Sometimes I lie awake
And think of my mistakes
Was there ever a time when
We weren’t dying
And I wasn’t lying?
I know I ****ed up
The last two years of your life.
Empty boxes by the door
I’m throwing out all the clothes that I once wore
They just don’t seem to fit my shape right now
My appetite for holding on has been washed down.
I know I ****ed up
This is my last goodbye
I’ve hurt you enough
I know the morning’s going to hurt
But **** it cause I know this works.
Hurry on home, all the love is gone
Hurry on home for me
This village has a voice, it’s ringing through my ears
Hurry on home for me
Too many faces I almost defeated I never fell this far
But now that I see through the thin air in here, I see
That you just don’t care
I’m just the talk of the town Famous for fooling around
But honey don’t corner me in
Till I can reign in here
‘Cause I'm just the talk of the town
The obvious place for stealing your beautiful crown
So hurry on home, all the love is gone
Hurry on home for me This headache got my heart, it’s pounding like a drum
Come drum it out of me
‘Cause now that I see through the thick empty air, I see
That you just don’t care
I’m just the talk of the town Famous for fooling around
But honey don’t corner me in
Till I can reign in here
‘Cause I'm just the talk of the town
The obvious place for stealing your beautiful crown
Stealing your beautiful crown
But I might not; this battle must begin
So does I, does anyone know
That I'm feeling like poor leaves on seas
My keys are clean
I’m just the talk of the town
Famous for fooling around
But honey don’t corner me in
Till I can reign in here
‘Cause I'm just the talk of the town
The obvious place for stealing your beautiful crown
I’m an automatic steeple
For depressed and lonely people
My heart while in its cage
Is used to give and not receive a thing
But the only funny thing is
That I don’t know how to give myself advice
I've got this post-dramatic thing
I've got this a tattoo of a ring
That lies around my wedding finger
And that’s where I want to stake this claim
That I got to learn to live and dream
Before I go and get myself in love
in love
Before, before, before I go and get myself in love
I'm heavily broken
And I don't know what to do
It just seems like I'm choking
And I can't even move
When there's nothing left to say
What can you do?
I'm heavily broken
And there's nothing I can do
Is it worth the can you even hear me?
I'm tired and I felt it for awhile now
In this sea of lonely
The taste of ink is getting old
It's four o' clock in the ****ing morning
Each day gets more and more like the last day
Still I can see it coming
This could be my chance to break out
This could be my chance to say goodbye
At last it's finally over
Couldn't take this town much longer
Being half dead wasn't what I planned to be
Now I'm ready to be free
The thundercloud rain hits the freeway
The clowns put on makeup for show
The nightfall, my skin crawl kind of evening
And how the wind she blows
How the wind she blows
(Chorus) I want you to come closer
Come in closer. Come in closer.
I want you to come in closer
Come in closer. Come in closer.
I want you to come in closer, in closer
Come dancing with devils
Need not to know their names
We'll waltz like an army
For the fear of our pain
Our souls become useless
As the day they were born
In a rusted arm rocking chair
Away from your storm
But still, the truth remains lethal
A lie made by man
Where my shoes become hammers
And my words become sand
Like a sour patch, a wedding batch
Of roses you threw across my floor
In the rusted arm rocking chair
Away from your storm
I told another lie today
And I got through this day
No one saw through my games
I know the right words to say
Like "I don't feel well"
"I ate before I came"
Then someone tells me how good I look
and for a moment
For a moment I am happy
But when I'm alone
No one hears me cry
I need you to know
I'm not through the night
Some days I'm still fighting to walk towards the light
I need you to know
That we'll be okay
Together we can make it through another day
I don't know the first time I felt unbeautiful
The day I chose not to eat
What I do know is how I changed my life forever
I know I should know better
There are days when I'm okay
And for a moment
For a moment I find hope
But there are days when I'm not okay
And I need your help
So I'm letting go
I need you to know
I'm not through the night
Some days I'm still fighting to walk towards the light
I need you to know
That we'll be okay
Together we can make it through another day
Thinking of the words to say,
I'd like to think that this was fake,
Reference to a song you love,
Spell confusion with a 'K,'
Like a star without its rings,
I'm hanging here on these two wings,
For that smile and those eyes(I'm falling)
If time could stop, how could I make this more poetic?
When there's nothing more pathetic to be said,
You bring me out, show me light,
I'm sorry if I hide, I'm too afraid to look inside,
You carry through, you make me smile,
If it were you and me tonight,
I would tame the stars and save the brightest one for you,
For you,
If you ever had the chance,
Would you make your life seem right?
Or would you only hold it back,
The good times, the hard, and the bad,
Whatever you say is alright,
Just as long as there's no doubt,
Could you look me in the eyes(And say goodbye)
If time could stop, how could I make this more poetic?
When there's nothing more pathetic to be said,
You bring me out, show me light,
I'm sorry if I hide, I'm too afraid to look inside,
You carry through, you make me smile,
If it were you and me tonight,
I would tame the stars and save the brightest one for you,
Our wish,
Each time,
Keeps me returning to you,
Night after night,
Lift me up as high as the clouds that won the sky,
For you and I,
You bring me out, show me light,
I'm sorry if I hide, I'm too afraid to look inside,
You carry through, you make me smile,
If it were you and me tonight,
I would tame the stars and save the brightest one for you,
You bring me out, show me light,
I'm sorry if I hide, I'm too afraid to look inside,
You carry through, you make me smile,
If it were you and me tonight,
I would tame the stars and save the brightest one for you,
For you,
If shame had a face I think it would kind of look like mine
If it had a home would it be my eyes Would you believe me if I said I'm tired of this
Well here we go now one more time
'Cause I try to climb your steps
I try to chase you down
I try to see how low I can get down to the ground
I try to earn my way I try to tame this mind
You better believe that I am trying to beat this
So when will this end
It goes on and on Over and over and over again
Keep spinning around I know that it won't stop Till I step down from this for good
I never thought I'd end up here
Never thought I'd be standing where I am I guess I kind of thought that it would be easier than this
I guess I was wrong now one more time.
My brother finds comfort in calculators.
He assigns every number a name.
He believes that they add up to certainty
And he is upset with fractions that remain.
So I examine the maps with my eyes
And at best I can trace with my finger all the way
To that town where she went
In an attempt to forget the cracks
And the lines of my face.
So Jetsabel cleaned out the closets for me
And she piled the boxes in the hall.
Tomorrow when she wakes
She’ll come and take them away
And they will never haunt me again.
But it is still hard
To sleep with the moon's heavy beams.
I run barefoot to the backyard,
Just to freeze in my place
By the rod iron gate, Too ashamed and afraid to advance.
Today I walked through the snow
And found a field of headstones.
They were in rows like the weeks on calendars
Where each box is a day
That you can't ever escape
Without pills for the poisonous sleep.
These memories leak
From these faucets that weep.
Hot tears splash against the shower floor
And I stand in the steam
As if inside a dream
I can see her again by the sink
From behind the bathroom mirror
She pulls a thermometer
And placed it underneath my tongue.
She said “you are as pale as a sheet,
You look awful my sweet
Lay down and wait for the sun.”
So I stayed in that bed.
She brought me water and read
Each night from a volume out loud.
She whispered soft poetry.
Her favourite was Anabel Lee. And those words,
Like these drugs comforted me. But the clocks kept waving their hands
And she could not understand
Why my temperature would never drop.
And although she promised with tears
That she would always be here
I heard truth like the sounding sea.
I said, “My Arienette,
Oh how soon you’ll forget
This house will never be your home.
And you will leave in the fall
When the trees become graves
And their colours lie dead in the grass.”
Gold and green torture me Like the lies I believe too easily.
Oh my Jetsabel,
Look at this hell that I have made.
If you want maybe drop by sometime
Put some flowers on my grave
So that I will look beautiful
In my silent sepulcher.
Yeah that’s fine
Give those dresses away
I don’t want anything of hers.
For the moon never shines
And the stars never rise
Without bringing me dreams.
Haunted by the ghosts
Of those bright eyes.
If you're under the impression I'm alright.
I guess you never noticed.
I guess you might have known.
I've been holding this together for so long.
But I guess you might have noticed.
You set me up to leave me,
You wanted to feel,
Shallow love, shallow lives.
With every word, you speak of what you wanted from me.
I'm sinking more and more into my lies.
Now home is just a pinprick in the vastness of my life.
Feel the pressure, feel the pleasure,
Feel the pain, you're not alone.
Feel the pleasure, feel the pain,
Feel the pain.
Well I was there on the day
They sold the cause for the queen,
And when the lights all went out We watched our lives on the screen. I hate the ending myself,
But it started with an alright scene.
It was the roar of the crowd
That gave me heartache to sing. It was a lie when they smiled
And said, "you won't feel a thing" And as we ran from the cops
We laughed so hard it would sting
Yeah yeah, oh
If I'm so wrong (so wrong, so wrong) How can you listen all night long? (night long, night long)
Now will it matter after I'm gone?
Because you never learn a goddamn thing.
You're just a sad song with nothing to say
About a life long wait for a hospital stay
And if you think that I'm wrong,
This never meant nothing to ya
I spent my high school career
Spit on and shoved to agree
So I could watch all my heroes
Sell a car on tv Bring out the old guillotine
We'll show 'em what we all mean.
Yeah yeah, oh
If I'm so wrong (so wrong, so wrong)
How can you listen all night long? (night long, night long) Now will it matter long after I'm gone?
Because you never learn a goddamn thing.
You're just a sad song with nothing to say
About a life long wait for a hospital stay
And if you think that I'm wrong,
This never meant nothing to ya
So go, go away, just go, run away.
But where did you run to? And where did you hide?
Go find another way, price you pay
Woah, Woah, Woah, Woah, Woah, Woah
You're just a sad song with nothing to say
About a life long wait for a hospital stay And if you think that I'm wrong,
This never meant nothing to ya, come on
You're just a sad song with nothing to say
About a life long wait for a hospital stay And if you think that I'm wrong,
This never meant nothing to ya
You and me, always.
You held my head above the waves,
Paddling around pretending that it was not too cold,
It was but when you were there.
Our shadows softly on the grass,
Day would break we'd have our laughs.
Our shirt-tails in the wind,
Seems like yesterday my friend.
I know that we were scared,
Hurt because you were not there.
I know I want it all,
Wish the sky would fall on me.
you and me, always.
Always.
Our shadows softly on the grass,
Day would break we'd have our laughs.
Our shirt-tails in the wind,
Seems like yesterday my friend.
I know that we were scared,
Hurt because you were not there.
I know I want it all,
Wish the sky would fall on me.
(Oh common)
I can't believe the drama that I'm in, the flood is getting closer
I don't think they know that I know how to swim
You're feeling numb, from all that has become
It leaves your gums, slips down your tongue and travels fast down towards your lungs
All because I'm leaving you behind.
(chorus)
I feel the pressure
It's coming down on me.
It's turning me black and blue
oh now You left me on the side of the road(side of the road), and now I've got no place to go.
You brought the flood!
I cant believe, the troubles that you've caused
The pain is getting stronger, like an open wound without the gauze
It's on my brain, driving me insane
It's on my mind all of the time and if it left, I would be fine.
All because I'm leaving you behind.
I feel the pressure, it's coming down on me.
It's turning me black and blue
You left me on the side of the road (side of the road)
And now I've got no place to go.
You brought the flood! (flood! flood!)
(breakdown)
Oh!
Leave it be!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
OH!
I take it back
Take it back!
Leave it be
I take it back
Take it back
Leave it be
Leave it be
Leave it be
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
(chorus x 2)
I take it back, take it back!
Leave it be
I take it back, take it back!
Leave it be
Leave it be
Leave it be!
♪ ♫I'm swallowing razorblades again.
Your eyes have torn my throat.
Trying to steal my tongue.
Gaze of a demon has burned through.
My skin.♪ ♫
