I just spent the last 20 minutes trying to break open a disposible razor, not because I wanted to si, but because I felt I didn't have enough implimnets with which to hurt myself..I'm pathetic
“Because everything that goes around comes around. Maybe it's luck or maybe it's fate, but either way, it comes back around."
Rest in Love Sar-sis. I'll see you the next time around hopefully <3 12/11/92-05/18/16
AJs mommy ❤️ 11/26/17
Married to my best friend and Soulmate 3/5/18 ❤️💍
If u want the Rainbow,u gotta put up with the Rain
Join Date: Mar 2005
Location: London
I am currently:
For weeks now I've cried every single day. Probably months. For as long as I can remember there hasnt been a day where I havnt cried.
What kind of life is that
If u want the Rainbow,u gotta put up with the Rain
Join Date: Mar 2005
Location: London
I am currently:
Why did I let myself believe that it was going to be better this time. That this time we were going to have our happily ever after. Why did I open up that box in my head that I'd been trying to shut, and let our dreams fall out of it again, our house in brighton, our kids, christmas's with her family visiting. I believed again all those things were going to happen. Shes waiting to leave me again Im sure. I shouldnt have been so quick to believe again.
If this is over... i'm never getting close to anyone ever again because im so sick of goodbyes.
I just told him "relationships with guys are a waste of time, plain and simple, you want sex, I want sex, why do the relationship thing if it's a waste of time"
thing is, I kind of want a relationship with him....and I have no idea if he wants that too, shit..I'm an idiot
“Because everything that goes around comes around. Maybe it's luck or maybe it's fate, but either way, it comes back around."
Rest in Love Sar-sis. I'll see you the next time around hopefully <3 12/11/92-05/18/16
AJs mommy ❤️ 11/26/17
Married to my best friend and Soulmate 3/5/18 ❤️💍
I want both of them, but can only have one or the other because they hate eachother..I'm selfish
“Because everything that goes around comes around. Maybe it's luck or maybe it's fate, but either way, it comes back around."
Rest in Love Sar-sis. I'll see you the next time around hopefully <3 12/11/92-05/18/16
AJs mommy ❤️ 11/26/17
Married to my best friend and Soulmate 3/5/18 ❤️💍
I'm fighting against what everyones telling me just because he's a guy?? everyone is saying that I should be with him, his own brother says that...and yet I'm fighting and coming up with excuses why? because of the fact that he's a guy.
what is wrong with me? why can't I just grow some guts and just be single until he comes home, I'd be happier.
but I'm a glutton for misery and punishment as always
“Because everything that goes around comes around. Maybe it's luck or maybe it's fate, but either way, it comes back around."
Rest in Love Sar-sis. I'll see you the next time around hopefully <3 12/11/92-05/18/16
AJs mommy ❤️ 11/26/17
Married to my best friend and Soulmate 3/5/18 ❤️💍
Every time somebody sees a scar, I make a brand new one to replace the control I've just lost.
They are all mine, and I feel in control when I won't let anybody see them.
I don't care if I sound crazy either.
They are all mine.
A week is a really long time, I wish I'd have said yes.
~Beauty without intellence, is a materpiece painted on a napkin.~
I'd rather be with the person that nearly broke my arm, has called me worthless and when I called her suicidal said that she "didn't want to deal with my bullshit" rather then the guy who has sat up til two in the morning listening to me and giving me advice, telling me it DOES get better and that I deserve to be happy and that he's always gunna be there for me.
just. because. he's. a. guy. I'd rather be with someone that nearly KILLED me rather then someone that would kill her if he knew, just because of gender?
wht the fuck is wrong with me???
“Because everything that goes around comes around. Maybe it's luck or maybe it's fate, but either way, it comes back around."
Rest in Love Sar-sis. I'll see you the next time around hopefully <3 12/11/92-05/18/16
AJs mommy ❤️ 11/26/17
Married to my best friend and Soulmate 3/5/18 ❤️💍
If u want the Rainbow,u gotta put up with the Rain
Join Date: Mar 2005
Location: London
I am currently:
Im not sure if I can live like this. I want to be with her. I do. So badly. But every time she doesnt call or text I wonder what shes doing. If shes doing that. Who shes doing it with. If she'll come back or if she wont. What state she'll come back in if she does. I dont want to be 'overprotective'. I dont want to be that person. But I love her and I want to keep her safe. I dont what she'll do while shes doing that or who'll so do it with. I just wish she'd stop self destructing. I dont want to lose her again. But thats what it feels like.
she's a way better friend then she was a girl friend. why didn't I see that before?
at least she knows how to help me now, I just spent three hours pouring out my soul to my ex g/f, she straight forward told me what everyone else has told me, what I've even told myself.
why is it I'm better off as friends with half of my ex's and when we're friedns we get along way better then we did when we were together?
“Because everything that goes around comes around. Maybe it's luck or maybe it's fate, but either way, it comes back around."
Rest in Love Sar-sis. I'll see you the next time around hopefully <3 12/11/92-05/18/16
AJs mommy ❤️ 11/26/17
Married to my best friend and Soulmate 3/5/18 ❤️💍
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I'm losing more weight then I ever have and this time I don't care, I want to get so bad I end up in hospital. maybe then they'll see that I do need help. I'm baking today...I really hope I don't eat any of it
“Because everything that goes around comes around. Maybe it's luck or maybe it's fate, but either way, it comes back around."
Rest in Love Sar-sis. I'll see you the next time around hopefully <3 12/11/92-05/18/16
AJs mommy ❤️ 11/26/17
Married to my best friend and Soulmate 3/5/18 ❤️💍
