my perfect enemy
Wake up and face me, don’t play dead 'cause maybe
Someday I will walk away and say, “You disappoint me,”
Maybe you’re better off this way
Leaning over you here, cold and catatonic I catch a brief reflection of what you could and might have been
It's your right and your ability
To become my perfect enemy
Wake up (we'll catch you) and face me (come on now),
Don’t play dead (don't play dead)
'Cause maybe (because maybe)
Someday I’ll (someday I'll) walk away and say, “you disappoint me”
Maybe you’re better off this way
Maybe you’re better off this way
Maybe you’re better off this way
Maybe you’re better off this way
You’re better of this; you’re better off this; Maybe you’re better off
Wake up (can't you) and face me (come on now),
Don’t play dead (don't play dead)
Cause maybe (because maybe)
Someday I’ll (someday I'll) walk away and say, “You ****ing disappoint me!”
Maybe you’re better off this way
Go ahead and play dead
I know that you can hear this
Go ahead and play dead
Why can't you turn and face me?
Why can't you turn and face me?
Why can't you turn and face me?
Why can't you turn and face me?
You ****ing disappoint me
I will never be like you
I'll never do the things you do
Selfish and lonely, what's your problem
Letting go of you and this
Is harder than I thought but I will not be poisoned by your actions
I hold my breath as this life starts to take its toll
I hide behind a smile as this perfect plan unfolds But oh, God, I feel I've been lied to Lost all faith in the things I have achieved And I
[Chorus:] I've woken now to find myself
In the shadows of all I have created I'm longing to be lost in you
(away from this place I have made) Won't you take me away from me?
Crawling through this world as disease flows through my veins
I look into myself, but my own heart has been changed
I can't go on like this
I loathe all I've become
[Chorus]
Lost in a dying world I reach for something more
I have grown so weary of this lie I live
I've woken now to find myself
In the shadows of all I have created I'm longing to be lost in you
I have woken now to find myself
I'm lost in shadows of my own I'm longing to be lost in you
Away from me.
'Never forget what you are. The rest of the world will not. Wear it like armor, and it can never be used to hurt you.'
['There is only one thing we say to death. Not today'.']
'We are each our own devil, and we make this world our hell.’ – Oscar Wilde
‘It’s hard to dance with the devil on your back.’ Sydney Carter
I'm on the verge, I'm on the verge
Unraveling with every word With every word you say, make me believe
That I won't feel your tires on the street As I'm finding the words... you're getting away.
I come undone, oh yes, I do
Just think of all the thoughts wasted on you
And every word you say, say something sweet Cause all I taste is blood between my teeth
As I'm finding the words... you're getting away
Well I'm ready, I'm ready to drop
Oh, I'm ready, I'm ready so don't stop
I'm ready so don't stop, Keep pushing I'm ready to fall, oh, I'm ready
I'm ready so don't call, I'm ready so don't call
I am aware I've been misled
I disconnect my heart, my head Don't wanna recognize when things go bad
The things that you'll accept
Accept that I am finding the words... to say
Well I'm ready, I'm ready to drop
Oh, I'm ready, I'm ready so don't stop
I'm ready so don't stop, Keep pushing I'm ready to fall, oh, I'm ready
I'm ready so don't call, I'm ready so don't call.
I woke up mourning
I woke up dead today
I aged a thousand years or more
I flinch when you are nice
You kill me with a single word
When angels f*ck and devils kiss, I'm sure
I'll bask in your forever You just waste my time
I want to drag you down, down with me
I wanted to help, to help destroy the world I wanted to be that, to be that special girl
Everybody's got a little something to hide but me Everybody's got a little someone to crush but me I'm living in a human teenage mediocrity Everybody's got a little someone to trust but me
I dreamed that I was you
I dreamed your ego died
Said who loves you more than I do I know you lied
I'll bask in your forever
F*cking waste of time
Angels f*ck and devils screw
I wanted to heal me and then destroy the world
Piss in your heart and be that, and be that special girl
Everybody's got a little something to hide but me Everybody's got a little someone to crush but me I'm living in a teenage negative mediocrity Everybody's got a little someone to trust but me
But me, but you
Not me Hate you
Love me, love me, hate you
Want me, f*ck you, hate me
Kill you
F*ck me, like you, want me
Like you want you f*ck you
F*ck me, f*ck you, f*ck you f*ck you f*ck me
F*ck you, f*ck me, f*ck you f*ck you f*ck me (you never loved me)
F*ck you, f*ck you, f*ck you f*ck you f*ck me
I will never make it better I will never make it better It will always hurt you f*cking asshole.
Broken Smile . Starless Sky . End it All . Say Goodbye...
It's strange to think the songs we used to sing
The smiles, the flowers, everything: is gone
Yesterday I found out about you
Even now just looking at you: feels wrong
You say that you'd take it all back, given one chance
It was a moment of weakness and you said yes...
You should've said no, you should've gone home
You should've thought twice before you let it all go
You should've know that word, bout what you did with him
Would get back to me...
And I should've been there, in the back of your mind
I shouldn't be asking myself why
You shouldn't be begging for forgiveness at my feet...
You should've said no, baby and you might still have me
You can see that I've been crying
And baby you know all the right things: to say
But do you honestly expect me to believe
We could ever be the same...
You say that the past is the past, you need one chance
It was a moment of weakness and you said yes...
You should've said no, you should've gone home
You should've thought twice before you let it all go
You should've know that word, bout what you did with him
Would get back to me...
And I should've been there, in the back of your mind
I shouldn't be asking myself why
You shouldn't be begging for forgiveness at my feet...
You should've said no, baby and you might still have me
I can't resist... before you go, tell me this
Was it worth it...
Was he worth this...
No... no no no...
You should've said no, you should've gone home
You should've thought twice before you let it all go
You should've know that word, bout what you did with him
Would get back to me...
And I should've been there, in the back of your mind
I shouldn't be asking myself why
You shouldn't be begging for forgiveness at my feet...
You should've said no, baby and you might still have me
(edited a little bit just changed the she's to hes)
-How could something so right
Turn out so wrong?-
-You spent your time making excuses for the ways of life that you are choosing-
I think Ill get outta here, where I can
Run just as fast as I can
To the middle of nowhere
To the middle of my frustrated fears
And I swear you're just like a pill
Instead of makin me better, you keep makin me ill
You keep makin' me ill
RIP Mike [4.1.06] RIP Grandma [8.2.08] Jon&Nicole[1.6.09] Sometimes when i say "oh i'm fine..."
i want someone to look me in the eyes and say "tell the t r u t h"
This place is so empty, and my thoughts are so tempting...
RIP Mike [4.1.06] RIP Grandma [8.2.08] Jon&Nicole[1.6.09] Sometimes when i say "oh i'm fine..."
i want someone to look me in the eyes and say "tell the t r u t h"
The medicine is blending in mixing the blood with oxygen
I need this right now to figure myself out
Cutting through the ribbons of self doubt
I never thought you'd see me this way You are the worst and I am to blame
Close the door, lock it tight
Then I'll know you're safe tonight
Turn on a song that means the most Believe I'm there and hold me close
She is in my bloodstream, tonight she's draining me
The room is filled with reds and blues
I follow as she leads into the darkness
Drying up my veins, she's a ghost, a silhouette
Calling out my name
RIP Mike [4.1.06] RIP Grandma [8.2.08] Jon&Nicole[1.6.09] Sometimes when i say "oh i'm fine..."
i want someone to look me in the eyes and say "tell the t r u t h"
I live a life
I feel the pain
To sing this song
To tell the tale I wish I never even heard the song
I see the world
It makes me puke
But then I look at you and know
That somewhere there’s a someone who can soothe me
To me you are a work of art And I would give you my heart
That’s if I had one
I see the world
It makes me puke
But then I look at you and know
That somewhere there’s a someone who can soothe me
To me you are a work of art
And I would give you my heart That’s if I had one, had one
To me you are a work of art And I would give you my heart
That’s if I had one
I am as ugly as I seem Worse than all your dreams
Could ever make me out to be
And it makes me want to scream
When it's halloween
And the kids are laughing
The rogue is a bank he's never broke
But worth as much as a joke that no one is laughing at
Can you believe some things are not
Appealing and there's a spot
On the ceiling of my childhood bedroom
And of these dreams that you can't imagine But none of them match the vision
That you have decided for me
You want to take away from me
Things that are mine and it's not your right
I'll bet you wouldn't expect a fight, oh
Can it be that I don't want what you want?
And the only thing I could care for
Is a place in a home that is safe and warm
Safe and warm, safe and warm, safe and warm
Safe and warm.
Judge yourself if you feel the need
Just let me alone to be
In search of the truth myself
There is a drop of blood on the ground
And it seems to me that it's not my kind
And I can't be sure if it's yours or mine
I am as ugly as I seem
Worse than all your dreams
Could ever make me
Could ever make me
Could ever make me
Could ever make me
Now I'll play your ghost as my ace, whenever I'm led astray.
But I am actually good, can't help it if we're tilted.
I'm in my right place, don't be a downer.
& we'll all float on ok. & we'll all float on ok. & we'll all float on ok. & we'll all float on alright.
already, we'll all float on, oh, dont you worry, we'll all float on alright we'll all float on alright dont worry, we'll all float on.
alright, already, we'll all float on alright already, we'll all float on on alright
dont worry, even if things end up a bit too heavy we'll all float on alright already we'll all float on ok.
dont worry we'll all float on even if things get heavy we'll all float on alright dont you worry we'll all float on
"They say time heals all wounds. I don't agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue and the pain lessons, but it is never gone." - Rose Kennedy
Small, simple, safe price
Rise the wake and carry me with all of my regrets This is not a small cut that scabs, and dries, and flakes, and heals And I am not afraid to die
I'm not afraid to bleed, and ****, and fight.
I want the pain of payment What's left, but a section of pigmy size cuts
Much like a slew of a thousand unwanted ****s Would you be my little cut?
Would you be my thousand ****s? And make mark leaving space for the guilt to be liquid
To fill, and spill over, and under my thoughts My sad, sorry, selfish cry out to the cutter
I'm cutting trying to picture your black broken heart Love is not like anything
Especially a ****ing knife
Look at me, you can tell
By the way I move and do my hair Do you think that it's me or it's not me?
I don't even care
I'm alive
I don't smell I'm the cleanest I have ever been.
I feel big, I feel tall, I feel dry (dry)
Just look at me, look at me now
I'm a fake Just look at me, look at me now
I'm a fake
Do I drink? Do I date?
I've got perfect placement all my ink
Satisfied, in your eyes
I'm the biggest fan I've got right now
I made sure, that I look how I wanted to look The people around me, the people surround me
I feel big, I feel tall, I feel dry
Just look at me, look at me now
I'm a fake Just look at me, look at me now
I'm a fake
My stomach hurts now, and all tied off in lace I pray, I beg for anything, to hit me in the face
and this sicknes isn't me, I pray to fall from grace The last thing I see is feeling And I'm telling you I'm a fake
