I want to have a baby more then anything in the world
just so there is somthing in this world that actualy cares weither i live or die
"The body faught to survive, it evacuated toxins in any way it knew how. It made clots to stop the bleeding.Bones would find the quickest ways to heal themselves. It made scar tissue. In the face of violence towards it, it would become violent. It was amazing, yet excruciating. "
Hearing her voice suddenly makes everything so much better.
Makes me feel calm, and quiet, and like I can face things again.
Now I'll play your ghost as my ace, whenever I'm led astray.
But I am actually good, can't help it if we're tilted.
I'm in my right place, don't be a downer.
I am almost sure my best friend likes my mum more then she does me
"The body faught to survive, it evacuated toxins in any way it knew how. It made clots to stop the bleeding.Bones would find the quickest ways to heal themselves. It made scar tissue. In the face of violence towards it, it would become violent. It was amazing, yet excruciating. "
I think I am going to cut tonight
I've had a fairly good day
I always end up cutting after good days
How messed up is that?
Probably because I don't deserve to be feeling good or happy
I don't even remember what happiness feels like
My RYL family: PaperClip is my big sis
"Greatness inspires envy, envy engenders spite, spite spawns lies. You must know this, Dumbledore."
- The Dark Lord
I lied when you asked me if I had any more symptoms. I said it was just a voice. Not plural voices.
I never told you about my ability, my gift to feel the emotional pain of others - that thats why I get depressed.
I never told you about the times I have heared them speak out of the radio, or when I believe they are watching me, that I don't go outside for days at a time so I don't have to cope with them all staring and talking about me....
I lie about these things because no one believes me any more. When I was in hospital the first time they kept asking me what the voices were saying and I just rocked on the floor with my hands over my ears, they let me go the next day....
You made up your mind to torture mine!
If you read a scar like a book, you will relise the story in which you over look
Today while waiting for the train. I was balancing on the edge next to the tracks. All I could think about was how I wanted to jump when the train got there.
My RYL family: PaperClip is my big sis
"Greatness inspires envy, envy engenders spite, spite spawns lies. You must know this, Dumbledore."
- The Dark Lord
let me tell you a secret... please leisa let me tell you a secret...
wana know what has stopped me from cutting over the past month and a half - seeing you
wana know why I still held onto life... even though I just wanted everything to end - cuz of you
wana know why the hell I am still here alive and breathing - yep its all thanks to you...
so lets see what happens now that you are officially on leave...
lets see what becomes of me
...lets see how long I can actually last!
thank you for everything leisa... but really - I think this is NOW my time to leave
Last edited by lozza : 15-11-2009 at 10:08 AM.
sometimes being strong means not holding back the tears but letting them fall
~˙·٠•●♥Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ♥●•٠·˙~
my fur baby girls are my life <3
r.i.p my beautiful girl jackie. i will love you always no matter what - 6/5/10
