I miss you mum. Every minute. I really didn't realize how much i needed you til now. I seem to spend so much time alone. I have so much time now. I have no-one to look after and i don't know what to do with myself. Dad cooked tea the other day and it felt so wrong, i always make tea for us. I know he's trying. I'm trying to get on with him because you hated us arguing but i just feel like he doesn't want me around. We're going to find your mum tomorrow, so that we can put you with her. Aunty says not to worry because your already together and your happy. I hope you are. I love you forever. Miss you always xxxx
Hiya hunni. My mum is with you now. You look after her for me. I'll try come see you this week. I know i keep saying i will but i never seem time, now i seem to have a lot. I want to come before your birthday which is soon. sleep tight beautiful girl!! xxxx
i still love you dad... i just hope your not disappointed in me... i wish you could been here for my birthday, and everything else thats going on... i miss you from the bottom of my heart...
We had to talk about why we were doing the course, why we wanted to get into psychology. I had a lot of reasons, a lot of reasons from years ago. But a warm feeling swelled up in my heart; I was doing this for you, Emma. I miss you.
Alyssa, when you died I was jealous. We were both suicidal and somehow you managed to let go of life, and somehow -as equally baffling- I managed to move on through it. You didn't.
Right now, I have this sense that if you could, you would want to be alive again. And what I would give to have you back. You could have made it through this, you really could have.
It breeds a whole new sense of loss when I think about the lost opportunities. There's nothing quite as sad as the question of "what could have been."
i will miss you...i wish i could have done more for you. i'm sorry hun please forgive please rest in peace hun cries.
“Never lose faith in yourself,
and never lose hope;
remember, even when this world throws its worst and then turns its back,
there is still always hope.”
sis, i'm sorry for not protecting you as i should have. i'm sorry for not playing with you more, i miss you. forgive me. sorry for turning out to be a failure and not what you looked up to.
sorry
omg its nearly five years next thursday 13th march it will be five years seens you died.
omg i miss you.
how i wish it was me died not you, how i wish you were still here.
my mum is going to do loads of flowers to go on your grave next week, you know what mum is like loves flowers and loves it even more knowing they are pink and you would love them.
i think about what you would have been doing now if you were still here if life would of been different. no i know it would have been, i would of stayed at school with you and been happy. i know you would have done soo well in life, why was you taken why not me.
you had a life a head of you, what do i have nothing, nothing now you are gone.
i love you and miss you.
until we meet again.
xx
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
Well hun it coming up to a year and tomorrow is your birthday. I'm dreading it. Wish you was here to celebrate it. 17!! You went far too young and without a warning. I think about you alot and I can still here you laugh. Give my mum a big hug and tell her not to be sad. Happy birthday princess!
ian.
im still refusing to believe youre gone
one day you will walk through our front door and sit down for breakfast.
you were dads best friend
how could none of us see this happening?
i think dad partly blames himself for what happend.
he keeps saying "if we had invited him around for dinner" or "gone hunting that weekend" things might be different.
we went to see you today, it didn't look like you.
your lips werent right.
we could partly see a little bit of the bruising on the back of your head.
but your shirt had been done up lots so we couldn't see the hole at the front.
thats the only time ive seen dad cry. you werent just a family friend ian.
you WERE family.
you had never missed a family event that we had.
i never thought i would miss you this much.
i know how proud you were when i won the cinematography award for the first film.
im writing another film now, its dedicated to you.
I'll never forget you. I miss you so much. I feel bad that I'm beginning to move on because I'm scared that means I've got over you. But I haven't. I miss you so much. When I saw the bread on the lawn yesterday I just wanted to cry. I want you back Daisy. I'm so sorry I didn't put you away that night. I'm so sorry for what happened to you. I really hope you're ok now and are happy eating carrots and bread, even barbeque covers! You can keep Flopsy company now. Look after each other for me. I hope you do a better job than I did.
Sometimes the way in life seems cloudy...But remember, after the storm comes clear skies
I told you I would come soon didn't i lil star? what a weird day it was! I set off for uni and end up at your grave! I'm suprised how easy it was to find you. I'm sorry i didn't come sooner. I was scared I guess. Visiting your grave means you are gone and you aren't coming back. I haven't really been ready for that but wednesday just felt right. It's so peaceful and I played your song and cried and spoke about my mum. I know that your not really there, just your body is. Your all around us, with your family, friends, everyone. I hope you know that we still think about you and that we'll never forget you. Miss you princess. Tell my mum i love her and miss her everyday! xxxxx
I keep thinking of you at the weirdest times. It still upsets me. 4 months. I should be over it by now, right? Maybe I can join you. Does it work that way? They're talking of scattering your ashes from the top of that mountain in Ireland, but I don't think I'll be able to watch you just get thrown away and discarded like that. Just chucked away, never to return.
It's so easy to pretend it didn't happen, that you're still in Nottingham, like always, going to see all your friends. Then I think about how it's my birthday soon and your name won't be in the card. Even though Granny always writes it, your name won't be there. You were meant to be at my goddamn wedding. I've not even got a boyfriend yet and you're ****ing gone.
Everyday I drive past that spot. Everyday I look over and see where the accident happened. Everyday I drive past the place you died.
And I imagine your face, hear your laugh, and I miss you. I wish you were hear. I don't understand why you are gone. Why you got in that car. Why the accident happened.
I miss you.
"If you don't stand for something in your life, then you will fall for anything"
Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls,
Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?
I'm sorry for not visiting your tree in so long. I feel guilty and I am always thinking of you. Just because I haven't visited your tree doesn't mean you aren't in my heart every day, I promise you that. I miss you lots and I love you lots too. xxx
its that day again on thursday.
i dont know if im going to be able to cope.
i dont even know if i will make it past thursday.
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
