Location: In a glass vial in the pocket of a beautiful mind.
I am currently:
I wish I could just jump on a plane right now and go home
rhap·so·dy - an ecstatic expression of feeling or enthusiasm. ♫
"Sacrifice is the most you can love someone." ♥
“Love was at best an excuse for stupidity, at worst a destructive, dangerous emotion that drove men to acts of annihilation which defied logic. It was a twisted, insidious sentiment used to justify everything from spoiling a child to destroying entire civilizations.”
I just can't take this. I miss you, I just wish to god that I could have 5 more minutes of you. I feel so helpless, like nothing is going right. People are dying, people are leaving & I honestly have no one. You leaving, only hurt, not helped.
C : I dont know if I want to be with you or not. Your not the guy you were when we first got togehter. I want him back. Your not him. Hell - we spent an hour and a half together today - one stinking kiss. Sure - you touched me - felt me up - thinking that was what I wanted , but you still didnt get it even when I pushed your hand away . I dont tell you alot - I dont trust you with it. Get over it.
Last edited by Embles : 25-04-2008 at 10:18 PM.
Reason: Needed to get rid of something
We’ve got obsessions
I want to erase every nasty thought that bugs me every day of every week
We’ve got obsessions
You never tell me what it is that makes you strong and what it is that makes you weak.
I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry.
Don't complain to me about being overweight and looking a complete state ever again. I've just witnessed you eat two packets of crisps and a load of prawn crackers. You have NO RIGHT to complain if you keep filling your body with crap.
you were suposed to my freind
my FUCKING freind!!!!!
you ignored me!
you back-stabed me!
you spred rumors about me!
you stole all my freinds!
my self asteem!
my life!
......and some how, somewere between all the lies and the hate and you being a fucking bitch
..................i fell in love whith you........
......i fell in FUCKING LOVE WHITH YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
What do you think of me? And you? What do any of you think of me? Gosh, i'm so confused. I don't know what I want, I don't know where i'm going. Whenever I think about it I get scared. I prefer going along at my own pace, life as it comes and all that. I know i've gotta look towards the future sooner or later, but i'm scared. What if I make the wrong decision? What if I lose everybody i've ever known and loved? I know i'm not as close to anybody anymore, my trust is just broken, and I like being alone. But when i'm alone for too long I just get so down. I just hope I don't lose anybody, because as much as people depend on me, I depend on them 10 times as much. I hope I do this right.
You can't lose hope when it's hopeless.
You gotta hope more,
then put your fingers in your ears and go,
"Blah blah blah blah!"
^ you will.
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You don't know everything.
In fact there's a hell of a lot I don't tell you.
I like that.
I hate that.
Do I tell you?
Not likely.
Oops.
aaaaaaaaaaaaargh!!!!!!!!!!!!! for F*cks Sake!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
We’ve got obsessions
I want to erase every nasty thought that bugs me every day of every week
We’ve got obsessions
You never tell me what it is that makes you strong and what it is that makes you weak.
I hate you but at the same time i dont, you cant just tell me the things you have and then tell me you have a boy friend. Its to late to tell me how you felt now, you should have done that over a year ago, you should have made an effort. You should have picked up the phone that night, 5 minutes or so was it really to much to ask, you should of just thought every thing through first, you should let me come and visit it might help. You should just take a step back and think. You shouldnt of done what you did with him, but thats what i think and now your to busy to listen to it.
But that is life. If nothing else, that's life, you know.
It's real. Sometimes it hurts. To be honest, it's sort of all we have.
youre boringggg me.
and i'm sorry. but this routine is getting boring. because i want more. or i am expecting more. or i don't know.
but hurry the fuck up, kthnxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx.
*huddles up into a ball* i can't do this anymore!
Arrrrrrrrrgggggggggggg why can't i do this?
It's not even that hard, plus im surrounded by people who love and car about me!
So why can i not pull myslef together, why do i stilll lie!!
Why the Fuck did i break down in School, i tried so hard to hold the tears back and manged it twice, but you know what they say third times a charm!!
They just kept rolling down my face and i couldn't stop, stupid eyes!!!!!!!!
It felt soooooooo goooooooood, but i hated every second of it!!
I wish i could dissapear, so people would'nt have seen the weakness........help?!?!
Location: In a glass vial in the pocket of a beautiful mind.
I am currently:
I think I'm an addict to abuse. How messed up is that?
rhap·so·dy - an ecstatic expression of feeling or enthusiasm. ♫
"Sacrifice is the most you can love someone." ♥
“Love was at best an excuse for stupidity, at worst a destructive, dangerous emotion that drove men to acts of annihilation which defied logic. It was a twisted, insidious sentiment used to justify everything from spoiling a child to destroying entire civilizations.”
Well I guess I cant say anything to you on here now - that I wanted to keep private from you.
I know I can talk to you about anything - but this thread was where I could rant when you werent online - or I was messed up & just wanted to type without a reply.
Thats why I wont read your posts. Your posts are for you.
If you do read this - dont tell me you've read it.
I know you always mean well - which is why Im not annoyed at you for finding me on here.
Just - Your a good mate - but dont say if you've read this.
I know you probably will.
We’ve got obsessions
I want to erase every nasty thought that bugs me every day of every week
We’ve got obsessions
You never tell me what it is that makes you strong and what it is that makes you weak.
"Are you angry at me?"
STUPID QUESTION.
Have you just forgotten what you asked me the other night?
fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you
I hope she finds out somehow you fucking dog.
I love you truly.
