And do you ever feel like you're alone?
And do you ever wish to be unknown?
I can say that I have.
I can say that I have.
And do you ever feel things here aren't right?
And do you ever feel the time slip by?
And I can say that I have.
your stitches are all out
but your scars are healing wrong
the helium balloon inside your room has come undone
and it's pushing up at the ceiling
and the flickering lights it cannot get beyond
everyone takes turns
now it's yours to play the part
and they're sitting all around you
holding copies of your chart
and the misery inside their eyes is synchronized and reflecting it to yours
hold on
one more time with feeling
try it again, breathing's just a rhythm
say it in your mind until you know that the words are right this is why we fight
you thought by now you'd be
so much better than you are
you thought by now they'd see
that you have come so far
and the pride inside their eyes
is synchronized into a love you'll never know
so much more than you can show
hold on
one more time with feeling
try it again, breathing's just a rhythm say it in your mind, until you know that the
♫Why does it feel like night today?
Something in here's not right today.
Why am I so uptight today?
Paranoia's all I got left
I don't know what stressed me first
Or how the pressure was fed
But I know just what it feels like
To have a voice in the back of my head
It's like a face that I hold inside
A face that awakes when I close my eyes
A face watches every time I lie
A face that laughs every time I fall
(And watches everything)
So I know that when it's time to sink or swim
That the face inside is hearing me
Right underneath my skin
for those few hours were the happiest in my life.
it's all my fault you're gone.
cause its no secret
I ****ing need this
Like I don't need anyone
It's like I'm falling asleep with my eyes open
shutting down and off the lights
cause after all of this it's all or nothing
still I wouldn't try to fight
I've fallen asleep with my eyes open
(and you'll lie to all your friends) (about sights you never saw)
shutting down and off the lights
(and you'll preach to all the press)
(about what you don't know at all) cause after all of this it's all or nothing
still I wouldn't try to fight
So let me drown so I can breathe again
I'm through choking and suffocating
on alter egos and alter motives
which weigh you down and take control of
the way you are and the things that you need
the life you live and the dreams that you dream
distort and blur all in slow motion
they broke you down and now you're broken and it's sadder than the saddest movie
I ever saw but with out the beauty so I stopped watching, I stopped caring I lost all interest and I stopped wearing
these plastic smiles I'll wash my hands clean I'll forget that you forgot about me and I'll live the life, the big city feeling
cause it's better than suburban dreaming
Living off the friends that hate you
who talk **** on me
like I don't know who my real friends are
anymore no I don't know you anymore
and it's sadder than the saddest movie
I ever saw but without the beauty
so I stopped watching, I stopped caring
"Maybe I was stupid for telling you goodbye
Maybe I was wrong for tryna pick a fight
I know that I've got issuses but you're pretty messed up to
either way I found out I'm nothing you"
-- Kelly Clarkson - My life would suck without you.
Though i've tried, I've fallen
Sunk so low
I have messed up
Better i should know
So don't come round here
And tell me i told you so...
Truth be told i've tried my best
But somewhere along the way
I got caught up in all there was to offer
And the cost was so much more than i could bear
Heaven bend to take my hand
Nowhere left to turn
I'm lost to those i thought were friends
To everyone i know
Oh they turned their heads embarassed
Pretend that they don't see
But its one missed step
You'll slip before you know it
And there doesn't seem a way to be redeemed.
I've fallen...
Sunk so low
I have messed up
Better i should know
So don't come round here
And tell me I told you so...
"Because you don't notice the light without a bit of shadow. Everything has both dark and light. You have to play with it until you get it exactly right."
I'm an angel, I'm a devil
I am sometimes in between
I'm bad as it can get
And good as it can be
Sometimes I'm a million colors
Sometimes I'm black and white
I am all extremes
Try to figure me out, you never can
There's so many things I am
I am special
I am beautiful
I am wonderful
And powerful
Unstoppable
Sometimes I'm miserable
Sometimes I'm pitiful
But that's so typical of all the things I am
I'm someone filled with self-belief
I'm haunted by self-doubt
I've got all the answers
I've got nothing figured out
I like to be by myself
I hate to be alone
I'm up and I am down
But that's part of the thrill
Part of the plan
Part of all of the things I am
I am special
I am beautiful
I am wonderful
And powerful
Unstoppable
Sometimes I'm miserable
Sometimes I'm pitiful
But that's so typical of all the things I am
I'm a million contradictions
Sometimes I make no sense
Sometimes I'm perfect
Sometimes I'm a mess
Sometimes I'm not sure who I am
But, I am special
I am beautiful
I am wonderful
And powerful
Unstoppable
Sometimes I'm miserable
Sometimes I'm pitiful
But that's so typical of all the things I am
I am special
I am beautiful
I am wonderful
And powerful
Unstoppable
Sometimes I'm miserable
Sometimes I'm pitiful
But that's so typical of all the things I am
Of all the things I am
Sometimes I'm miserable
Sometimes I'm pitiful
But that's so typical of all the things I am
Of all the things I am
Without a light I fear that I will stumble in the dark,
lay right down,
decide not to go on.
Plumeria Sister
''I know that I’ve got issues
But you’re pretty messed up too
Anyway, I found out I’m nothing without you''
''for a long time, I was in love,
Not only in love, I was obsessed.''
''Now all those simple things
are simply too complicated for my life
How'd I get so faithful to my freedom?
A selfish kind of life
When all I ever wanted was the simple things
A simple kind of life''
'Sometimes it's hard to keep on running,
We work so hard, to keep it going,
Don't make me want to give up...'
Now I'll play your ghost as my ace, whenever I'm led astray.
But I am actually good, can't help it if we're tilted.
I'm in my right place, don't be a downer.
Well I lied my face off
When I said that I would be okay
It's never fine when you go away
These cuts run deep these scars are permanent
And always on display
This makes things difficult for me
You could've been all I wanted
But you weren't honest
Now get in the ground
You choked off the surest of favors
But if you really loved me
You would've endured my world
Well if you're just as I presumed
A whore in sheep's clothing
****ing up all I do
And if so here we stop
Then never again
Will you see this in your life
We’ve got obsessions
I want to erase every nasty thought that bugs me every day of every week
We’ve got obsessions
You never tell me what it is that makes you strong and what it is that makes you weak.
JT gets all f**ked in some kareoke bar
After two drinks he's a loser
After three drinks he's a star
Getting all nostalgic as he sings I Will Survive
Hey baby can you bleed like me?
Leave him numb. Leave him crushed.
All in all is all we are
I push my fingers into my eyes
It's the only thing that slowly stops the ache
But it's made of all the things I have to take
Jesus it never ends, it works it's way inside
If the pain goes on
I have screamed until my veins collapsed
I've waited as my times elapsed
Now all I do is live with so much fate
I wished for this, I bitched at that
I've left behind this little fact
You cannot kill what you did not create
I've gotta say what I've gotta say
And then I swear I'll go away
But I can't promise you'll enjoy the noise
I guess I'll save the best for last
My future seems like one big past
You're left with me 'cause you left me no choice
for those few hours were the happiest in my life.
it's all my fault you're gone.
I dreamed of a fever
One that would cure me of this cold, winter set heart
With heat to melt these frozen tears
And burned with reasons as to carry on
Into these twisted months I plunge without a light to follow
But I swear that I would follow anything
If it would just get me out of here
And so you get six months to adapt
And then you get two more to leave town
In the event that you do adapt
We still might not want you around
And I fell for the promise of a life with a purpose
But I know that that is impossible now
And so I drink to stay warm
And to kill selected memories
Because I just can't think anymore about that or about her tonight
I give myself three days to feel better
Or I swear I'll drive right off a f*cking cliff
Because if I can't learn to make myself feel better
Then how can I expect anyone else to give a sh*t?
And I scream for the sunlight or a car to take me anywhere
Just get me past this dead and eternal snow
Because I swear that I am dying, slowly, but it's happening
So if there is a perfect spring that's waiting somewhere
Just take me there
And lie to me and say it's going to be all right
It's going to be all right, yeah, you worry too much, kid
It's going to be all right
