You really really hurt me last night. And killed all of the excitement about seeing you. I couldn't care less if you don't get on that plane to come here tomorrow. I'm so angry.
I genuinely wasn't shouting at you! More the trolls at the, what I call, assessment. I need to stop being ambigious :P
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I'm sorry for being a crap girlfriend at the moment. I don't know where my head is at the moment.
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I'm sorry for being a crap friend recently. I love you all lots, I just can't seem to find the words or focus. (see above). I'm going to get an hour of chart-making in before work as my little contribution for the team today :)
I don't understand the timetable. I left early last week because of anxiety, I don't really feel the need to do that today, so please let there actually be a tutorial when I go to check.
I'm sorry I didn't talk a lot today but thank you for making me feel okay and thank you for looking after me you don't know how amazing you are, really, you don't
"pretty pretty please dont you ever ever feel like your less than less than perfect"
"Don't ever change, you're perfect the way you are" only a PM away for ANYONE
Gem [smurfette] is my little sister and my princess <3
R.I.P. Keith....31/10/12....forever missed
R.I.P. Lewis....18/01/13....forever I'll love you, forever missed
A hard day at work saw me locked in the toilets whispering over and over again 'you don't need to self harm, you don't need to self harm, you don't need to self harm'....When did this become my life? When did this become normal?
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry for doing such a hopeless job.
I'm sorry for being a rubbish friend.
I'm sorry for being so jealous.
I'm sorry for being such a failure.
I'm sorry for how I treated you.
Always seem to get things just that little bit wrong.
"don't wish, don't start, wishing only wounds the heart"
My half sister, S told me a heartbreaking memory of hers when she was a child. A BMW pulled up her drive, she saw it was you and immediately ran towards you excitedly calling "Mommy". You saw her, pulled her aside and told her to never call you that again. She remembers you wearing a slim fitting dress, with a cigarette in one hand and my Father in the other. You didn't want to acknowledge your five year old daughter in front of your new husband, my Dad. So, from then on, she referred to you as "Aunty".
I wish you weren't so busy all the time. I wish I could tell you I burst into tears on the way home today and I don't even know why. I wish you could make everything ok. I'm really really trying but it's so hard and I could really use a hug but I don't want to take up any more of your time by being needy. Especially when so many other people need you too.
I want to text you but I already know you won't reply.
i wonder if i was vulnerable, convenient, or actually attractive. i'm guessing it wasn't the latter.
oh non-believer, please believe me.
is there honestly nothing in this world
that keeps you living & breathing?
you're a ghost in your own
goddamn city.
Im sick of going to the shop and not being able to leave without buying pills and looking for razors.
Im sick of not being able to go bathroom without wanting to cut myself.
Im sick of you hating me and not knowing why.
Im sick of being awake all the time.
I am sick of having all this damm responsibility.
Basically I am sick.
Im too tired to listen.
Im too old to believe
All these childish stories
There is no such thing as Faith&Trust&Pixiedust
Happiness can be found in the darkest of places.
If only one remembers to to turn on the light.
Please wake up, please. I really, really need you right now. Please.
Happy birthday, little one.
Now I'll play your ghost as my ace, whenever I'm led astray.
But I am actually good, can't help it if we're tilted.
I'm in my right place, don't be a downer.
Work. Work is long.
Hi there.
Work is not cool.
We're not aquainted however its recently come to my attention that your intentions are quite frankly a little bit dodgy, Sunshine.
Weather is also not cool.
Let me assure you that whatever game you think you are playing isn't working & although I have faith
Is cold and raining.
in the powers that be, karma being just one example, I am warning you now; stop. You will not win.
Bad rain.
If you continue down this path it will only end badly for you.
Bad, bad rain.
I may not be your target but you will become mine. This is not something you want. Trust me. :)
And sleep. Why you evade me?
You have been warned.
Vi Veri Veniversum Vivus Vici.
By the power of truth, I, while living, have conquered the universe.
