I wish you were here to cradle me and hold me and talk quietly to me about our future until I fall asleep and your voice makes the bad dreams go away.
Now I'll play your ghost as my ace, whenever I'm led astray.
But I am actually good, can't help it if we're tilted.
I'm in my right place, don't be a downer.
I'm sorry that I infected you with my poison and then you got sooo ill. I'm sorry I wasn't really there for you much to help you through this sticky patch.
Ballerina123 - My lovely superstar
Call me R -
The best thing about the future is that it comes one day at a time - Abraham Lincoln
That horrible realisation when you rediscover you're still a ridiculously selfish person. I'm sorry for the way I act, I see myself engaging in all the stupidity but I can't stop myself. I apologise, good grief, I apologise so much and I know it pisses people off but mostly it's the only meaningful thing to come out my mouth. So, I'm sorry. I just have no control anymore. My thoughts aren't mine, my body isn't either but my apologies are. I need to sleep and I'm so tempted to take them all just to feel the purity again. I'm not a good person, I don't know what's going on anymore.
I am not weak. I am far far stronger than you think.
He was no longer jean valjean but no. 24601 -les miserable
Some of life's mysteries will never be solved, such as why, after spending an entire evening listenong to Bach, do I find myself humming "the birdie song".......
I am reaching, but i fall, and the stars are black and cold, as i stare into the void of a world that cannot hold- les miserables
I know it's not enough but just being here is all I can offer. I need to fix all the problems but I'm realising I can't offer much but time and patience and endless hugs. I'm sorry...
The only time you will find real light is when you're searching in the dark..
You are a narcissistic idiot and you make me so angry. You may think that family is bound by blood and that's fine but you do not dictate who E thinks of as his family. It is not your decision, it's not mine and it's not Jocelyn's, it is E's! He makes the choice who he regards as his family. Family are people you love and who love you. You may be close minded and think you rule the life of others but I sure as hell refuse to let you make E that way. If it wasn't for the fact that E loves you and needs a dad, I'd be perfectly happy if you fucked off and never came back!
Let us go then you and I, when the evening is spread out against the sky, like a patient etherized upon a table
- T.S. Elliot
sometimes you make me so fucking angry. why can't i be upset without you getting explosive? i'm not mad at you. i wasn't even mad. i'm depressed. D-E-P-R-E-S-S-E-D. you should know what it's like. stop slamming doors and walking out on me. stop swearing. i should be able to tell you why i'm upset without you treating me like shit.
and you wonder why i don't talk to you when i'm upset...
i hate getting to the point where you realize you're totally alone and no one really gives a fuck. the people who promised to be there for you are missing.
okay you know what you really piss me off. ugh i shouldn't feel this way about a friend, but it's true. because yes, you are selfish actually. you can't even freaking see it. jeebus at least i know i'm selfish.
just, okay you piss me off quite a lot of the time.
Wow really?
I feel so bad for you.
Maybe you should have started earlier than FIVE HOURS before it's due.
Maybe you should have come to class more than three times.
Maybe you should have made an effort.
Made you should have made a TINY F***ING EFFORT.
This is your life.
You know what's on the line here.
I know you care, but you are not acting like it one bit.
It is not that hard.
Suck it up and just fucking TRY for once.
For ONCE.
Giving up doesn't always mean you're weak.
Sometimes it just means you're strong enough to let go.
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It'll be okay. Won't it?
