Goddamn. Why am I still bothered about this? About you going? You're probably so much more comfortable, happier, more yourself. I really hope you can't see what I'm doing to myself. I really do.
I still can't believe I'm never going to speak to you again, to see you. You were meant to be at my wedding, you know. I never thought you'd actually die, I thought you'd be around forever. Stupid huh.
I wish you were still here, Andy.
I miss you every day.
I loved you so much, and I still do..
But there are so many questions that will never be answered,
And it tortures me.
I hope when you look down on me you're proud,
And I hope you're happy wherever you are now.
I just wish I could hug you one last time.
"I promise that I shall never give up,
and that I'll die yelling and laughing"
- Jack Kerouac
Hi Cami baby. I wrote a poem about you today. I hope you like it...I decided to share it with some people, I hope you don't mind. Can you please look after Craig, he died last Wednesday and I want to make sure he'll be happy.
Hi Amy, just wanting you to know I was thinking about you today. I wonder if today that could've saved your life, I don't think we can say for sure. All this talk of 'modern medicine'...but I guess, there was 'modern medicine' when you died. Just wanting you to come back, it was never fair for you to get taken away. So young.
Grandpa,
I'm sorry I can't cry for you yet. It's only been a month and a half. but I feel like I should be able to. I feel guilty that I cried for Grandma those first few days more than I have for you total--I feel like it means I loved you less although I know it didn't.
I don't really feel your death yet. It's not as real as it should be--and that's the part that hurts. The fact that I can't react hurts more than anything else.
We knew it was coming. So why is it still so hard?
I want to cry for you so so badly. I'm sorry I've let you down. I hope you and Grandma haven't been watching me these past few weeks/months. Watching how much of a mess I've become and watching me destroy myself. You don't deserve to see that.
I love you so so much.
and I am so sorry that I never have been and never will be the wonderful person you always thought I was.
Tom, you were just an average guy with an average mind and an average life. You lived in an average house near your average girlfriend and your average job. But you were so much more to me. I'll visit you're grave again.
I'd like to add that this site really needs this thread and thank you for creating. It needs that warning though, some of these messages had me near tears despite me knowing nothing about the people they refer to.
I miss you Nan...It must have been 5 years or so... I really miss you. I hope you understand. Why I shied away I hope you understand that. I hope you didn't feel too much.
You have your own song you know. I cry every time I listen to the Stereophonics Mr Writer. It was the song I was listening to at 18.30 that Saturday in January when I found out.
I really miss you. Somedays, I hate you, I hate you for not being there, I hate you for the fact that you could be alive right now if you would have just gone to the hospital.
We listened to the funeral tape the other day, it made me wonder if I'm living up to what everyone wants me to be. Would I make you proud, am I carrying on your spirit? If you knew that I was posting this, on this site, you would be so scared, so upset, worried about your baby, and I feel bad for that. But, I'll always be your little girl, I promise.
You're constantly on my mind right now babe. 5 days time & it will be a year since you've been gone. I can't believe it, I still can't believe it. I remember that Sunday morning when we woke up and heard the news like it happened yesterday, it still feels so so real. It is real. Walking through the school you can feel the heaviness in everyone who knew you's hearts, we all miss you so incredibly much. I love you Dan, why'd it have to be you? You put a smile on everyones face, people who didn't ever speak to you miss you. Fifteen years wasn't long enough for you to be here angel, not at all. But I know your up there smiling down on us. I'll never forget you, we'll never forget you.
five years nearly can you belive it.
i cant belive it you have nearly been gone for five years.
omg i miss you.
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
Hi, wow I really don't know what I would say to you if you could hear me,
I'm sorry I wasn't there, when you were dying,
I'm sorry I'm so so so so SORRY, - please, tell me it didn't hurt,
tell me that you wern't lying there, your last dying thoughts, my daughter doesn't love me.
Please tell me you didn't die thinking that I didn't care enough to visit,
I did care, I'm only beggining to realise now that I don't hate you,
the reason I didn't come......the reason I didn't come, was because I care too much. Thats why, I couldn't watch you slip away from me, because I love you too much.
I'm sorry, I love you I do.
"In the driest whitest stretch of pains infinate desert, I lost my sanity, and found this rose"
I didn't even know you, but I wish I had the guts to do what you did.
You touched so many people whether they knew you or not. 2 years later it's finally affecting me.
RIP babe.
Ive been sat here for 5 minutes thinking what to say to you. I miss you doesnt seem to get anywhere close to what i feel.
Each day that goes by its closer and closer to a year to when you died. Each day makes me miss you more. I dont want the day to come. I dont want to wake up on that day and know that you were dead while i was in Greece having a good time and laughing. I should of been here. I should of known something was wrong. I miss you. I need you. Come back. Please. Come back and hold me and tell me its going to be ok. Help me. Help me get through this. I need these thoughts to go. I need you here with me to get me through these thoughts and these feelings. Please?
Nan. Its been too long. I still cant get over the fact i never got to say goodbye or that i love you. I just wanted to hug you one last time. I want to hear you say my name one last time. When i put that rose with your coffin, it felt like i was letting go of you. Completely letting go of you. When i put the letter in with your body it was my way of saying i love you. Writing it down on the back of a photo isnt good enough. I want to say it to you. I want to see you again. Im sorry i wasnt there to say goodbye. I hope your happy and at piece up there in heaven with Grandad.
**If You Love Someone Or Something Enough, Set Them Free.**
I don't know what to say anymore. I'm still shocked. I wish I could talk to you and tell you what is going on, though I don't know what I would say. If I had the chance. If I had the chance. But I don't have the chance, not anymore.
"
There's something about your smile, and I don't know what it is.
But it captivated me from the beginning.
And like Alyssa, like you, it was the first thing that I saw,
When I heard when you pased on to the next world.
But you'll never be forgotten,
For a beautiful person like you is rare.
You touched the lives of those around you,
Even when we were all covered by the same dark cloud.
I hope you are free now, your soul above me somehow,
No more pain that you will have to bear.
And down here I will work for you,
Whatever I have to do,
For what I would give to see you again.
I miss you so much you are in my thoughts each and every inute i will always be your little girl. I will make you so proud.
i love you xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Wish i could tie you up in my shoes....make you feel unpretty too...
Take these sunken eyes and learn to see......
You're still here in my heart.
One Year Dan. I can't quite get my head around it...been busy all day but it's been playing on my mind. This time last year you were still alive, not for long though. God Burge, it's not right, it's not fair. You had so much to live for, you were an amazing guy. I don't think you knew what a massive impact you had on so many people.. You are so missed. Thinking of your mum dad and brothers especially today you'd better be looking down on them mister they need you. Hope you still have that cheeky grin on your face angel, wouldn't be the same without it. You'll always be in everyones hearts never mind how many years pass by. Such a special guy..miss you x
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life.
