Tell Your Secrets! And Be Honest!! - Page 165

*fallenangel* · 21-12-2009, 02:57 PM

Im Gay.
A Lesbian.
Homosexual.
Dyke.
Queer.

I know I have to accept it before anyone else will.

Its hard.

But Im trying.

Fry · 21-12-2009, 05:46 PM

I can't look at you for more than a couple of seconds at a time because I'm afraid my feelings may overtake my actions and.. you're just too beautiful to resist.

vixxiv · 22-12-2009, 12:16 AM

I have gained weight after ending my EDs, but now that I want to lose weight, I want to starve myself and purge again so badly, bu

DestroyMe · 22-12-2009, 03:44 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by *fallenangel*

Im Gay.
A Lesbian.
Homosexual.
Dyke.
Queer.

I know I have to accept it before anyone else will.

Its hard.

But Im trying.

^this
and what's sad is I had to sleep with a guy SOBER to realize this
I feel like a "fake lesbian"
and that's what everyone is telling me I am...

also I'm seeing things taht arn't there and no one knows exactly how bad it's gotten

kinkat-drone · 22-12-2009, 06:04 PM

I like my other personality so much better.

Sometimes I wish I had my hallucinations all the time, because lately everything I think I see, hear and feel.... seems just like you.

I want to stop self harming, but i cant even last a day.

I honestly think I wont get better, unless I get comitted.

DestroyMe · 22-12-2009, 06:12 PM

I won't be completely happy until I weigh that much
and no one will ever know that

kinkat-drone · 22-12-2009, 08:38 PM

When i said 'goodbye, I love you' I had every intention to kill myself,
but the love you took away, that i now have to live without, kept me from doing it, instead i self harmed and now im so ashamed of myself for still being alive...

Scars · 22-12-2009, 08:38 PM

There are 200 cuts that aren't healed on my legs...and that doesn't bother me.
After I'm done I clean up the mess. I'd rather die than my family know that anything is wrong.
But, my grandmother found blood on the shower curtain...alot of it too.
And I denied even seeing it. I cried for six hours over that.
How could they not know??
I left blood on the shower curtain. The missing razor? The way I nearly cry everytime someone touches me. How could they not know??
I'm hurting myself. I'm dying inside. And somehow I feel angry at them because they don't know.
I hate myself. And no one even notices. I try so hard to hide it but then I feel worse.
I want to be strong and get rid of my razorblades...but, I can't. I need them to be strong. I don't want to stop. I'm so sick of trying!
Even when I promise, I know that I can't do it. Maybe for a few months...then I get the urge and I do it.
No one even understands why. Or how someone could do that to themselves. Or how hard it is to stop.
Only one person knows that I'm doing it again. And he doesn't see why I can't just break the habit.
Am I insane?
I am so scared.

Catharsis · 22-12-2009, 08:47 PM

I text you, while i watch myself bleed.
You never notice, and i don't blame you.
But just sometimes, i wish you would...

DestroyMe · 22-12-2009, 09:30 PM

sometimes I think you're saner then me

I just lied to my mom and told her I wasn't hungry
truth is..I'm starving and I prefer it that way

lostinside1324 · 23-12-2009, 06:26 AM

I honestly think that I am emotionally unable to connect with another human being.

Second Chance · 23-12-2009, 04:12 PM

All I want is to spend christmas alone so that I won't have to eat anything.

Fry · 23-12-2009, 06:53 PM

I probably won't give the books back, I can't be bothered - I don't think you're worth it.

DestroyMe · 23-12-2009, 09:09 PM

I'm so cold...
I haven't eaten today to make-up fpr last night and I don't care

someonewithapassion · 24-12-2009, 02:31 AM

I did something horrible to my brother, and I can't get over it.
That's why I cut
because I hate myself for it.
and I'm still suicidal.
All I can think about is the stuff I've done wrong

DestroyMe · 24-12-2009, 02:35 AM

he wants so much to save me from myself
and I keep testing him to see hoe much he can handle before he says "I'm done"
like everyone else

he said that he'd feed me like a child if I wanted that more then sit diwn meals and I felt excited because he said that.
and he's my brother, and I'm not 4

Detour. Derail · 24-12-2009, 08:17 AM

I spent all my uni loan on alcohol for two reasons:
A) so I wouldnt buy so much food
B) because everything feels better from beneath an alcohol-induced haze

Detour. Derail · 24-12-2009, 08:17 AM

I purposely pick bad boys so that I wont fall in love.
If I dont fall in love, I cant get hurt

Detour. Derail · 24-12-2009, 08:18 AM

I want to go back to how I was when I was harming, because I coped so much better then

LozzyGirl · 24-12-2009, 06:23 PM

I hate who I am, but you wouldnt be able to guess.

I hate every piece of food that hits my stomach. But no one knows how much i force myself to eat.

I love causing myself damage. In anyway i can.

I feel dirty. But its of my own making.

My addiction to my books is, literaly, killing me.